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If you are reading this, keep reading and don’t give up. I went through this experience and FULLY recovered. Part of me didn’t even want to come back to this forum because of the bad memories, but some of these posts helped me on my journey so I wanted to give back to this place.
Smoked weed on shrooms and had a terrible experience. For the two months following I just felt ‘weird’ and didn’t really know how to describe it. Kept smoking and didn’t really change any habits, just kind of tried to deal with the fogginess. I then found this forum and thought “HOLY sh*t THIS I EXACTLY HOW I FEEL”. At the same time, I started really questioning my sense of self—started getting horrible episodes of despair, panic, disinterest, and disassociation.
SO HERE’S WHAT I DID ABOUT IT, and about a month after following these activities religiously, I’m BACK TO NORMAL and even healthier. I know a lot of these are mentioned in previous posts, but they are similar BECAUSE THEY WORK:
1) Stop doing drugs – I stopped smoking weed immediately (you need to do this, the goal is to come back to reality, not to cope using weed like a little b***h), I stopped using Adderall to study for class, I stopped drinking caffeine, and even cut out alcohol for about 10 days. I need to emphasize that my recovery would have taken much longer had I continued smoking weed—so just stop; I had been a daily smoker for the last 4 years, it was hard to stop—I lost my appetite and my anxiety actually worsened for about a week, but you need to power through the withdrawal.
2) Let go of some responsibilities – I bombed a test, dropped taking the GMAT, and cut out responsibilities with student organizations. Don’t stop doing your hobbies, but cut some shitty responsibilities so that you can focus on yourself.
3) Start drinking tea – whenever you have the urge to smoke/drink/do drugs, drink some chamomile tea. Non-caffeinated, only herbal. This is your drink now.
4) See a therapist 1-2 times a week – just do it, tell him/her everything. It feels better.
5) Meditate daily – should be obvious, but this helps stop thought loops. It’s hard at first but don’t be discouraged.
6) Exercise via Running – view this as an opportunity. You finally have an excuse to get your body and mind right. Run or exercise every morning as soon as you wake up.
7) Yoga – not just YouTube videos, start going to a class. It’s so friggen hard at first that you can’t think about anything else but your body—this is a key activity to stopping the disassociation, because it centers you.
8) Find your support network – I told my parents everything, they didn’t know that I had ever done drugs. It was hard but it felt good to finally be honest with them. I usually would call them once a week—I started calling them twice a day to check in. You can’t do this alone. Tell them about how you do yoga now, stopped doing drugs etc—it reaffirms your new sense of self.
9) Eat healthier – lots of fruits and vegetables. Drink fruit smoothies if you don’t have an appetite.
10) Surround yourself with people and good vibes – don’t be a little b***h and stay in your room—get out there and do fun sh*t with friends and family. It won’t be easy at first, you might still feel disinterested and disassociated—but these activities get you out of your head eventually. Keep doing them. Also start watching comedy shows (personally I love Louis CK) and delete any depressing music off of your iPod immediately.
10) Accept your feelings – moments will be hard, sometimes you’ll have a few good days then a bad day. Just power through it. You aren’t going crazy. Your mind/body is adjusting to all the awesome habits you are making, and all of the shitty habits that you are dropping. You’ll feel better with time, but nobody said it would be easy—drop the shitty habits and relentlessly pursue good ones.