Back in August, I went to a concert with some of my friends. The venue was really crowded, and the air conditioner was broken, so it was really hot inside.. especially being packed with all these crazy, sweaty, drunk punk kids running around in a circle pit, plus once you left you couldn't get back in, and a lot of people were smoking. I felt fine for a while, but then I got this burning sensation in my ears, and had an immediate urge to sit down. After that, I tried to drink as much water as possible because I thought I was dehydrated or something, and after a while I ended up on the bathroom floor shaking, then outside on the sidewalk shaking, and I couldn't stop shaking until I got home. The next night, the symptoms came back when I was at home with the guy who I was dating at the time, and I had to go to the ER. Lol, I thought I was dying! I felt so freaked out. In the blood/urine tests, they didn't find anything medically wrong. Ever since that night, I always, ALWAYS feel lightheaded, even typing this right now, and I can't stand being around large crowds anymore. Even just thinking about that night, or any night I had similiar to it seems to bring back those feelings of nausea and all that. I had what I'm guessing was an anxiety attack the other day because I was remembering another situation where I just blacked out, but it wasn't an anxiety attack and everything was alright, but just thinking about it made me physically ill. =/ Plus now whenever I see the guy who I was dating at the time, I feel sick too.

Also, I used to be really into gorey horror movies and going to concerts, but even just last week when I went to go see saw 3, we left right before it started because I started feeling sick, and then I started shaking at the last concert I went to also. I think the vibrations are part of the issue, and even when there's a lot of people talking at one time in school, I start to feel really frustrated, and it never bothered me before. I just hate feeling like I'm not the same person I used to be, and I don't know what happened. :'( I'm trying to schedule an appointment with a psychologist or psychiatrist soon though, maybe that will help. I hope so.