Deluded- it sounds like we're in the same situation and seeing as your post was a year ago i really hope you've been successful.
Ive smoked for 8 years, heavily since my son died 4 1/2 years ago and daily for the last year. I've to to pick my head up out of the sand or my family, it's not fair.
Had my last smoke today. No more Baccy, no weed, if I can't do it for myself, I can do it for my kids.
Good luck and wishing you success on your journey.
get the bible brother and start reading it, u wul find salvation in it and its very intresting reminds me of my primary school days doing nativity plays when i didnt even know what marajuna was, my high at the time was playing football and rounders in the park best days of my life ask god he wul help all the best my friend i wul pray for you, marajuna is becomeing the new herion of the world and it needs stopped
When I was younger I couldn't imagine not getting high. Then I was arrested for possession and in jail I realized that it's not hard to quit if the option isn't there. I have to quit smoking for a job opportunity so last night i smoked the last joint and then proceeded to stash all my paraphernalia in the basement and threw away all the roaches. It sounds dumb but when I put all that stuff down in the basement I knew i wouldn't touch it again for a couple months because my pride will not let me. A persons pride will prevent them from doing many things and mine prevents me from going down to the basement grabbing the bowl and resin hitting it right now. Maybe I want to, but doing so would fill me with more shame than feeling crappy and miserable ever could.
My Advice: create a situation that you can not back out of like going camping or spend the weekend at your parents. After the first couple days you wont even think about it anymore and who knows maybe you wont see the point in starting back up again. ;)
Hello, this site is amazing because i´m portuguese and i´ve only found brasilian sites and people there are so desrespectfull like if we want to stop smoking they start joking at us. I´m a 29 year old girl and i´ve smoking joints for about 12 years. I thougt it was a kind of life and could enjoy it more smoking but things went wrong. When i made 20 i have had panic attacks and develope a depression and i can´t explain why. I think i was living in a fairy tail and when problems in life appeared i fall down. I have never been a responsible girl because when i smoke usually at night, things become more interesting and i don´t want to go to bed and in the morning i can´t go out from bed. The time as passed with me going to one job for another. When i stop smoking was when all went well. I met a new guy that has to smoke to get out of the bed and be productive so i´ve started to smoke again and all the problems appeared again and panick attacks to but i didn´t realize that was from the weed and went to the same psichiatrist thar helped me a long time ago with the depression and he has prescribed me some medication for depression and psychotic thougs because i went there saying that my bf didn´t love me, could stop crying and with very anxiety problems. So i went on the medication and allways smoking and in school (i went back) i was allways sleeping. Then i went for a curriculum stage and i was affraid to have a bad note so i stop smoking at the week and passed it from weekend. When i came back i have the idea of continue to smoke only at the weekend but i went to the doctor and he say that i was good to stop medication. I stop medication and about one week later i woke up every days with very anxiety problems and all that i eat i throw up and i became very scared and decided not to smoke at that time. I realized that i was addicted to pills and could stop at once so i mde a weaning to stop but the doctor don´t know. Now it as passed 7 months without smoking beacuse i´m affraid of it all....but weed don´t go out of my mind...i´ve finished my course. My bf finished the relation in that week i couldn´t stop vomiting. All my friends are related to drugs so i´m a little bit alone right now trying to get a job and focus at my life. I miss smoking weed most of time but i want to forget about it...and i´m trying...i also have panic in driving a car...
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Even i was thinking to quit one day and form a family i was not ready because i was forced to stop by the adiction to medication and being very scared about that...weed can be our best friend and also our worst friend..i miss lightening a spliff but i know i go addicted again....and problems start...i think when i get a job, a car and a boyfriend maybe i will forget this need i feel...
I would like to know if someone has get tired of smoking and get over with...i remember once i get tired and stopped, before that time i was smoking hash and tusk but then i met one guy and started to smoke weed and i think is more difficult to left...or get tired of...
At this time i´m not living..i´m surviving. What do you think if i take some trags with a friend? At least to calm me down. Like doing a weaning. Kiss
Finally someone posts how I feel. I DONT WANT TO QUIt. I have no problem with weed. I went through college straight a's smoking my ass off. I work my ass off in alaska as a commercial fisherman smoking with my captain all day LONG. Society is screwing me over, i shouldnt have to quit, i dont have a problem, i am a productive citizen. WHY DO I HAVE TO QUIT ITS SO HARD. I went to school to be a mechanic, i screwed myself, everyone drug tests, i hate my life. I have been 4 days and i cant sleep, my girl smokes all day long she cant quit. but she needs me to because she got hurt at work and fired because of weed and now its all on me to save the day. I have had 4 jobs and failed 4 drug tests because detox drinks suck. I guess i gotta get down on my knees and suck the mans wang, all you people who get depressed about smoking i dont get it, i love it and it loves me and i am a very productive person, so i guess i gotta thank yall for going soft and agreeing with society that we all have a problem, THANKS.
