For the past 4 days ive been feeling like im living in a dream.
I think what set it off was 3 weeks ago i suddenly realised that breathing is what is keeping me alive, and from then on i tried to conciously think about breathing all the time or id think i would die.
I never leave the house and my life is pretty repetative and basic, i wake up, i sit at the computer or i watch tv and then its bed again, i leave the house maybe once every 2 weeks if im lucky.
Ive been like this for 5 years, scared to mix with people, but for the past 4 days its become umberable, i have to state i have serve OCD and im a hypochondriac, i know this.
I have this strange delusion, im not real and neither is this world im living in, and that the people i love around me are just people of my imagination, and that im completely insane and living in a dream world.
Am i insane or am i so scared that ill go insane that im making myself believe i could be insane.
Im also scared id eventully loose control of myself and hurt people, when that is the last thing id ever want to do.
I'd go to the doctors but im scared he will lock me up, but i know im in need of professional help, if i did go to the doctors is there treatment i could recieve or should i just arrive in my white jacket.
I think what set it off was 3 weeks ago i suddenly realised that breathing is what is keeping me alive, and from then on i tried to conciously think about breathing all the time or id think i would die.
I never leave the house and my life is pretty repetative and basic, i wake up, i sit at the computer or i watch tv and then its bed again, i leave the house maybe once every 2 weeks if im lucky.
Ive been like this for 5 years, scared to mix with people, but for the past 4 days its become umberable, i have to state i have serve OCD and im a hypochondriac, i know this.
I have this strange delusion, im not real and neither is this world im living in, and that the people i love around me are just people of my imagination, and that im completely insane and living in a dream world.
Am i insane or am i so scared that ill go insane that im making myself believe i could be insane.
Im also scared id eventully loose control of myself and hurt people, when that is the last thing id ever want to do.
I'd go to the doctors but im scared he will lock me up, but i know im in need of professional help, if i did go to the doctors is there treatment i could recieve or should i just arrive in my white jacket.
I have been suffering from Generalized Anxiety disorder since I was a small child. I'm happy to say I can tell you nearly anything you want to know on this subject.
It sounds like you have Generalized and Social Anxiety Disorder and possibly Depression.
Here is what you need to know!
Anxiety can cause nearly EVERY symptom a real illness can cause. That is why so many people with this problem think they are always sick or have some strange disease. It keeps us panicking, worried, and stressed out that something must be terribly wrong with us!
Here are some common symptoms :
Numbness
Tingling
Heart Racing
Heart Palpitations
Weight Loss/ Weight Gain
Feeling of "Un-reality"
Light Headed
Dizziness
Depression
Trouble Breathing/Hyperventilating
Feeling as if there is a lump in throat or tightness
Inability to sleep
Feeling like you can't "turn your brain off"
Mind spinning
Constant worry
Nausea
Irritable Bowel
Diarreah
Constipation
Face numbness
Avoiding Social Situations
Avoiding People
Phobias ( planes, crowds, public speaking, health, germs ect)
Hypochondria
ECT...ECT...ECT!!!
As you can see the list can go on and on!
But your not alone and please don't be afraid to ask for help! They won't put you in a straight jacket or cart you away. This is a VERY common problem and doctors are there to help.
May I make a suggestion? There is a program online you can purchase that has changed my life. It's called "Attacking Anxiety and Depression" with Lucinda Basset. Typing in that title will take you to her website. This woman literally suffered with these symptoms and MORE for years and is now completely functional in the world. It is a bit pricey but entirely worth the set back.
You have to commit to the program and do the work though ;]
Now for a word of comfort, I know how your feeling, I know you feel alone and misplaced and most likely depressed. If you have any other questions feel free to ask and I'll do the best I can. Sometimes the most anyone needs is someone to listen.
In any case, go see that doctor now so you can talk to him about all this and be properly diagnosed, because if their is some physical issue causing any of this he will know! Baby steps!
Irish Blessings To You!
It sounds like you have Generalized and Social Anxiety Disorder and possibly Depression.
Here is what you need to know!
Anxiety can cause nearly EVERY symptom a real illness can cause. That is why so many people with this problem think they are always sick or have some strange disease. It keeps us panicking, worried, and stressed out that something must be terribly wrong with us!
Here are some common symptoms :
Numbness
Tingling
Heart Racing
Heart Palpitations
Weight Loss/ Weight Gain
Feeling of "Un-reality"
Light Headed
Dizziness
Depression
Trouble Breathing/Hyperventilating
Feeling as if there is a lump in throat or tightness
Inability to sleep
Feeling like you can't "turn your brain off"
Mind spinning
Constant worry
Nausea
Irritable Bowel
Diarreah
Constipation
Face numbness
Avoiding Social Situations
Avoiding People
Phobias ( planes, crowds, public speaking, health, germs ect)
Hypochondria
ECT...ECT...ECT!!!
As you can see the list can go on and on!
But your not alone and please don't be afraid to ask for help! They won't put you in a straight jacket or cart you away. This is a VERY common problem and doctors are there to help.
May I make a suggestion? There is a program online you can purchase that has changed my life. It's called "Attacking Anxiety and Depression" with Lucinda Basset. Typing in that title will take you to her website. This woman literally suffered with these symptoms and MORE for years and is now completely functional in the world. It is a bit pricey but entirely worth the set back.
You have to commit to the program and do the work though ;]
Now for a word of comfort, I know how your feeling, I know you feel alone and misplaced and most likely depressed. If you have any other questions feel free to ask and I'll do the best I can. Sometimes the most anyone needs is someone to listen.
In any case, go see that doctor now so you can talk to him about all this and be properly diagnosed, because if their is some physical issue causing any of this he will know! Baby steps!
Irish Blessings To You!
Thankyou for your reply, ive made an appointment for the doctors for monday, and hopefully i can get something to help me.
I find myself ticking most of those symtoms off on that long list, ive had headaches for the past 4 days, and my mind feels like it just wont stop ticking over and over, if its not one thing its another, and just feels like a heavy weight on my shoulders ive been carrying for so many years.
I know if i dont get seen too itll just get worse and each day i find myself believing ive got more and more things wrong with me.
Thankyou again for your reply.
I find myself ticking most of those symtoms off on that long list, ive had headaches for the past 4 days, and my mind feels like it just wont stop ticking over and over, if its not one thing its another, and just feels like a heavy weight on my shoulders ive been carrying for so many years.
I know if i dont get seen too itll just get worse and each day i find myself believing ive got more and more things wrong with me.
Thankyou again for your reply.
This might sound completely crazy, but then again, What isnt. You are going throught What is called, an awakening. You are realizing that you are more than human, you just cant yet express this strange feeling. We as humans are going through an ascension process. How do i know this?. Well , because i know the confusion you are going through by the way you type. Google ascension process. And go from there . Hope i helped