Feeling terrible after shrooms

Would you say you've improved/regained some of the "you" that you were before the shroom trip? It's been a year and 4 months for me and I am still struggling badly with this. I have never considered suicide, but I feel devoid of self. I moved back in with my parents and younger brother, and find no comfort in these relationships, although I feel more comfortable here than where I was living before. I truly feel like I won't find any solace or peace until I can remove myself from other people, and look within myself to fix what I've broken. It's hard because my relationships with my family feel hollow to me, and they sense that in how I act. I constantly get asked if i'm ok or if i'm happy. One of the earlier posters who described feeling like they were losing a part of who they were bit by bit - this is how I feel. I feel like I'm losing touch with the world, and losing my understanding of it, slowly but surely. I also feel like I am losing all of my memories of my life - from childhood through highschool and even into college, just one year back. I just need to know if this gets better. If I will eventually regain myself. If not, then I'll know I will just have to reinvent myself as a person and stop trying to hold onto something that is gone. These are the only options I can see for existing. My girlfriend - whom I've known for 5 years - has been the biggest lifeline for me. She anchors me to the world in a way that is very comforting. It seems that my anxieties let go for the moments I am alone with her. But they return when we are around other people. I need validation. On everything I do - how I act, how I think, how I feel. I just need to understand how I am supposed to work, so I can be a cohesive person (I used to be very happily abnormal, but normal or not, I just want an identity that reacts to life in a way that is defining) And this goes back to my questions earlier. Do I try and recover myself, by talking to my girlfriend, and asking her to help me to remember who I was, since she knows me in and out. Or do I pretty much just get a pen and paper and list every interaction possible and start figuring out how to react. I've lost all spontaneity. I can't just respond to day-to-day interactions without thinking about how I am supposed to react. sh*t. I think my mind is messed up :(

I had horrible cluster headaches. I red on internet that mushrooms has helped a lot of patients whit same problem. I have eaten mushrooms before at least 5 time, i didn't have problems not even a bit also on high doses like 4-5 grams. So i sayed iam gonna take a big dose that will helped me whit had attacks(internet sayed to ony take half tea spoon and boil it in water for 15 min then drank), and my usual supplier gave me more then usual cause she knew i had pains, of course she didn't want me to eat it in one dose, so basically i ate about 7 grams,first everything was ok i had usual trip and after 3 h it was starting to com down then i smoked some weed and the trip came back actualy stronger then before, i stil had hang over it but then i did horrible mistake i accidentally went to sleep whiteout knowing. i had RELAY intense lucid dreams..basically i had nirvana(complete opening of ejes) so i was compleatly awere i was sleaping and i could wake any time i wanted so when i wanted to wake up i realized i wasent dreaming i was in dreams and realaty whit open eyes at same time, and after i realized what hapend i had HORRIBLE crash to realaty, and same as all of you i had depresion, anxiaty and feling like i dont know if its realaty or not. So basicly today 3 days after that i already feall much beter also the hadacke has gone but every time i remenber that moment i fell afraid and some anxiety comes. But it will be be beter, from this i realized DONT DO CRAZY AMOUNT OF PSIHODELICS AND THEN GO TO SLEAP realy bed idea.

I just read through this entire thread and I'm so happy. Because I thought I was alone, but I'm not and you all have helped me feel ALOT better about this. Here's my story. I decided to take 3 grams of shrooms and for the first 2 hours everything was great. Then for some reason or another, I decided to smoke a quick blunt. After I came back inside and sat on the couch I had a huge heat flash and a panic attack, my trip went bad instantly. I was drenched in sweat but managed to dry myself off, but I felt the effects of the panic attack there while tripping and didn't start feeling better until I Skype called my friends and we started talking and we stayed on the phone all night. The next day (today) I felt desensitized to everything and not quite (myself) of course to everyone else I appeared normal and interacting with people was pretty natural. Then as the day went on and I came home, the anxiety came. The feeling isn't new to me but it's never been this strong or constant. Usually I had anxiety for a reason but now I see that it's thought loops that make you feel worse. Talking to people makes me feel alot better and this thread was magnificent. Thanks again to everyone, and I'm rooting for you guys! Have faith and confidence.

Im feeling all of the symptoms, lost touch of reality, lost touch of myself but in a way its kind of all in my head i feel like im just talking myself into feeling like this so hey just f**k it continue on with ur day dont focus on it and it will go awa

Thank you so much for posting this! I know this was over a year ago but if you happen to see this please reply and let me know how things have changed for you. I've been like this for about 6 months and I haven't gotten any better. I haven't tried talking to anyone about it because I'm really scared. I hate talking about it to anyone.