I have quit now for over one month after a 8 years of smoking pot. It is so much better. I recommend it to anyone. You will start to enjoy your life fully again.
thanks great advice youve given me some hope all the best
A sincere gratitute goes out to all of you who have shared your stories. I have read every single one of them these past 4 days and am now 100% certain that quitting weed is what I have to do and I have to do it now!
Reading all these life stories these past days I have felt like I’ve been going to meetings in ”Potheads Anonymous” listening to all of you without contributing myself, so…. Hi I’m John and I’m an addict!! Welcome to the first day of the rest of my life!
Each and every story has some element to which I can relate. Like many of you I was sure I was the only one feeling like a complete looser as soon as the joint was lit but feeling I really needed it when I was not high. I no longer know if I am the person I am because that’s who i am or because I’ve been toking all these years. I don’t like what I see in the mirror anymore. My parents don’t know what I’ve been doing all these years and I’m their only child. If they knew they would be heartbroken which has led to a very bad consience through the years. I experimented with amphetamine, cocaine and ecstacy when I was young, not too much though (I knew it was bad for me). I never liked alcohol that much so weed has always been my drug of choice. Honestly I believe that weed is the easiest thing to recover from and in a way I’m happy weed is the habbit i need to kick. I will always fight for its legalization and accept that it is not a ”bad” thing for those who can control it or for people who need it for medical reasons. For years I preached that weed isn’t bad for you and is easy to control. And after reading all your posts and being honest to myself I now know this to be false. When smoking I get chills and start freezing and shaking and my heart races like you wouldn’t believe. I belive I suffer from some degree of anxiety and paranioa. Furthermore it is by no means the same high as it was years ago. So why do we still crave it? Or is it in fact our subconcious that manipulates us into believing that we crave it?
I’m 30 years old and have been smooking on and of for the past 15 years. Half my life I’ve spent being high…. Oh my GOD!! It took me all of you guys to realize how f*****d up that is! I’m a pretty intelligent guy and have managed to keep my eye on the ball through college and later the university, but feel I could have done more, could have been better. There I was in 2007 fresh out the university eager to start my professional career only to realize the financial crisis was in the way and jobs didn’t hang on trees anymore…. not even the crappy ones. 2 years passed, I was unemployed and was unable to find a girlfriend, something I had longed for for awhile. Bit by bit my self esteem dissappeared and I became depressed and ashamed with myself. So I started smoking more and more and kept saying to myself that i would stop when I got a job and found me a girl…. But who was I kidding? I had tried that before; yeah I’ll stop when I graduate, get a job, start this new education, get a new car, after this new years etc etc… needless to say I failed every time! Found me a crappy job about a year ago and found the love of my life at the same time. Quess I don’t need weed anymore! But I did….. and have found myself smoking more than usual. My girlfriend accept it because she loves me…. Only I don’t accept it anymore. I rarely go out and if I do I’m always on my way home no later than 22 o’clock so I can smoke. I panic when my stash is running low and will do anything to hunt it down. I have been using weed as an excuse to cope with all things bad and as an escape from boredom. I actually don’t know when it turned from escape into addiction – guess I was too stoned to realize it, or I have simply been in denial. Maybe it has been an addiction all these years??
I’m a competitive personality and really into my sport. In 3 years I’ve managed to come from being a nobody to being among the best 10 athletes in my country… all while being high. I usually win the local competitions all of which I was high the night before. I used to tell myself that if I could win a competition the day after being high as a kite weed didn’t effect me. But what if I could dominate without smoking weed? What if I could be THE best when doing it sober? That remains to be seen.
Think of all that time spent wanting to get high, working on getting high, and being high. Think about what you could have accomplished during that time?! Plus you actually could have accomplished it in a shorter time frame because you weren’t high.
For the first time I really feel I am ready to quit. I feel I have the strength to see it through this time. It will undoubtly be difficult, but if I can do this…. I can do ANYTHING!! I can do this! You can do this! WE can do this!!
Everything you said ,withdrawral and symtoms is exactly what iam experiencing. Insomnia,irritation, anxiety,Gas, very vivid dreams,talking too much,....i too have smoked for 30 years (heavy). Do you know how long these symptom go for, i quit 4 weeks ago. i thought i was going mad till i read your post. I have seen a doctor how gave me valium, it seems to make the dream worse, also ive been on meds for anxiety and depression and id like to get off them too but am scared this is not the best time ...any advice would be much appreciated , thanx...
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this will certainly cause a change in my life one way or the other and will point me in the right direction thank you all pliz b'lee dat. ;
I have made a weaning of pills doing reiki to not feel the withdrawral of them and it has helped me. But now that i quit pills and weed at the same time i´m feeling a litle bit of anxiety but maybe thats because i have a new life without weed and i have to learn how to live it. I miss pretty much smoking weed but i´m not missing at all the bad things that i feel like the panic attacks and paranoia.