I am in trouble, I am 11 weeks pregnant with an unwanted baby. I am 23 years old and this is my first pregnancy. I have been with a guy on and off for 2 years. The guy wants the baby, but he does not treat me good, even when I am pregnant, he calls me names, yells at me. He has a very bat temper, anger issues, couple times he pushed me, couple times he choked me, on top of that he said so many horrible things to me; called me every swear word possible, told me the most hurtful things, just to bring me down. I believe he is capable of really bad actions while he is angry. My mistake is not leaving him before I got pregnant, I had a little hope he would change, I know he tried but the bad side of him still comes out. I really do not know what to do, I am in a desperate need of help. My whole life I believed that abortion is a very bad thing to do, I believed only cold, bad people are capable of such "murder". But then I found myself in this situation and it all changed. I cannot picture myself having a baby right now, I love children, but I do not want a baby with this guy, because I am scared he will destroy me mentally, sometimes he would say that he will do anytthing in his power to take the baby away from me. He will do anything possible to hurt me. I have always believed and knew one thing I am a good person, I have a good heart how can I do abortion? What if later on I will think of myself as a bad person ( it is so important to feel good about yourself), what if later in life the guilt will just eat me, and I will not be able to live anymore. Picturing my life with the baby, and constantly seeing the father of the baby; he will never give up his rights, is just terrible. I do not have a good job, I just finished school, I still live with my parents, and they do not know about me being pregnant. Please help. what should I do??
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