Maybe it is not such a bad thing you see things differently. I also started feeling different when it happened. But then again i feel different many times. Never the same constant feeling. But for me, after it happened, I felt more focused and optimistic and strong I guess. Other times I felt like just staying indoors and thinking of that moment, crying, praying-feeling closer with God, other times also thinking i do not want to love again and that i should not open up to boys anymore, but then i did to a friend, but I don't really know. I feel OK now and I hope you do too. It also seemed romantic enough for me and like I am getting this moment and then I cuddled as i knew in my heart it may be my only chance to, and he has vanished, so. I also felt sad losing it to him though, since we were not official or barely together. :( Well, at least thats over with. Men and all. It kind of made me fall out of love though i still think of him and miss him sometimes.