Hi, I've been on Suboxone for a year and a half. I dont plan on comming off or not until now. If I can help it I still wont come off. I am scared to come off. My success has been phenominal as far a abstainence goes. Long story short, I have no insurance. My doctor raised the cost of a vistit 300%. Now I cant afford to go to the doc and everybody else in a 200mi radius of my area code has done the same thing. I am 49yrs old and finally got a chance to have a somewhat normal life and the greed of money by the medical profession is probably going to be the death of me. I don't want to live a life like I used to live, as a matter of fact I refuse to live that way. This is the first day of not haveing a dose. I dont know if i will post day by day ornot. I would like for there to be some kind of story to tell when I'm gone. There should be laws aginst this. I dont know why I'm surprised really, this is simply a repeat of the way my life has been. I mean why should I exspect any thing different now just because I'm clean and sober? I just don't trust myself not to crave once the Suboxone is completely left my system. I can tell you this,I am not and will not suffer long. Although I will try to make it, I would rather be dead than live addicted to Oxycontin again. I cant go through that humiliation and worthlessness again. I really feel cheated and I'm not one to feel sorry for myself, but I just don't see what I did wrong. This is the first time I ever tried maintenance and it worked after numerous failed rehabs and incarcerations. Just since 2000, I've spent 4-1/2 yrs behind bars due to an addiction. And now, just because of selfish money hungry doctors and the whole damn medical profession, I will more than likely be on my way back. Every time someone does something good, there are 100 other mf's trying to screw it up. Well, congradulations Dr. Greed and all the rest of your collegues. I really appreciate it. Chalk one up for humanity my brother! I guess the cost of crime is more affordable than the CAUSE!!!!