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hey guys. So recently I've been trying to find some sites that i could share my story on but I couldn't really find anything and it sounds like your experiences are a little different than mine. My strange reaction has happened three times out of smoking weed about 8 times or something like that and it has never been this extreme until the first time I had my experience. I have been researching a lot ever since it happened to me and the first time it happened I was kind of freaked out days after so i was obsessing about it and then i tried to make myself forget about it cuz the experience i had was definetily life changing.
the first time it happened i was with my friend jake and it had been a couple months after my last time smoking so i was excited to smoke again cuz I liked the high and the bubbly feeling it gave me. we went to this park next to my school and under this bridge. he took the first hit and we were smoking out of an apple cuz that's all we had so I took the second hit and as soon i finished i started coughing like a maniac and for a minute couldn't stop coughing i felt like i couldn't breath, and i don't think this has anything to do with my experience because it didn't happen the two times after. then when I stopped coughing i went to sit on this rock next to the bridge and i told him i didn't want any more hits. as i was siting there i started to feel pretty high but nothing new, just a normal high. but then it felt like jake was taking forever and i told him to hurry so we could leave but it only had been a couple minutes. when he was done we were walking back up and i told jake i needed to sit because i was feeling so high i didnt want to walk. we went and sat at this picnic table and when we sat down i was feeling really high. i was sitting there and felt really awkward and i didnt know what to talk about. then i remember i had turned around and was laughing with jake about something and then i remember feeling extremely paranoid by the way i looked to jake and everytime i moved these extremely vivid images were showing up in my head and i remember specifically a evil witch looking face and i became very worried that that was how ugly i was to jake's point of view. Than it almost feels like i had blacked out for a minute but I don't remember what happened for a minute i guess i just remember seeing jake look really scared and he kept asking me, "Are you okay?" I felt as though i couldn't speak or move and that my mind was slowly slipping away from me (if that makes sense). then for a second I snapped out of it and i told jake we should start walking. as soon as i took a few steps away from the picnic table that was it, the beginning of it, the worst part. I took a few steps and then the most extreme fear washed over me. it felt as though i was having an out of body experience cuz i remember i was seeing and feeling myself at the same time. i looked at jake and jake had turned watching me as my body was taking steps backward but I couldn't feel it, I didn't know what I was doing, i felt that i had become posessed and someone else was controlling my body, but i was controlling my brain. I was backing away and staring at him and then all of the sudden it became un- real and i was moving in one direction without controlling my body and i thought that my heart was beating a million times per minute and it was like I could hear my heart beat without feeling it. In the background, jake kept saying things like "Are you okay?" and i became very paranoid of everything and scared that i was scaring him. After this, it's very hard to explain what was happening. I had lost my vision, all though my eyes were OPEN because jake had took a video of me while it was happeneing and i did not realize it till afterwards because i thought I had CLOSED my eyes. It felt like time had slowed down to the point I could feel every fraction of a second of my movement, that to me I thought i had looked like a robot moving. But in the video, I was moving quite normally. As my body was moving without my control, there was much more happening inside my head. Just a minute ago, I had researched the word, "Psychedelic". it explained that the worst side affect to having a psychedelic experience is where you feel as if you are acting out, or re-living memories, thoughts, and emotions. So in other words as I was moving around in my head i had thought i was performing the way I was feeling, what I was thinking. To me that's what I thought I was doing, but to Jake it just looked like I was going to random places. There were so many emotions and thoughts that were going through me that it's so hard to explain what my experience was, un fortunately I can only sum it up as best as i can. As this was happening, I kept thinking that I was going insane and there was point where I wanted to kill myself because I didn't want it to happen anymore. I thought that the experience inside my mind was going to last forever and that THAT was my eternity, and that it was a lesson from god that I wasn't supposed to smoke weed, that that was my breaking point and god had took reality away from me to punish me. There were many things going on inside myself. Jake had showed me the video afterwards of me bumping my head into the brick walls and almost walking into the river. Then at some point, I had lost all feeling in my body and I didn't even feel walking into bushes or walking into the brick wall, only once I had felt my head bang against it all though it didn't hurt. He didn't catch everything on the video but he told me I had screamed to him that the devil had possessed me and that i was cursed. I can remember how scared I thought he was. Towards the end of my episode I started waking up from it and gained my vision back and I had saw jake with his phone out filming me and I yelled at him to put his phone away because I felt paranoid that he was going to show people how insane i was being. Then when i started feeling better i tried walking towards the sun light up the hill thinking it was god because i thought i need to pray to god that i was going to do better and to help me. as i walked up the hill, i cupped my hands together and was crying dramatically whispering to myself "help me god" and in the background jake was saying things. when i reached the top of the hill i had looked back at jake and thought i was sinking backwards and the sun was melting behind me and i was going to melt in to the grass, even though i was standing straight. Jake was standning from a distance but it looked like his face was inches from mine. then i started look around and telling myself I was okay and I was just high, trying to calm myself down. Then the feeling went away and for a brief moment I was oky and I looked at Jake and told him to help me and what was happening to me was insane. I started balling my eyes out because i was so terrified and I asked him if he would hug me. Then I just remember i stopped crying and the feeling had came back again just not as intense and i could still see. I don't remember much after that, kind of like a dream, but I do know how paranoid I was and the rest of the day was extreme hallucinations. There were like cycles of my hallucinating, it was changing. At first everything looked like a cartoon and I was like a character of a drawing book (its freakin crazy how real it looked so vivid like i actually was apart of a book) and then it was very bright and vibrant colors, like all the colors were more intense (almost neon) and then it would go to normal but things seemed more far away or close up than they were.
