I'm 19 and I have HPV. I don't know how to get the test to see what strain it is, and I guess my gyn didn't hear me when I asked how to go about getting it... But anyways, I've had 4 abnormal pap tests, 2 cryos and a leep about 3 months ago. I had the leep done in the day surgery and the gyn said that putting me to sleep was not an option and was "just not done", so he stuck me with a needle (which hurt!) and froze me. I didn't feel any pain, but I felt the pressure of the cutting, which really freaked me out. I bled for 2 weeks, and had a gross smelling brown discharge for a month that looked like it had brown sand in it? I called the gyn's office and the secretary said that it was normal. I had a follow-up pap done last week. I don't know about anyone else, but my pap included sticking a bristled brush into my cervix? The gyn said that my cervix didn't grow back properly and that the hole of my cervix had something wrong with it, so he had to force this brush through the skin to get the "correct" sample. I was in AGONY, and when he pulled the brush out because I was literally screaming from the pain, there was blood all over it. He said that he had to continue because he had to get the brush through the cervix. After a few more attempts and more of my screaming (and at this point tears had soaked my entire face and my hair) he said that he had gotten it. So now, here I am, waiting for the results, anxious about what the results will be, hoping for the miracle of a normal pap. In the meantime, I struck more luck! I'm a month or so pregnant. There is no way I can give birth to this baby, because if my parents find out I'm pregnant, they'll kick me out of their house and I'll end up in a shelter, so I have to get an abortion. I don't even know if it is POSSIBLE for me to get an abortion. If the gyn couldn't stick a brush through my cervix, how will they open it up and pull a fetus out of it? And I don't think I can do a chemical abortion because I'm on psychiatric medications. I'm so scared, worried, anxious and depressed. I can't call a doctor to get any answers until Wednesday because of new years, and I'm sure me going crazy until then won't help my cause. Does anyone have any advice? Any help would be greatly appreciated..