Feeling depressed after stopping the birth control pills?

Anyone else feel empty inside ?? Starting to wonder if this is ever going to go away :(

Hello, I wrote a few days ago and I aslo feel so empty inside. its been almost a year and I can't seem to feel happy and sereine... Im always comparing my feelings for my boyfriend to my friends or other people and always seem to find that they are more in love than me and its making me crazy. I dont know why but I just cant feel happy right now. I am always thinking others are having the best time of their lives, and are living a perfect life. I feel so sad all the time. I wish this ROCD could disappear, it seems to be directly connected to my "depression". I am unhappy, I assume its because of my boyfriend of 3 years, I am sad because of this thought... Vicious circle of dark thoughts :( HOW LONG WILL THIS TAKE TO GO AWAY... I am so sad, empty and anxious. Is it really the pill ?!?!?!

Its me again, I also feel like Im so scared about my future with my boyfriend. I am scared we will fight when havig kids about decisions, and about everything in general. I am scared that we are not going to be happy... I am just not in a normal state, and it has been almost a year so I dont know what to do. I am scared that I indeed had an imbalance and now its gone and Im left with realisations... I just want to be happy with him but its like I cant... I want to be excited about our wedding and our family and our future projects but its just filled with anxiety and fears and... Ugh anyway :'(

P.S. to the girl who wanted to message me, yes I would love to , but dont know how ?! I think we need an account here !

I had to go on Zoloft because of this whole issue. I am on 25mg of Zoloft now and it has helped me, however I still feel awful the week before my period. This Thursday I will be 4 months off of the birth control pill and I am still fighting to get back the life I once had. Its a mess. 

Hello Anna,
It is good to hear that the Zoloft is helping you. I am sorry you are still struggling. I spoke with you a couple weeks back because my therapist suggested Zoloft for me too. I am scared to take it because I don't want to mess with my body anymore than I already have. Do you find that it has made a substantial difference? What symptoms are you still struggling with and which ones do you feel like the Zoloft has helped you with?

Thank you sooooo much for writing this! Much needed support/reassurance

Hi Chloxx! Has your period normalized 4 months off! I have intermittent spotting and my period is late for four days now. Have yoi experienced the same? I’m almost four months off as well.

Hi everyone! Where did you guys go for the hormone testing? I don’t want to go to my gynecologist because they blew me off about this in the first place, and my doctors office doesn’t do it they said. Where did those of you who got it done go? I’m almost 11 months off and many of my symptoms have ceased, thank god, but I’m still not myself. I feel like if I know exactly which hormones are out of wack I can’t treat myself better.

I hope everyone is okay today. Sending hugs.

Thanks!
Alicia

Hi!
My last period was normal at 28 day cycle, but before that I was around 30-32 day cycles... I’m expecting another period in a week or so, I will let you know if it is normal!
-chloxx

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Hello everyone! I’m here again! I’ve been following this thread for about 4 months now, which is also the same period I’ve been off the pill. At this mark, a lot of the symptoms ceased - but I couldn’t say that I’m okay. At this point, I am already 9 days delayed from my last cycle with intermittent spotting in between that would last for 1-2 days (this happened twice within my last cycle) - and at this point I’m not sure if I should consider the spotting part of my cycle or what. Has anyone experienced this? I am so confused. My last period seemed normal which lasted 6 days.

Help! My cycle’s out of whack.
PS. I’m not pregnant - what to do?
:( I’m scared my anxiety will be triggered by this physical symptom again.

Flow

Hey everyone. I have been reading this forum since April 2018. I have been on reclipsen for 9 years. I menstruated in April then went to go and get my rx filled the pharmacy switched brands due to insurance. Once I started the new pill after 5 days I was hysterically crying, anxious, questioning everything, and nauseous. I stopped taking BCP altogether by the 28th of April since then I have been struggling with anxiety, numbness, ROCD really bad, and just feeling blah. 