Focus that it's all mental, your senses are more sensitive now and it's up to you to see if you can beat this, I've come a long way from my horrible shroom trip and picked up running and lifting to help me mentally be tough. Family has helped me a lot also because they knew what happen and a big success to. If you have a Xbox One I would enjoy talking to you and answering your questions EternalRoyal3 by the way it's almost going to be a year since the trip so yeah

hey guys! i had a bad trip exsperience. it was filled with extream paryanoya and anxiety. me and my friends took some very potent shrooms and we all had kind of bad trips me especially. i basically thought people were trying to kill me. even my family and my own mother! i ended up running down my street and half way across town yelling ( these people are trying to kill me) i tryed to call my gf to get comfort but she was extreamly confused and didnt under stand what i was talking about because i was so high and not making sense i dont know how i didnt get arrested. i was acting like a complete lunitic.... after the fact i felt payanoyd for a long time and anxious. very unsocial. it was basically all i could think about. i felt like i had P.T.S.D or somthing.. i contimplated things about my self like skitzofrinea and other mental disorders for a long time... always. its been 6 years sense that trip and YES i feel completly fine now. the realy only thing that helped was time. i do recomend that you see a theropist or talk to someone about how you feel. i didnt end up having to take xanx for a while for panic attacks but those eventually went away and i dont take xanx anymore.. i aslso recomend not doing any drugs while u are healing.. this can only make the depression and confusion of what happned to you worse... i know how u are feeling and im telling you it WILL get better in time...

You're amazing. You have no idea how much this post means to me right now.
I took shrooms two days ago with my boyfriend in our house. I've taken LSD before and absolutely loved it start to finish so I thought "shrooms f**k yeah". We each took about 2grams each....Coming up was gross: sweaty and nervous regretting taking it wishing we had just had a normal fun night. Then I peaked and it was awesome. He was completely naked and I was in Pajamas and we walked around the house laughing at each other it felt like he was my dog that had just become a human for the first time it was bizarre and so funny and perfect. We felt we were one entity. Extensions of ourselves. Awesome feeling (him and I are very close already it just personified our souls lol) We played soul train jams and probably said the funniest things we've ever said, commenting satirically on everything. I described the vibe as being "Jungle Western" which made perfect sense to me (our decor is...random). Then things got weird. We had noticed the gender difference and started to experience a sexual tension. That's when I started feeling uncomfortable. Which I thought was weird. This is my boyfriend I live with we have sex why do I feel inappropriate. This got me stuck in my head. So we decided to watch tv. Bad idea. I immediately became terrified: too loud. So I chose something soft and soothing and happy: Lord of the Rings (the first 20 mins only). I was coming down.

Now this is where I start to feel.....disconnected. I think to myself "am I sober....is this me sober...because this is not who I was before I took these...". I can't explain it completely it seems impossible. But I felt as if I was in a new body...I felt as if the Me I was before disappeared. And that I was a totally different person now residing in that body...with the knowledge that it was still somehow me. A Paradox I can't even explain. A disconnect. A confusion. A fear. An anxiety. A realization that I may have possibly just screwed up my entire sanity. The winding stirring thoughts just webbed themselves together making it utterly impossible to understand what I was even thinking.
A COMPLETE. LOSS. OF CONTROL. not what I'm used to. Not the drunk "adjujsjsidj$$/&:$$.$/&/&" out of control. But the loss of control of my interpretation. What am I seeing. What am I feeling. Why am I here. I want to go home. I was home. But I felt in complete danger. Energy was...evil. As I tried to talk to my boyfriend about it I felt like I was talking to someone who found me lost. I didn't really know him. I knew him. But I was disconnected. I cried in his arms thinking "this is it. I'm gone."

Crying stopped. Then complete complete darkness. Complete shift in persona. I was not. Me. I did not know what I liked. I did not know what I do. He was trying to get me out of the house to our regular bar to restore normality. I agreed. Getting dressed now....what am I supposed to wear, look like, do we look normal, what would Alice normally do (lol my name is Alice). He finally got me out and I felt as if I had never been in public. As if I were an isolated crazy old lady out for the first time. I felt crippled as he guided me down my street. Everyone was scary. I was terrified. Paranoid that someone would kill me. Mug me. Just bad. But I felt completely sober for all of this. We sat at the bar saw all our friends and slowly I came back to normal.

Tonight after a wonderful day we went to bed. Talking about the day la la la everything happy drifting to sleep. Then he says "my tummy still hurts from the mushrooms". And I flipped a switch. All of a sudden my spidey senses tingled. Like I was preparing for someone to break in my house any moment and kill us. Or something horrible like that. (I sound so crazy my apologies I'm just getting this out). I have not slept since because of this nonstop fear of disruption or death. Something I would have thoughts about before but not this intense. I would day dream occasionally but. This is an actual preparation for something I actually think will happen. I need to know that this will decrease with time. I have problems sleeping already and am afraid I made it worse, increased my anxiety.

