I have suffered with anxiety since I was about 15. I am 20 now. I went through many terrible social traumas related to rejection, bullying and many other things. I developed the anxiety a few years after the bullying and trauma had ended. I have always feared dying alone. (This is all a little back story to give you an idea of what's going on) I ended up in this odd depression 2 years ago that left me completely numb. I felt no empathy for myself or anyone else including loved ones. I even was able to block out physical pain so I felt none.
I since have entered a happy, healthy, loving relationship and have been in it for a year. In late january I went to the doctor to ask about these dreadful 8 hour stomach pains I get once in a while. He took some blood and put me on acid reflux meds. The next day I get a phone cal urging me to get to his office ASAP because he had critical blood results. I about s**t my pants. So upon arriving he tells me my potassium levels were high and sugar was low. After hooking me up to an EKG machine (not fun if you suffer from panic disorder) he tells me "you need to go to the ER now" so they could take my blood.
Well I am just freaking out at this point, so I call everyone and let them know I'll be in the E.R. and I don't know whats going on. They take my blood, 3 hours later they tell me everything is fine, my cell count is good and levels were fine. Something happened to the blood in transport. Now neither time my blood was taken had I fasted. So, ever since then I've had this terrible sense of dread and depression hanging over my head. I look at my girlfriend and just want to cry. I get chest and back pains, have IBS and am often nauseas. I have also had a lot of trouble sleeping the past few weeks. And to top it all off, I am rounding up a nasty battle with intestinal parasites...which the doctors never found...I discovered them after I went to the bathroom.
The love of my life and I are supposed to be moving to New York this fall and it seems there is this evil little voice in my ear saying "you're gonna' die soon". It is awful and it is consuming me. I do not take medications nor do I wish to. Any advice or natural remedies would be appreciated.
Thank you.
Oh and in the past few months ALL I have heard or read about is cancer. People dying from cancer. It's freaking me out like crazy. I work out, eat right, take care of myself and all that good stuff but its just getting everybody. I'm not ready to go anywhere yet. I feel my anxiety is transforming and getting the best of me.
I since have entered a happy, healthy, loving relationship and have been in it for a year. In late january I went to the doctor to ask about these dreadful 8 hour stomach pains I get once in a while. He took some blood and put me on acid reflux meds. The next day I get a phone cal urging me to get to his office ASAP because he had critical blood results. I about s**t my pants. So upon arriving he tells me my potassium levels were high and sugar was low. After hooking me up to an EKG machine (not fun if you suffer from panic disorder) he tells me "you need to go to the ER now" so they could take my blood.
Well I am just freaking out at this point, so I call everyone and let them know I'll be in the E.R. and I don't know whats going on. They take my blood, 3 hours later they tell me everything is fine, my cell count is good and levels were fine. Something happened to the blood in transport. Now neither time my blood was taken had I fasted. So, ever since then I've had this terrible sense of dread and depression hanging over my head. I look at my girlfriend and just want to cry. I get chest and back pains, have IBS and am often nauseas. I have also had a lot of trouble sleeping the past few weeks. And to top it all off, I am rounding up a nasty battle with intestinal parasites...which the doctors never found...I discovered them after I went to the bathroom.
The love of my life and I are supposed to be moving to New York this fall and it seems there is this evil little voice in my ear saying "you're gonna' die soon". It is awful and it is consuming me. I do not take medications nor do I wish to. Any advice or natural remedies would be appreciated.
Thank you.
Oh and in the past few months ALL I have heard or read about is cancer. People dying from cancer. It's freaking me out like crazy. I work out, eat right, take care of myself and all that good stuff but its just getting everybody. I'm not ready to go anywhere yet. I feel my anxiety is transforming and getting the best of me.
Hi Kingofpain,
Anxiety is something a lot of people don't understand, only people who suffered from it (include myself). I'm glad you choose not to take medication. You should think more positive and the things around you. Death is something we can't predict or know when it will happen, everybody have their own numbers. Hope that will ease your mind a bit..
If you looking for natural medication then try bach flower remedies (B.F.R). Good luck
Anxiety is something a lot of people don't understand, only people who suffered from it (include myself). I'm glad you choose not to take medication. You should think more positive and the things around you. Death is something we can't predict or know when it will happen, everybody have their own numbers. Hope that will ease your mind a bit..
If you looking for natural medication then try bach flower remedies (B.F.R). Good luck