Yesterday, I was very anxious and worried and questionning everything, but when I got home and saw him I felt better. But sometimes when we kiss or when he hugs me, I freeze and my mind is racing and I have a pinch in my stomach. Its awful.
And I also worry because we kind of fight a lot because I freak out most of the time and it makes me freak out even more because I imagine that our couple wont last through the years :( Its my biggest fear... It makes me very sad.
Some other times, none of that is there...
And especially since I started feeling better and being able to feel the love a bit more, when I have a setback, it's like 10x worse because I have forgotten how bad it actually is :(
Praying for all of us,
I wish more people came back talking about how they overcame this nightmare
xxxxxx
emma
Just another update... I am almost 8 months off of the birth control and my period is due in a little less than a week. I have been feeling super anxious, OCD, down, tired, lethargic, and my head feels weird. This doesn't happen every cycle anymore (although it used to) but when it does, I just feel like I'm going back to the way I was in the beginning. As I may have mentioned before on here, because of this whole situation I was put on anti-anxiety and anti-depression meds and I don't feel them working nearly as well around the time of my period. I get really scared and worried about everything but at the same time I just want to sleep and am moody. For anyone else out there struggling, so sorry you're going through this. The first few months (March - June) were the absolute worst for me. I felt awful ALL THE TIME. I still feel awful, but its pretty much linked to what point I am in my cycle (whether it be around ovulation or my period) but some times are worse than others and when those symptoms hit I just want to curl up and cry.
Hi ladies, I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving. I just wanted to pop in and message about some things that I have learned. I have been following another forum and a lot of the girls who have success stories stated that it can take 7 to 9 months before the last part of hormonal birth control is officially out of our bloodstream in our systems. A lot of those ladies stated that the hormonal birth control stores and your fat cells and unfortunately fat cells take a long time to release toxins and chemicals so we can be feeling the side effects from 7 to 9 months pretty bad before we start to actually heal. November 21 with seven months off for me and I can honestly tell you that the six month was pretty bad anxiety wise. I personally have only had one menstrual cycles and stopping in April and I’m currently four days late on my menstrual cycle that I’m supposed to be having this month. So it’s clear to see that this is hormonal even though my anxiety try to tell me it’s not!
Stay strong ladies, I have hope!