But your post makes me remember that I am protected by the man sleeping next to me whom I love and loves me. That this is only temporary. I am just in shock. I need to accept it and know I can still have a life. And I will be ok. I told my bf that I don't ever want him to mention the mushrooms ever until I bring it up myself. I can't talk about it out loud yet but one day I will be able to. Thanks for the perfect uplift. All the best to everyone <3

Hey guys, I came here with the same problem as all of you and I wanted to reassure myself. Really happy that I'm not the only person that had this issue.

Basically I've been experimenting with drugs lately since after investigating I found that most drugs are not as harmful as society would have you believe. It wasn't long before I got into psychedelics and my first few trips were with DMT and LSD. I never had the "breakthrough" DMT experiences but quite enjyoed the insane hallucinations that you get while on it. Never had much of an issue with it, slight anxiety but quite frankly if you have ever tried DMT or read about it....it's hard not to be even a little anxious when taking it!

I then did some LSD and found it to be one of the best experiences I've EVER had. It was just so much fun and gave me so much insight into my life. I dropped acid almost once a week for a while and even candyflipped at a huge music festival and it was without a doubt the most fun I've EVER had. I have been a socially anxious person for years and I think these really helped me see that and get over it to some extent. I started realizing that everyone is very similar and we all just want to be happy. I realized that people don't really think that much about you even if you do something completely embarassing in front of them and that confidence goes a long way in people's perspective of you. I attribute this realization to psychedelics and honestly I think it's helped me a good bit.

It's not all fun though...I think the problem here is that I psych'd too often and also mixing with weed didn't help. I smoke weed frequently and have never had any issues with it really, always makes me feel relaxed but I think when you combine this with a psychedelic it can be a risky thing. I've had good experiences with weed on psychs but I also had the worst experience on it.  

I felt fine pretty f*****g quickly after this trip (maybe 2 days at MOST to complete normality again) and honestly it was an AWFUL trip. When I look back though I realize that it was just ridiculous. Psychedelics make you think you've got it all figured out and mix that with weed and you can have some really stupid paranoid delusions that make sense to you but are literally completely nonsensical. It's important to remember it's because of how these drugs affect your brain, you're not going insane, your brain is just under the influence at the time and especially when you start getting anxious at all, it's easy for it to go very far very fast.

I had shrooms the other day and towards the end I started feeling anxious again (I did weed again on it....how stupid of me). I wouldn't say it was so much a BAD trip, it was just close to becoming one but I managed to calm myself down and avert it. Again it was all of these paranoid delusions that kept coming into my head and I was convinced it was real. The whole next day I couldn't keep any food down or even liquids, I just kept getting sick. That entire day I felt really really screwed up, just complete blackness and weirdness. Towards the end of the day I finally felt normal again and had a nice long sleep for myself. A day later again I woke up feeling MUCH better. I still had some moments where I would think about it and feel a bit anxious but you just need to remember that it's pointless getting worked up over this. It has happened and there's nothing you can do now except accept you had a hard time and move on.

I think the big mistake on my part was taking psychedelics too frequently and also doing them too late into the day. I've found that my worst feelings come from when I have taken them late and end up tripping well into the night. My brain/body is exhausted at the point and all I want to do is sleep but I can't because I'm still high as f**k on a psych. I think that kind of situation is just ASKING to start getting anxious and freaking out, thinking it's never gonna end when it DOES. It ALWAYS does end. EVEN if you are the one in a million person who takes a psych and has a complete psychological breakdown REMEMBER that these breakdowns are totally fixable. If you feel THAT bad then talk to someone about it.

It really didn't take long for me to get out of the stint but I generally think that mentally I'm quite a strong person as when I was young I went through a lot of hardship and it made me a stronger person mentally for it. Some people may take longer but just stop dwelling on it! Remember that the badness you feel is due the chemical imbalances in your brain which have ocurred from taking drugs and that as time goes on, your brain will rebalance back to complete normality and if it goes on for too long, there are people out there who can help you, there's always light at the end of the tunnel!

Like that awesome poster on the first page of this thread suggested, start excersizing, eat healthy and be positive and you'll be yourself in no time. Lounging around dwelling on your bad experience is how you make it worse. You will just get stuck into your own head and delude yourself. It may also help to tell people what happened to you, it certainly did for me and I felt a lot better after doing so and people explaining to me that this is VERY normal and it happens to an AWFUL lot of people.

The key is you need to stop thinking about how long this is gonna take to feel normal and just think about moving on yourself and taking actions to make yourself feel better in a natural way to help restore your brains natural balance :)!

