Well I've posted about this woman before. Long story short, she is much much older,was my boss, my moms freind, and I fell in love with her. She doesn't love me the same way. She doesn't love me the same. She loves me as a person and looked at me as a son. When I left to get away when I first told her how I felt I had to wipe her tears from her cheeks. She thought she was never going to see me again. I came back to continue working for her. She led me on. Said that I have to wait a year, "I'll known if your for real in a year. Let's just take it very slow".She said this because I'm in my first year of sobriety. She would always let me kiss her on the lips and she knew that it was coming and never avoided it. I love yous where always dropped back and forth. She said she loved me very much as a person and that I'm very special to her.No one has ever loved her like me. The man she thought she was gonna marry over 20 years ago when she wasn't sober killed himself. Keep in mind she is 49 and I'm 23. Yeah I know but love is blind. I fell for her for who she is. I was never remotley attracted to her.I looked at her to be far from sexy and was always about looks until I saw this woman inner beauty. She has an adopted 4 year old son and know that I love them both. She's been single for 20 years so I probably freaked her out. She even asked my mom for approval. They are freinds.Anyway I couldn't work with someone I was in love with I left. Then she became pretty distant. Yeah I was probably a little to agressive but she knew how I felt before. Well I left her a voicemail telling her that I miss her and want to see her after I hadn't seen her I a month. Didn't hear back so I sent a text saying I know I was a jerk before I left but it hurts when you can't take a minute to call me. She called me upset because she doesn't want me to think that she holding me leaving over my head.We had a normal convo and agreed to lunch then I had to hang up and said I'll call her. I did and left a voicemail tellng her how i felt about her once again. I get a text the day before we where supposed to go to lunch. It read " we need some space. I can't give you what you want and it is getting uncomfortable.please understand and I will speak to you soon-Alison. My heart was destroyed and I wanted to die. This is my first love and in my first year of sobriety to top it off. One thing that makes me feel better is that she was asking my mom how i was doing everyday for a week. Also it's not every day she's gonna have a young guy pursuing her like me. I'm not full of myself but Ive had women tell me that I was very good looking. I'm not looking to kick her to the curb. I'm proud to love her. Will she come back around? I know most would say to move on but I don't want her to come around when it's to late. I love her so much.
Hi Daniel. I don't know what to tell you. Maybe she'll come around but maybe not. I think that there are tons of other people out there and she is not the only woman in the world. If she does, she does. But if not, you will have other women in your life. I know that's not helpful now--but it will be. Soon. Sometime in the future. What do you think?
Right now I have no idea what to think. It's the worst pain I've ever had
I can relate even if i am in middl school. I know this is weird but in kingergarden i fell in love with a 8th graded. I picked her flowers everyday. Then i went to summer break and i could wait.to see her next year. But right before summer break start she said that we couldn't be thoughter. I cried some long they had to called my mom to pick.me up. I thougt it was the worst day of my life. But now i am hoping to make a really good friend a girlfriend. Heres my advice: Just remember no matter how much it hurts life goes on.
Awww! You picked her flowers? That is adorable! <3