Sorry that was so long but I have been dying to share my story with people who might understand it, it would help me in a way I think. I think that my experience was a psychedelic experience but it wasn't as intense as last night.
I was with my friend Adam last night and i had took one hit from his bong. At first i felt fine, then slowly time was slowing down and I had lost consciousness. It was much more intense actually then the first time, but this time I didn't lose my vision or anything like that but the sensation was a lot more real. I don't know why I smoked again after how affected I was the first time, but the first time it happened i forgot to take my medication the night before so I thought that if I took it that night it wouldn't happen, but it did. Basically I was just sitting there and its hard to remember a lot, because it is almost like a nearby dream or something. But i told adam i was going to lay in his bed and he layed in there with me and when i layed down it was a lot scarier. Time had slowed way down and my the feeling in my body was more intense. I was scared because I kept twitching in the same places in order. I tried to stop but I couldn't and i was scared adam could feel me twitching and that he would be afraid. Then i got up to use the bathroom and I thought that if i stared myself in the mirror i would calm down, but it only made it worse. I leaned into the mirror and stared right into my eyes and I got scared at how red they were, they looked blood shot red. Then I felt like i was in a trance and i got scared by my own face, i actually became scared by looking at myself. i left the bathroom and sat on the couch and adam had came out and turned on the tv show "weeds". I had absolutely no idea what was going on and i felt like i was sinking. Everytime I spoke I thought my voice had changed or sounded different and then it would become far away and I wouldn't remember anything I had said. Then I couldn't tell the difference between my thoughts and my words. I couldn't tell if I was speaking or thinking for a minute and then I thought adam might be seeing me talking to imaginary things and i became really scared that I actually was speaking my thoughts. I went to lay back down in his bed and every time I closed my eyes it felt like it was getting worse. I asked adam what time it was and two hours had passed all though it felt like 15 minutes. i messaged my mom on facebook to come get me and i told her i was scared and to hurry. Adam looked at the message and asked me why i didn't tell him and he got mad. I kept asking him, "am I acting normal?, Am i acting normal?" I was extremely paranoid that i was being myself and that i had turned into someone else. When my mom said she was there I left and as soon as i got to the car i started balling. I don't even remember what i said, but the emotion of love was ten times more intense I kept telling my mom how much I loved her. When we got home i told my mom i was going to lay down and listen to my ipod. When I turned the music on I got freaked out because the music didn't sound at all the same and I thought that maybe I was imagining the music so i got scared and put the ipod away. THen the feeling got a lot worse. I was laying down looking at my mom and I kept thinking that maybe that was reality and that's what happens when you die, and i thought that everyone was just acting and that my life was just a movie and that my mother didn't actually love me and all these crazy thoughts that my perception on life was so more intense I almost felt like I was one with the universe and knew everything. When I closed my eyes the pictures I saw were so vivid it was like I was there and then I imagined I was drowning and I could literally FEEL and HEAR the ocean and me sinking in water. It is absolutely INSANE how real everything feels when you experience this.
