Im so glad i can relate to so many you and how you are feeling. I was pressured by my at the time boyfriend to have a baby and then when i was pregnant he went straight to abortion. I have no family and only waitress and if he wasnt going to help me idk how i could have done it. I was very pressured by multiple people to get an abortion. I felt very depressed with my pregnancy and felf ashamed aswell. I wanted to keep the baby but all signs pointed to abortion. I got the pills which was the worst experience of my entire life i layed on my floor screaming bloody murder and passed my pregnancy and even saw it. It was horrible. It didnt hit me until a couple days later the emotional part of one say seeing my little baby on the ultrasound and the next day not.  I feel i made a horrible desicion i feel like i killed it and now alls i wish is i was pregnant again but i feel like i owe it to that child to ready my life before I get pregnant again. Its a little releiving to see im not the only one who feels like this and i thank everyone who posted there stories.