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I have something similar but not exactly like what you guys have been talking about. Previously I'd done shrooms 3 times, and each time was fine. Last time, a year and a half ago I'm camping in the desert with my friend, take some really potent ones and trip. The trip was fine, I came up then went down then went to bed. As I'm lying in my sleeping bag all of a sudden I start having MASSIVE closed eyed hallucinations and hear a really loud annoying buzzing in my ears. Ever since then... nothings been the same. I've just felt stupid, unable to focus, and above all disconnected. For a long time I had trouble remembering words. I can no longer form complex coherent arguments, it's like I lose focus halfway through and lose sight of the bigger picture/point I'm trying to make. I feel DISCONNECTED. Like I'm re-reading the harry potter books which I loved before the trip and I used to be able to get into so much and feel the fear/joy the characters felt. Now I don't care. It's like I'm reading and I understand what's going on but it just doesn't impact me at all. Same with video games. I used to be really good and play a lot, now it's like it's just a bunch of moving images, who cares if my character wins or dies, its just bleh. I think I'm gonna kill myself. It's been a year and a half guys and I still don't feel any better. I don't get any anxiety or panic attacks you guys are talking about because I didn't really have a bad trip, just weirdly intense hallucinations after I had already come down. If anything I feel less anxiety because of how disconnected I feel. Nothing matters. I used to be terrified of relapsing into my weed drug addiction, but now I feel disconnected and like nothing matters/can hurt me. f**k man. I hate this so much. Has anyone experienced this specific brand of mushrooms psychosis? Not the anxiety/panic attack kind. Please tell me you got better. I feel like I'll never get better. Why would I? This is just how my brain is now. It's been a whole year and a half, and I'm still disconnected. My life was great and now I'm screwed. f**k f**k f**k.

Though it will naturally go away though right?

Don't kill yourself. Please. Exhaust all of your options to help yourself. Have you tried exercise, meditation, medication, a therapist, etc.? I say this because of the devastating effects suicide can being on your loved ones. You may leave a letter explaining your decision, but even if you write a thorough explanation, your loved ones will still feel that they didn't do enough to stop you from killing yourself. It devastates the people around you who love and care about you. A year and a half is a flash in the pan. Give yourself more time. Death is permanent. There is no coming back from it. Please, muster up the strength to talk with someone. I don't think you can say that after a year and a half that you're going to be this way forever. Think back on your past year. What have you tried to alleviate this issue? What can you still try? Don't give up Aziz. There's so much more to live for.

Hi

I am 22 and I took mushrooms yesterday. I had a great experience actually. Me and two friends went to a reggae bar after drinking the mushroom shake. We shared it to make it less powerful. The vibe was really good, I loved watching the girls and listening to the music. I also had some beers, which might have been a mistake.

The problema only begun when I woke up the following morning. I was feeling hungover, but nothing too much. I started searching the internet for side effects and found this. Then I started to worry insanely. I couldn't sleep anymore and lost my apetite, that was fine before.

I am almost one hundred per cent sure it is all in my head. I need to make this go away. I have had problems with anxiety before and I woudl say I have learned how to deal with it.

This time has been different. I hope this is not something serious. I think my mind is causing this anxiety for no reason, since I only had good feelings during the trip.

At the moment I am completely lost, I could really use some advice, please

Thank you SO much for this. It feels like an articulate person dropped from the heavens and gave me the boost that I needed to move forward. AMAZING. I'm forever grateful.

I am the guy that posted two days ago. I want to say that I am feeling much much better. Thank you so much for this topic.

To the others I would like to say, accept your feelings, embrace the anxiety, the angst
Let it come and let it go, it will go for sure. Do what makes you feel good, what makes you feel alive.

Anxiety is part of life, we learn to live with it and with time it stop bothering us. When is gets bad, take your time, let it go.

Spend time with people you love and love you. Don't feel guilty, there is no reason or use in it.

Exercise, run, ride your bike, sing, listen to music, make love, masturbate. Work, study, help people. Live.

I still feel anxiety, but looking back I have always felt, in some amount. Anxiety means you're alive.

Being anxious or feeling angst means we don't pass blankly through life. We feel, we sense, we suffer and we live. Only knowing the dark side allows you to enjoy the bright side. There is one bright side. You will feel it in small things. Maybe you don't feel it now, but you will. Sooner than you expect.


That's my experience. I have always being anxious, and ansgt is part of my life. I love who I am.

Feelings are just feelings, they don't determine who you are or what you can achieve in life. All of you are 100% capable and fully functioning human beings!

At the moment my life is completely normal. I study, work, go out with friends, meet girls, exercise. Everything. You all can.

I realize the anxiety and maybe panic can come back. I will let it come and let it go. Life is made of moments, bad moments are part of it and they make you learn. Bad moments are where you grow and become able to be happier.

Thanks for everyone. Be strong, don't abandon yourselves. I am here to talk.