I am go grateful for finding this website. You are all listing the side effects of the medications that I, too, am going through that none of the doctors or nurses want to hear about. The depression is the worst side effect for me. I know, and am trying, to adjust to this new life of restrictions and mental thoughts weekly of just ending all of this. I don't know how long I can continue to keep giving myself pep rally talks. Friends and family just don't understand what I'm going through and wish I would hurry up and snap out of it. I'm trying to do just that, but how do you overcome the numerous and powerful medications with "depression" listed as a side effect? My body weight has shifted so that I look like a female wrestler, my stomach is bloated and severely distended, I''m nauseated at the end of every day, and have unbelievable insomnia that no medication seems to help (another side effect of these drugs). I have stamnia and fatigue problems. My hair is falling out, my face and eyes are bloated beyond me recognizing myself anymore. I keep getting numerous UTI's since the surgery in Jan of 2008. I've had to have another surgery 3 months later where they removed my native kidneys and used my right ureter to repair the collapsed transplanted one. I was refused pain medication after two weeks post-surgery with a young doctor saying I didn't need anymore pain medications and would have to "suck it up" pain-wise. It's funny how easy it is to speak up when you're not the patient. It's a whole different story when you depend on these health professionals to do what's in your best interest. I feel so very dehumanized and frightened of what the future holds for me.

It just feels good to get all this off my chest, as I can't speak this way with family or friends who havn't gone though this themselves. They just don't understand.

Thanks to all of you for posting truthfully and from your hearts.