Hi,
I'm on day 9 of no subutex. I was addicted to vicodin for approx 2 years, then went on suboxone for another 2 years. Was then put on 8mg subutex for one year. My doctor seems to have no intention of ever letting me get off of this medicine, but due to financial and insurance issues, I had to make the jump on my own.
I've been lurking around for months, trying to find the best way to transition into a world without subutex. Day 1-3 were exceptionally hard for me, but I had planned the time away from work (weekend) and was able to still go into work that Monday at day 4. I somehow made it through 5 days of work last week, with each day being a little easier.
I'm beginning to have some problems now that I am not sure what I can do to heal myself faster. I'm taking womens daily, b-12 sublingual vitamins, setrolinehcl (zoloft) 200 mg, and I also take 30 mg of adderral for adhd. I cannot effectively take the adderral in the whole dose as I'm way too sensitive to it's effects now. I'm also trying to determine if it is adding to my withdraw symptoms that are causing me so much trouble.
My hands are trembling now. Not going away as fast as the serious wd symptoms did. I feel kind of like I have little needles being gently pricked throughout my body and I cannot sleep for anything. I've tried valerien root, but the capsule smell makes me so nausous, I cannot even swallow them. Melatonin, but it doesn't seem to do anything. Trazedone, it works but I feel the tolerance building and I do not have very many left, (no insurance). I bought ZzzQuill and it only makes me feel like I"m on some kind of icky trippy feeling.
My husband has been so incredibly wonderful by doing all of the cleaning, running errands, cooking, laundry. I want to help out, but I'm just SO DEPRESSED now. I'm wondering if I'm ever going to sleep again, if I'm ever going to be interested in the things I used to love, like gardening and walking on the beach. I'm just a lump on a log and want to find me again, but unlike before, each day seems to be a bit more disappointing for me because I still have this just yuck feeling.
My head is telling me to just continue getting through the days as best as I can. If i need to cry, then I cry, but going back to find more subutex to feel "normal" I don't think is even an option any longer.
Thank you for reading, and it's really not bad getting off of the subs. You just have to taper down to barely anything very slowly. I'm just having a really bad day and that is why most of the stories discussing how hard it is getting off of opiates exists instead of more positive ones. I am asking for guidance and advice from anyone who would like to share with me.
Thanks - LJ
Is this Kelso, as in Daniel?
The withdrawals will last years and years I Promise you..You made a mistake by choosing to pick up opiates.
No more shakiness, and sleeping BETTER than I did on subs because I'm taking traz each night which I think may also be helping with the depression.
If I CAN DO THIS, ANYONE ELSE CAN. YOU JUST HAVE TO TAPER VERY, VERY SLOWLY.
I have conquered sub withdrawal in 6 days no BS . A little drag still need one more good nite of sleep but I wanted too post a positive storie on here because all of the nightmare stories . I jumped at 1 mg after going down from 2mg 1week prior so for all the people panicking it wasn't all easy not sleeping for 5days starts to play with your sanity but finally I took warm bath took melatonin and traz. I slept and dreamed all nite woke up once . I forced myself to keep busy sometimes just talking on phone to take mind off anxiety. 2nd and 3rd day were worst mind was scattered but kept pushing I even went to gym 4th day . It's hard but you will find once u push yourself to do something u can function.
THANK YOU! I'm on day 7 right now and I really needed this
pain is temporary... it may last for a minute, an hour, a day or even a year... if i quit however it will last forever. -Eric Thomas
I am on Day 41 of a 2.5 year suboxine maintenance program. It is not fun and will suck but if one continues to use they will feel bad every morning for the rest of their lives. Don't cry to quit, you are already in pain, cry to move forward.
At day 41 i feel a ton better, i have somewhat stopped counting days and am moving forward looking into living a real life once again.
im on day 3 without any suboxone,i was taking 1/4mg a day, sometimes alittle more if i really needed it.day3 and im walking around,doing about 20push-ups,but still cant sleep,eat,and im very fatigue.how much longre should these symptoms last?
