I am one of you. I have been called and felt like all of the above. We all went through the different stages, experimentation, increased using, switching to more powerful meds or mass dosages, addiction and then the WD from stopping. Horrible. To the guy with twins on the way, you said all you want to do is cry. The opis create a masked happiness and keep your natural endorphins from being made. Therefore when you stop you have zero feel good going on at the brain. I cried and felt hopeless like no other and still have bouts with it. I am on sub but a low dosage and am weening down. I have gone 7 full days cold turkey and my god man. Awful. Good luck to all of you but to that guy with the twins on the way.......be there for them man. They need you. The wife needs you. Be a man and step up to handle buisness. Good luck and god bless.