Hi Priya
1. Can you explain what you mean by losing your virginity. Do you mean if you have penetrative sex with someone, or do you mean if your hymen ruptures other than by penetrative sex?
2. Depending on your husband's view of virginity he might guess.
3. If you are no longer a virgin because you have had penetrative sex, then he will most likely notice you no longer have a hymen and you probably won't bleed. Depending on whether he is a virgin, he may or may not know what the experience will feel like.
4. If you really are still a virgin, but your hymen is ruptured (how?) then you may not bleed, he may observe no hymen, but you will probably feel tighter than you otherwise would have done.
5. What has raised this concern? About 8 months ago you said "i m damn sure i will never allow anyone to touch me".
6. Also, how did your exams go last June?
I am glad your exams went well.
Have you checked that your hymen is intact now?
Do you know what you are looking for?
I am not sure I completely understood what you mean, so if I have misunderstood, then please say so.
It is good to know in advance the state of your hymen so you can be prepared for when you get married.
Your hymen is a thin membrane that partially covers the entrance to your vagina. This is a picture of one - there are variations.
- http://www.soc.ucsb.edu/sexinfo/sites/default/files/files/styles/large/public/field/image/hymen_virginal.jpg
If you cannot see what you are looking for, then is there someone you can trust who will check for you?
I am glad you feel happier. A good husband would be understanding. Your cousin's husband has a good attitude. If there is to be any trust, then he must believe you when you honestly say you are a virgin. After all, you would have to take his word that he is a virgin.
I also hope you will marry a good and understanding man. I hope too that you will be a good and understanding wife!
Take care