Hi everyone. I wanna tell my story and ask some questions which could change my life. I'm 18 and i pretty much know that I'm gay. I've never had sex with a man or a woman but since I was a kid I knew something was different about me and as the time went by i realized that i was sexually attracted to men and not women. Since no one knows about this and I can't trust anybody i wanna ask some strangers who've been through this or know how it feels like. My first question is Can i "change", become straight or bisexual? I've tried to find an answer to this question in the internet for months and it got me nowhere. I know you might say just come out and get it over with, but I live in Armenia, it's a homophobic country and pretty much everybody I know is a homophobe. And when i say a homophobe I don't mean that they just don't accept a relationship between two men or two women, they just hate people like us and would never ever talk to me or accept me for who I am. I wanna know if I can change not because they would want me to, but because I wanna marry and have kids.i've read some stuff about therapies and they've messed up my mind even more. I think I've always been a homosexual, but I've been in love with girls, I've had an emotional attachment to some girls even though I wasn't attracted to them sexually and I wanna know even if I can't change, is it possible to live a "normal" life if i marry a woman. Second question is If first one doesn't work out should I come out? As I said everyone I know wouldn't speak to me and I would lose everybody, so where would that leave me? People say it's easier to come out but how can I feel happy ever again If i lose all my loved ones. I don't even know if i can live closeted for a long time.I need some kind of advice or something to guide me the right way because I'm lost at this point and I don't know what's next.