I've had insanely bad Shroom trips in the past one being 6g the other 4.5g of potent Psilocybe Cubensis back when i was only 16-17 years old let me tell you they were the most terrifying trips of my life, i saw deep inside myself that was the scariest part of all. I learned of my worst fears (subconscious fears) i didn't even know i had. I saw my objective in life with absolute clarity for the first time. For me they shock me into the utmost clarity you could ever imagine life flashing before your eyes type sh*t but, i have to admit after my 4.5g trip it felt like a waste of time the trip was so terrifying and, manic i didn't think i would ever take mushrooms again it was too manic to makes sense of i would compare it to what i would expect from Ayawasca although, i don't have any experience with it so i can't say for sure. The trick is to analyze the trip for months and, learn from it not hide from it like your doing i hid from it after (4.5g) and, it made me depressed it felt like life had no meaning similar to what your describing it wasn't until i analyzed my trip that things got better, believe it not i have had a more positive influence from my bad trips than the good ones they were so horrible that they really made me realize just how bad things could really be and, got a far grater appreciation for what i have. My depression i fought for years faded and, i actually quit Cocaine cold turkey after being badly addicted i couldn't stop because the coke addiction was keeping me from seeing clearly but, with help from the mushroom i could. Remember analyze your f*****g trip this isn't a recreational drug in my opinion and, meany others it's a vary powerful mind altering substance/medicine don't f**k with it unless you are, educated that's where bad experiences come from, you see Psychedelics don't work on stupid people -Terence Mckenna
Btw i still use mushrooms for Depression and, Anxiety to this day just with a much smaller amounts usually .5g will have me feeling anxiety/depression free for days plus a nice sense of wonder that i haven't had in years as-well as optimism. Although, i still have the odd crazy 5g trip once every few years for the sake of deep realizations.
I've had my fun now time to move on. And I feel I can become a better person as I recover in all aspects. Love is key. Love gets me through it. I'm alone in thialand but seeing pictures and talking with loved ones helps. Plus the love of good people and animals I find. Puts you at piece. I was serious freaking out ! Thought I developed a heart condition !
Jus it is in the mind. I think now is the time to develop positive thoughts only because negative affect me badly! And the do before all this I jus never realise until now.
I'm a 8 days in been hospital 3 days on 2 occasions. My only advice is, if you freak out to the point you heart and blood pressure booms! Mine hit 200 ! Go get medical help! Don't wait it to pass. And don't go crazy after shrooms doing mad hardcore exercise like I did in the head that jus bought it back on and I what dehydrated too. That nearly killed me not so much the shrooms. So jus take it easy on ur road to recovery and as the great post above. Do it all but do take it easy and drink lots of water. If you really feel funny go hospital and get on the drips I had 4 packs given to me. And DO NOT SMOKE WEED OR BOOZE. Just makes it way worse ! Much love folks you will get there stay strong and positive.
Hello,
To anyone experiencing these terrible feelings, please note that they are only temporary. I experienced such a trip at the end of my senior year of high school, during an extremely stressful period in my life. I too, thought that my life had ended. I sought help and with support from my family, medication, and renewed faith in the religion that I thought I abandoned very long ago, I began to see the light, and find joy in the small things again. Johnny Cash once wrote in a song titled "Man in Black", "I wear the black for the sick and lonely old... for the reckless ones who bad trip left them cold" (us!).
I really truly want to help you all because i know the torment that these sorts of events can leave you in.
The routine that helped me recover was:
1. Do not really on other drugs for comfort (Even marijuana!): If you were like me, you loved smoking weed at basically every opportunity. I'm sorry to say that this has to become a habit of the past. Drugs will temporarily make you feel better but once the effect fades you will realize that nothing has changed, and you will only try to seek more drugs for relief. This can lead to a cycle that is destructive and very hard to break. Being high is not good because it disrupts your focus at school and work.
2. Visit medical professionals: These people get payed handsome amounts of money to research your symptoms and prescribe a routine solution that they believe best handles the situation. I visited both a psychiatrist and a psychologist. If you believe that your connection is not strong with a therapist, seek out a new one, finding someone you click with is very important!
3. Exercise: I was an athlete all my life. The thing that athletics taught me was that if you wanted results, there is no other way to achieve them than hard work. After a trip such as this it can have both mental and physical effects. By exercising, your body releases hormones that make you feel temporarily happier, as well as long term effects like a sexier body, which helps with confidence in every situation.
4. If your like me, there was a fundamental reason for the bad trip. It is something traumatic that you try with every fiber of your being to avoid confronting, but unfortunately keeping secrets like these inside us only make matters very, very worse. I advise disclosing these events (mine was sexual assault about 3 months before the trip) to a medical professional, most likely a psychologist, who is legally not allowed disclose this information without your permission.
5. Try to go out as much as possible: Its going to suck, theres no other way to put it, but there is no way to get better at social interaction that to get out there and meet people who you genuinely like. Its ok to be vulnerable! Society tells us its bad to be vulnerable (especially for guys) but this is simply not true, as everyone is vulnerable at periods during this life. Being vulnerable is ok and actually necessary to discover more deeply what makes you who you are.
I truly hope you take the time to read what I have written here as I have basically narrated my trip and what I did to overcome it. Also, once you guys figure everything out, definitely try to pass information about your recovery on to others as it will only help the recovery process.
Peace