About an individual's oneself

Hello there ^^

Call me fuji as a name here at this website..

I don't know how will I start the issue about myself but i'll try..

I have this kind of feeling of being secretive about my emotions.

If i am angry i hide it, instead i'm smiling.

If i am sad, i like to be in one side and cry it out loud.

And sometimes, when there are something funny or happy happens, i can't purely feel it, i know in my mind that it's funny but i can't hardly feel it.

One of the Doctors said, try to show what do I feels...but how??

I'm not a loner but i don't want to open my feelings into my friends >

How will I start?

Is it a Depression?

I don't think it's a Depression ...

What activities or things should I do to cope up with this kind of feeling ?

Thanks for your suggestion ^^