Here is exactly how i felt :
First, sensory perceptions become especially brilliant and intense. Normally unnoticed aspects of the environment capture the attention; ordinary objects are seen as if for the first time and acquire new depths of significance. Esthetic responses are greatly heightened: colors seem more intense, textures richer, contours sharpened, music more emotionally profound, the spatial arrangements of objects more meaningful. People may feel keener awareness of their bodies or sense changes in the appearance and feeling of body parts. Depth perception is often heightened and perspective distorted; inanimate objects take on expressions, and synesthesia (hearing colors, seeing sounds, etc.) is common. Time may seem to slow down enormously as more and more passing events claim the attention, or it may stop entirely, giving place to an eternal present. When the eyes are closed, fantastically vivid images appear: first geometrical forms and then landscapes, buildings, animate beings, and symbolic objects.The emotional effects are even more profound than the perceptual ones. The drug taker becomes unusually sensitive to faces, gestures, and small changes in the environment. As everything in the field of consciousness assumes unusual importance, feelings become magnified; love, gratitude, joy, sympathy, lust, anger, pain, terror, despair, or loneliness may become overwhelming, or two seemingly incompatible feelings may be experienced at once. It is possible to feel either unusual openness and closeness to others or exaggerated distance that makes them seem like grotesque puppets or robots. The extraordinary sensations and feelings may bring on fear of losing control, paranoia, and panic, or they may cause euphoria and bliss.Short-term memory is usually impaired, but forgotten incidents from the remote past may be released from the unconscious and relived. Introspective reflection with a sense of deep, sometimes painful insight into oneself or the nature of humanity and the universe is common; often the experience seems somehow more real or more essential than everyday life. There are also profound changes in the sense of self: the ego may separate from the body (dissociation), or the boundary between self and environment may dissolve.At deeper levels, drug users may regress to childhood as they relive their memories, or they may project themselves into the series of dreamlike images before their closed eyelids and become the protagonists of symbolic dramas enacted for the mind's eye. Actions, persons, and images in this dream-world or even in the external world may become so intensely significant and metaphorically representative that they take on the character of symbols, myths, and allegories. Loss of self may be experienced as an actual death and rebirth, undergone with anguish and joy of overwhelming intensity. In some cases the culmination is a mystical ecstasy in which for an eternal moment all contradictions seem reconciled, all questions answered, all wants irrelevant or satisfied, all existence encompassed by an experience that is felt to define the ultimate reality, boundless, timeless, and ineffable.
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Marijuana smoke can cause many of the same respiratory problems experienced by tobacco smokers, such as increased daily cough and phlegm production, more frequent acute chest illnesses such as bronchitis.
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hi ive been reading your answers although i didnt feel like i was going to soil myself i still had a werid/bad reaction about a month ago, im 17 nearly 18 and ive smoked since i was 15, i had a really bad cold and maybe a virus and was off work for a week but on the wedesday night i decided to get some weed see if it would make me feel any better, i took a couple bong hits and felt fine the all of a sudden i started feeling really werid and said to myself calm down your fine, but it wouldn't go away. I started freaking out and i dont know if it was a panic attack but my heart was racing, and i felt like i was hallucinating, like i got flash backs or images going through my head of memories n sh*t when i shut my eyes and i started thinking like, im i going to be like this for the rest of my life kinda sh*t, i know it sound really stupid but i really thought i was dying. i actally wanted to just die there and then to make the feeling go away lol, it sounds f*****g ridiculous but i hated that feeling soo much. my friend didnt know as i was outside his house to get some air but also because i didnt want him to see my that way, after all i just said i was going home, on the way home i still felt horribel its hard to describe it was like some out of body experience, i got home then went for a shower but even in the shower i started seeing things and will still in such a panic soo much that after that i told me my and dad that i felt really werid, i couldnt keep it all to myself (they dont know i smoke weed btw) they just said youve got a virus thats why you feel this way even tho i knew it was becsaue i smoked pot, i didnt tell them i just kinda went to sleep after a while of a panic with my mum, the next day i felt normal again but was still scared of what happened. i said there and then i wouldnt smoke again, but when i got better and back to work i met with my mate and had i couple draws of a joint just because i was soo curious if it would happen again, after 1 draw i got that horrible feeling straight away so i pretended to smoke it and gave it back to him, a couple weeks after that i smoked a joint with my 3 mates and tbh i just thouhgt to myself your being stupid its all in you head and i felt fine, i smoked another with them and a when we go back in the car i felt that same horrible feeling but this time i controlled it and went back to normal. all i want to know is there any way to not feel this, i dont want my friends to stop hanging around with me beause i dont smoke weed, to this day ive not smoked in around 2 weeks and not realy bothered,i would just like to know that i could smoke a dobbie now and then and feel the same awsome pleasures of being stoned, also is this feeling ever happened to any of you and writing this to help others who felt the same way and make you feel i bit better for yourself and knowing your not the only one who felt like this. Thanks for reading post me a message please i would find that helpful
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Can any of you email me or contact me about this, these exact feelings have been coming up for the past year and I have never seen anyone else feel the same thing and I'd really like to discuss it. Can anyone email me ? ***this post is edited by moderator *** *** private e-mails not allowed*** Please read our Terms of Use
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