I have been with my future husband for 11 years. Six years ago we became pregnant and I remember that I was so scared but excited, and in the beginning my boyfriend said he was excited to as time passed over the next few days he wanted to talk about other options as he felt that we couldn't afford a baby right now, and wanted to point out that he wants kids down the road but doesnt feel ready right now.I did not agree but I felt like I didn't want to lose him and so we went to the hospital andI followed through with the worst biggest mistake of my life. It was a horrible experience, I wouldn't wish on anyone if I could change the past and just go back to that day i would scream at the top of my lungs .No this is a mistake stop..I change my mind .now fastforwarding to the present day My boyfriend and I are trying to conceive our first baby and ive been faced with alot of fertility issues preventing this from happening as time goes by ...ive noticed that im starting to resent the man that ive said yes to and suppose to spend the rest of my life with. we havent had sex in 2-3 weeks ..which i kno isnt that long but thats apposed to our regular 2-3 times a week ...I just feel like I dont want him to touch me ...the other part of this is only 1 person knows I had an abortion. I cant talk with my sister or even my mother because no one knows my secret..I feel so alone upset. Depressed and all around just messed up. Ive been able to put the whole experience out of my mind and go on with life until recently. I feel like thats all i think about... I dont know what to do, I love him but I feel the resentment growingm Can anyone relate ... have advice ?....thank you