I'm just a teenager but I have found the love of my life- my boyfriend is perfect for me, he treats me like a woman should be treated and he does everything for me- he adores me. And I adore him. We have been dating 4 months but knew eachother for a year beforehand.
Naturally, with such mental, spiritual and emotional connections come the inevitable.. physical, connections and attractions.
My boyfriend and I have had sexual intercourse (I lost my virginity to him) 2 times in the past 2-3 weeks I believe, the last time being Sunday. We did not use a condom. And in fact I was so small for him the first time that he could just barely fit his head into me.
I have been on birth control pills for two months and he did not come inside me, it didn't go on for very long so I'm not even sure of any amount of pre-ejaculate even, as I have heard that can contain semen as well.
Just yesterday, Tuesday, my best friend commented on my stomach saying it looked like I had "gained some weight." Undoubtedly, this scared the sh*t out of me. I asked my mother if it looked like I had gained weight and she said yes, maybe, but that I'm just starting to "fill out" (I've been conveniently thin all my life- 5'6 106 lbs). I've asked other people though, and they say they don't notice anything.
The more I look at my stomach from the side the more I think I see a difference- a slight bulge, or swelling, like pregnancy. When I stand up and look straight down I can see my hips and the outer sides of my pelvis but my "Swollen" stomach goes out over my pelvis so I can not see, for example, a strawberry printed in the very center of my underwear. I read that your stomach grows a cm every week during pregnancy. I have researched all the other symptoms of early pregnancy and I have NONE of them.
Every hour of every day I obsess over the possibility of being pregnant. No one has any idea, any expectance, or any acceptance of even fathoming me doing the dirty deed. It would ruin my life. It is stressing me out to no end and I simply can't concentrate. I want to tell someone but I know I can't.
I realize other explanations for my swollen stomach could be:
-Weight Gain- either from puberty or my BC pills
-Many other slightly less, but still in the same, frightening medical abnormalities.
The only thing that would further establish my paranoia is if I miss this upcoming period. Even with the BC pills I get my cycle regularly during the first week or second week of the month- around the 10th day, mainly. And then- an at-home pregnancy test.
However, if neither of those occur, I am still horrified by anecdotes from this sites stating that even after a negative ept and a blood test the origin of the girl's stomach girth was, indeed, pregnancy.
I realize my options are either not to be pregnant, get an abortion via surgery, or via medicinally, the details on the latter of which I know not.
Hopefully after reading this lengthy pouring of my heart you have gleaned that I am not your average sleep-around teenager, and very much do not deserve to be pregnant. Excepting my hormones causing me to ( very regrettably) let my inhibitions to the wind- the only thing I am guilty of is loving.
In the end I am only asking for your thoughts, opinions and support. What is your point of view? I would very much like some stranger's words to quell my persistent worries.
Naturally, with such mental, spiritual and emotional connections come the inevitable.. physical, connections and attractions.
My boyfriend and I have had sexual intercourse (I lost my virginity to him) 2 times in the past 2-3 weeks I believe, the last time being Sunday. We did not use a condom. And in fact I was so small for him the first time that he could just barely fit his head into me.
I have been on birth control pills for two months and he did not come inside me, it didn't go on for very long so I'm not even sure of any amount of pre-ejaculate even, as I have heard that can contain semen as well.
Just yesterday, Tuesday, my best friend commented on my stomach saying it looked like I had "gained some weight." Undoubtedly, this scared the sh*t out of me. I asked my mother if it looked like I had gained weight and she said yes, maybe, but that I'm just starting to "fill out" (I've been conveniently thin all my life- 5'6 106 lbs). I've asked other people though, and they say they don't notice anything.
The more I look at my stomach from the side the more I think I see a difference- a slight bulge, or swelling, like pregnancy. When I stand up and look straight down I can see my hips and the outer sides of my pelvis but my "Swollen" stomach goes out over my pelvis so I can not see, for example, a strawberry printed in the very center of my underwear. I read that your stomach grows a cm every week during pregnancy. I have researched all the other symptoms of early pregnancy and I have NONE of them.
Every hour of every day I obsess over the possibility of being pregnant. No one has any idea, any expectance, or any acceptance of even fathoming me doing the dirty deed. It would ruin my life. It is stressing me out to no end and I simply can't concentrate. I want to tell someone but I know I can't.
I realize other explanations for my swollen stomach could be:
-Weight Gain- either from puberty or my BC pills
-Many other slightly less, but still in the same, frightening medical abnormalities.
The only thing that would further establish my paranoia is if I miss this upcoming period. Even with the BC pills I get my cycle regularly during the first week or second week of the month- around the 10th day, mainly. And then- an at-home pregnancy test.
However, if neither of those occur, I am still horrified by anecdotes from this sites stating that even after a negative ept and a blood test the origin of the girl's stomach girth was, indeed, pregnancy.
I realize my options are either not to be pregnant, get an abortion via surgery, or via medicinally, the details on the latter of which I know not.
Hopefully after reading this lengthy pouring of my heart you have gleaned that I am not your average sleep-around teenager, and very much do not deserve to be pregnant. Excepting my hormones causing me to ( very regrettably) let my inhibitions to the wind- the only thing I am guilty of is loving.
In the end I am only asking for your thoughts, opinions and support. What is your point of view? I would very much like some stranger's words to quell my persistent worries.
If taken correctly a home pregnancy test is as accurate as a test done in a hospital.
You should wait two to three weeks after the last time you had intercourse---or unprotected intercourse.
I encourage you to wait that time out and take the test. Try as hard as possible to let the test be the deciding factor and not any knew symptoms you notice.
We have a tendency to make our symptoms out to whatever we'd like. I was exposed to Meningitis in the hospital recently and had to get propper testing---despite not feeling anxious I developed a symptom of neck stiffness.
In reality the patient had Pneumonia as confirmed by CSF Fluid testing. It was "all in my head"
You should wait two to three weeks after the last time you had intercourse---or unprotected intercourse.
I encourage you to wait that time out and take the test. Try as hard as possible to let the test be the deciding factor and not any knew symptoms you notice.
We have a tendency to make our symptoms out to whatever we'd like. I was exposed to Meningitis in the hospital recently and had to get propper testing---despite not feeling anxious I developed a symptom of neck stiffness.
In reality the patient had Pneumonia as confirmed by CSF Fluid testing. It was "all in my head"