Hi guys,
This only started about 3 of weeks ago but I have started to literally detest food. Exertions I go near, smell, look at and eat food I instantly want to throw up. I have been forcing myself to eat lately but I know when I go back to school I am not even going to make an effort, probably only when I am around people. I am increasingly tired but when I go to bed I just lay there and can't sleep. I have told no one this yet and I am suprised that they haven't picked up on it sine I eat about 1/3 of what I used to, some days I only eat 1 or 2 things. I am constantly
obsessed with being skinny but have never taken it very seriously. I think I am depressed but am not sure, I always think of ways to kill myself but am too chicken to go through with any of them. I have designated a specific jar to write hate to myself and I am stuck. I have never told anyone about this. What should I do???
It really sounds like you need to see a specialist who can help you determine why you are obsessing over your body and hating yourself. You are going down a dark path and you need to get help RIGHT NOW. You may be experiencing anorexia and depression, both of which you cannot treat on your own. Tell your parents that you need to see a doctor and explain these things to him/her. Your doctor would know the appropriate professional that will be able to help you with these issues. Only then will you begin to feel better about yourself and start living life to the fullest.