I m in a relationship for last 12 years.i love him bt he loves me more than i do...after al these years i cnt open up to him....i am afraid he wil jugde me...whenevr we argue and he show my mistakes i become stubborn n feel like i dnt deserve him n feel like dieing....in anger i say such things to him that i regret later....i hurt him a lot....i feel like he wil leave me someday out of frustration....i want this to work...i want to change for him...plz show me some way