The first 4-5 weeks after BCP was absolutely horrible. ROCD was horrible. I have been with my SO for over 5 years. Prior to April we were talking about getting engaged, married, buying a house, kids, the whole bit. Now I am questioning if he is the one for me, should I be with him, is it just me, is it the hormones? It’s been terrible. 

Just last week I finally got my first period naturally. It took me 3 months. I have been to the doctors. My GYN was so mean and dismissing. My APNP was the one who suggested hormones balancing vitamins. I have been on Vitamin D, Vitamin B, Ashwaghanda Root, Female Complex, and Maca Root. 

I was doing good for about 3 weeks no intrusive ROCD thoughts. About 4 days prior to my period I could feel my mood slowly going down to numb again. Now that my period is over (3 days past) I still feel number and my ROCD thoughts are back. 

I just want to feel like myself again. I know my SO is who I am meant to be with, I just don’t feel the love like I used to. Could this all seriously be just hormones?? I feel like I am falling out of love, but I can’t imagine being without him. :(  

anyone else experiencing this?! Any help, advice, encouragement would help!! 

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME IM NOT CRAZY! So I was taking Lolo from Jan 2018- June 2018. I wasn’t effected by the pill for the first 5 Months but then the month of June was BRUTAL! I was having so many second thoughts about my boyfriend and it was so frustrating having this awful thoughts and I felt so guilty! It’s now August and it’s been one full month that I’ve been off of it and I’ve been having so many mental breakdowns and most importantly I’ve been SO obsessed with my boyfriends ex-girlfriend.

She is completely out of the picture and my boyfriend tells me such awful things about that that I literally should have nothing to worry about but yet I’m here stressing over so many things that I can’t change and that don’t matter! Can someone please tell me I’m not the only one going through this :(

I went to the doctor today and she made things worse by telling me going off the pill has nothing to do with my emotions so she’s literally making me feel like I’m actually losing my mind and my sanity 

You are not going crazy!!! One thing that has helped me in all of this is realizing that all these obssessions are anxiety driven. When your body is under alot of stress and overly anxious your mind feels like it is in danger, and since there is no immediate danger the mind will try to attach the anxiety to anything and everything trying to find the source of the danger. If you keep ruminating over that thought your mind will keep bringing it back thinking it is dangerous. Every time the thought about your boyfriend or your boyfriend's ex comes to mind remind yourself it is rubbish and its just anxiety and let the thought pass. Eventually, the thought will lose its power and die. I hope this helps. Remember crazy people don't know their crazy. YOU ARE NOT GOING CRAZY!!!

Hey!
So sorry for the delay. I was away on vacation and just got back recently. Yes, Zoloft at 25mg per day has helped me immensely. Not saying it is for everyone, but I was at my wits end towards the end of the 3rd month off of birth control and was ready to try anything...I was to the point where I could no longer leave the house (agoraphobia), drive, and was afraid of EVERYTHING. Since starting Zoloft I can drive again, go out shopping, go on vacation, go for hikes and walks, go to the beach, spend time with family and I am way way way more positive and don't feel hopeless anymore. Zoloft has also given me my motivation back and made mornings way easier - I used to get extreme nausea and dizzy feelings because of my anxiety each morning, about a week or so after starting Zoloft that all has gone away. I wake up and just do what I need to do. I have been on it for a little over a month now and not sure if I have received full effects of it yet (my psychiatrist said it could take up to 6 or for some people 8 weeks to get the full effects) but I feel more like my old self than I have in months. I still experience mild anxiety every now and then, but it is NOTHING like it was before. I still struggle a little bit with longer drives but am getting better and I also have some fatigue (this could also be a side effect of the Zoloft) but finally feel like I am getting my life back together and can actually do things rather than sitting at home and being scared of everything. Also, I am now entering my 5th month off of the birth control pill (end of August will be 5 months exactly) so that may have something to do with it as well. If you are still struggling, I suggest you give the Zoloft a try. First few days are a little rough (I felt very sleepy, out of it, and a little dizzy) but after that all subsides and you'll start to notice a gradual change as the days go by.
Good luck!!