yo guys, 16 soon 17 year old male
I think i have hocd and it's getting extremely stressful. I have had quite a few sexual encounters with women, none leading to sex, but all going somewhere. I have enjoyed these quite a lot.
about 3 months ago these sudden gay thoughts started to go into my head, i dealt with them at first, ignoring them, was quite easy; although about a week ago I thought I was gonna have a panic attack, i got soooo bad, i keep thinking bout "am I gay?" in my head, kept regularly testing if i am. Before this point 3 months ago, i have had no gay thoughts really. Its really messing with my mind. After the first bad stint, I had a day of hardly any thoughts, no panicking, really nice; even cracked one out to some lesbian porn. this day I was looking forward to my future and really happy; i want a girlfriend and a wife and kids some day, but this hocd is making the vision go further and further away
I think one of the things that's making it worse, is that when I was with some sexual encounters I actually lost an erection, one time after like an hour or so of foreplay (dont ask) and another for some odd reason; during both of these I was shaking horrifically, which i think was nerves.
these voices just torment me man, like "I keep thinking would I like to be with a man?" I never come to the conclusion of yes, but it keeps making me think. I think sometimes I have thought way too much, got stressed and started to believe some of the stuff myself.
the hocd symptoms seemed to match with me directly.
do you think its being gay/bi or hocd?
I think i have hocd and it's getting extremely stressful. I have had quite a few sexual encounters with women, none leading to sex, but all going somewhere. I have enjoyed these quite a lot.
about 3 months ago these sudden gay thoughts started to go into my head, i dealt with them at first, ignoring them, was quite easy; although about a week ago I thought I was gonna have a panic attack, i got soooo bad, i keep thinking bout "am I gay?" in my head, kept regularly testing if i am. Before this point 3 months ago, i have had no gay thoughts really. Its really messing with my mind. After the first bad stint, I had a day of hardly any thoughts, no panicking, really nice; even cracked one out to some lesbian porn. this day I was looking forward to my future and really happy; i want a girlfriend and a wife and kids some day, but this hocd is making the vision go further and further away
I think one of the things that's making it worse, is that when I was with some sexual encounters I actually lost an erection, one time after like an hour or so of foreplay (dont ask) and another for some odd reason; during both of these I was shaking horrifically, which i think was nerves.
these voices just torment me man, like "I keep thinking would I like to be with a man?" I never come to the conclusion of yes, but it keeps making me think. I think sometimes I have thought way too much, got stressed and started to believe some of the stuff myself.
the hocd symptoms seemed to match with me directly.
do you think its being gay/bi or hocd?
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I have never had thoughts about men before this time at all, I dont want to have a relationship with one. I dont often look at women when im walking on the street and regularly watch straight/lesbian porn, im sooo confused
I have never had thoughts about men before this time at all, I dont want to have a relationship with one. I dont often look at women when im walking on the street and regularly watch straight/lesbian porn, im sooo confused
Yeah, I'm 13 and I constantly worry that I'm gay. I don't have sexual feelings for guys, and I've always been attracted to girls. But I'm constantly worrying that I'm gay. I have no desire what so ever to ever be with a guy but I constantly testing myself to make sure I'm straight. I'm really confused and freaked out because the last thing I'd want to to do become gay! I'm not worried about like 'if I was, how would people think of me' but I just find it freaking creepy!! I'm soo confused
What you WANT to be is HAPPY, right? It doesn't matter what kind of bits are on the outside of the person you want to be with. If being with someone (sexually or otherwise) makes you happy inside, makes the world seem lighter, and your heart sing when they aren't around, THAT'S what it's all about. You are essentially "shooting yourself in the foot" and just sabotaging the short time we have on this earth to love other people by worrying whether you are one thing or the other. It TRULY doesn't matter. Try to withstand the tiny-minded and short-sighted people who don't understand what's important, and love who you need to, to make you happy. Don't pass up a chance to be with someone special because they aren't the "right" sex.