I have been on suboxone and subutex for over 4 years now. I started on 24mg of suboxone and now am on 1mg of subutex. sometimes I only take .5mg because I know my md will be taking me off completely soon. I have to say that I am scared to death of going through a severe withdrawl. I already take an antidepressant, Seroquel for sleep, and klonopin for anxiety. I am so afraid that the deperession and anxiety that I have suffered from for many years before my addiction came about will go into hyperdrive and make the subutex withdrawl worse.
Hello. I am a stay-at-home mother to a high energy 2 year old boy. I began taking Suboxone over a year ago at 24mg a day. Before that I have struggled with addiction to opiates on and off for 10 years. I had 3 years clean/sober during that 10 years and it was the best feeling in the world. For the last few months I've been wanted to stop taking Suboxone. I tried weaning but I noticed that I couldn'nt control it. Once I took my first dose in the morning, I couldn'nt control the amount I would take for the rest of the day. Tues Oct 1st at 10:00 was my last dose. All I did was pray that day. I learned so much in AA in the past and knew the only way to stop taking Subs was to give myself to GOD completely. I kept praying and listening to Spiritual AA Speakers on You-tube, and got through that day. The next morning I woke up excessively sweating and sick. My neighbor took my son for the morning and I cried to GOD for his help. To get me through this. I felt GOD hug me and I fell asleep.. When I woke a few hours later, I felt different. I felt better mentally than I had in years. I stopped focussing on my physical well being and continued to seek out GOD and take care of my boy. I think its the first time in my son's life that I mentally and physically spent the whole day with him. Today I woke up smiling, I am becomeing the woman GOD intended for me to be. Yes, I am not physically great: tired, sweaty, no appetite.....but I took my son to the library and to the playground where he played, and I prayed. I feel very hopeful for the future. I realized that as much as I researched other people's experience quiting suboxone, mine was going to be my own and different. I'm going to keep praying. Thank you for sharing your positive experience.
I am at 0.25 mgs./day for one week. Been trying to ween down for 1.5 years; about to go every other day at 0.25mgs.
I have suffered with bad depression for 20 years. I will not hurt myself yet I do not want to live. I live for others not myself. I had 6 yrs. of good sobriety, home group 4 meeting/wk., good sponsor, I had sponcees,took the steps as outlined in big book, still depressed on and off, and relapsed on rubatussin nonnarcotic by mistake, yet never stopped until I could not stop. A socalled friend said "easy". I'll give you couple loratabs, you'll test positive, and doctor will give you suboxone. I was told to stay at 8mgs. for at least a year. Being teachable, I followed directions. I began to very bad side effects. So here I am and all I hear is that my 1.5 year 'dope sickness' will pass. THAT PROMISE has NEVER helped! I wish I could die a dignified death.
Thank you for this website...... it has given me hope....... I am starting my 4th day since quitting Subutex. I still feel pretty bad but some better. I am trying to get up and walk but it hurts because I had my 5th back surgery 6 weeks ago. My story is a little different / screwy....... but 100% the truth. I have degenerative disc syndrome and the pinched / compressed nerves in my back really do hurt. The pain clinic Dr about 7 years ago prescribed Norco 10/325 and I took that 3 times a day for about 4 years, but was always fearful because I am a professional and feared a possible lawsuit if someone discovered my secret.
About 6 weeks ago my back got so bad I had to have another operation. I completely quit the subutex and took only dilaudud while in the hospital for a week and then switched to Norco when I came home. I had an rx for 150 and took 6 a day at first and taperee down to one and a half a day. I quit cold turkey last Tuesday so today is day 4 clean.
I have been told day 5 and 6 are usually the worst, so I am praying to God and trying my best NOT to call the Drs office for an ex, dear God / Jesus I hope I make it...... I do NOT want to be tied to this or any narcotic type drug the rest of my life. Many times I feel like giving up........ how I pray I make it. Which day has been the worst for anyone reading this?
Also I have lost a lot of weight (45 lbs) 220 to 175......... nothing sounds good to eat. I am 62 years old and live alone in an apt. I hope and pray I do not just die here in bed. Please pray for me. Thank you.