Ladies, at what month or year did you notice a turning point in how you were feeling after stopping the pill?
When I first started going through this, I had really bad intrusive thoughts (HOCD, POCD, etc) they really made me think I was some horrible evil person. I think every theme would like get “resolved” and replaced with another one each menstrual cycle. I don’t really experience them anymore but now my anxiety is just me thinking what if that happens to me again, what if there’s something seriously wrong, stuff like that. When did you stop the pill and how long were you on?
I came off in March 2018, and I didn’t experience symptoms until June-July 2018. I’m still recovering
Anyone else feel super disconnected from yourself and your surroundings? That’s the worst symptom for me.
Yes, it doesn’t happen to me a lot any more but I do get it sometimes
The first 3 were the worst but by month 6 it was all over
Yes i had that.... i started taking a probiotic and that seemed to help a lot
So I went to urgent care yesterday because I’ve been feeling so terrible for the past couple weeks. Was diagnosed with an inner ear infection (which explains my dizziness), but then she also told me she wants me to get my thyroid checked, and I have a slight heart murmur. So now I’m a bit stressed about that. I have a naturopath appointment later this month and I have this fear that my hormones will be completely normal, and I’ll once again have no idea what’s causing this anxiety and depersonalization and depression. The thought that this could be an actual mental illness that I have to deal with for the rest of my life scares me, because I don’t know that I can cope with these feelings forever. I just get so terrified sometimes that I’ll never feel good or even just okay ever again. It’s interfering with everything in my life: my job, my relationships, even my love for my dogs. Sometimes I feel so disconnected from my own life that I don’t even know what I’m doing. And the thought of never regaining any sense of normalcy is so petrifying to me. Sorry, just needed to vent a little today. I know I’m not the only one who feels this way, and I’m so grateful for this forum. Who knows where I’d be without all your stories and experiences to gain insight from.
Want to add that I’m also a raging hypochondriac so I’m also worried that every symptom I have is related to some terminal illness lol. So that adds an extra layer of stress.
Don’t worry you’re not alone! I’m the exact same way. So I just went to my annual physical today and got my hormones tested (there aren’t many naturopathic doctors in my area and I can’t really afford it anyways) and I’ll see my results on Tuesday. I have PCOS and I know my hormones are probably a mess to begin with, so I’m gonna start up Metformin next week to treat it and see if it’ll help my recovery process. My period is just about to end and I’ve just been feeling really anxious about the anxiety if that makes sense lol. I’m praying we all can find our light at the end of the tunnel soon!
Hey guys, I’ve been posting about how I’ve been feel anxious these past few weeks, but I feel like now it’s turning into depression a bit and I haven’t felt that in months. It really sucks going through this when I’m already about to be 1.5 yrs off. I love my life, but I just keep thinking about what if I have to live like this forever. And then the anxiety makes me anxious about thinking like that lol. It’s a horrible cycle.
Girl, I’m 2 years off and just got hit with a gnarly recurrence of symptoms. I don’t say that to discourage you, just to let you know you’re not alone! When I feel like I’m stuck forever, I just remember that just a few months ago I was feeling so much better. I keep a log of my moods day to day, so I can look back and see when I had good days, just to remind myself that they actually happened. I’m FINALLY getting my thyroid checked and going to see a naturopath, after a couple of years of just assuring myself my symptoms would go away on their own. But sometimes we need some extra help. I hope things get better for you! And if not, don’t be afraid to seek medical help!
Thank you so much! I just get really frustrated because I was only on the pill for 6 months and I can’t believe being on the pill for such a short amount of time could cause this :( I’ve dealt with anxiety in the past but never anything like this, but somehow my mind thinks things like “what if the anxiety when you were younger was the first sign” or something lol. I can’t wait to feel better. I’m glad you’re going to the naturopath, good luck!
I am EXACTLY the same way. I always worry about being stuck and I'm super anxious about my anxiety, it’s such a weird cycle. I was on BC for about 8 months when I had the reaction and before that I was on it for about 5 years, so I sometimes wonder if I’m just EXTRA messed up, ya know? I think we’re all going to be okay though! It’s just so hard to reassure yourself when you’re in the midst of some really bad anxiety/depression.
Wow thanks again it feels great to know I’m not alone in this. I hate questioning every little thing in my life during this whole experience. When I’m very anxious, I think too much, and when I feel depressed/numb, I feel like I’m not having enough feelings! It’s so annoying lol