I am 4 months pregnant and addicted to heroin I have slowed down a lot since I found out I was (which wasn't until I was 3 months) I feel soooo guilty and really want to quit but there have been about 3 times I stopped and got about 2-3 days into withdraws and was so deathly sick I couldn't take it any more and used. I have never been this sick coming off heroin before and it is making me feel so stressed and bad about myself for doing this to my child. It is my first time ever being pregnant. My question and problem is I want to quit but after reading some of these discussions it says that withdraws are not good on the fetus.im wondering if I use pain pills and keep decreasing the dose daily and then just stop would be my best way of quitting I can't use methadone because I'm on probation and im about to get off but my po does not know I'm using and I cannot let her know or I will be put in jail and violate and I have 4 years over my head and do not want to have my first child in prison and lose it and if my family knew I was using I would lose them to. So methadone is out off the question for me. I'm wondering what another option for me would be and how dangerous it is for the baby to cold turkey quit and also if I was to quit soon if my baby would still go through withdraws when it was born or does the withdraws for the baby stop when mine stop. I need something to help me come down and I don't know what else besides methadone I can use and stoping without using anything makes me so miserable and sick I feel like dying it is the worst pain I have ever felt its like being dope sick times ten and its almost umbareable what should I do and when I do stop will the baby be ok and done with its addiction when I am or just cause I'm done does the baby still have withdraws thank U