I think I may Have exposed myself to hiv

I think I may Have exposed myself to hiv. Everyday it feels like I have a new symptom. I'm so afraid to get tested as I think my result will be positive. I am 27 I suspect I suffer from some sort of depression. Yearly last year I convinced myself that no man would ever love me since it had been two years since I had last been in a relationship. I met up with an old friend and we agreed it would be nothing more than sex. We had protected sex. Then he went back to his gf and I was left feeling like an ass. November I met another guy and by December we started having sex. I slept with him 3 times the the time unprotected but he never ejaculated in me. End of January it was clear he didn't want a relationship and things ended. Around February I had a weird it down there. My urine didn't burn it was just itching. A friend got me vaginal cream and about four days it was gone. In may I met another guy I slept with him with condoms all the time except for one night that was around June when we had unprotected sex. It wasn't even 5min and he came in me I was so angry and we didn't even finish what we started. The following day he brought morning after pills upon my request. It was four small tablets. However since then I haven't been the same. Around August a lady in the area had passed away and there were rumours that she died of aids. I then started to Google the symptoms and ever since then I haven't stop because it seems like I have every symptom. I have pins and needles in my left arm it's been three months and it's still not gone. I been feeling nausea since the June when I took those pills and it hasn't gone away. I have convinced myself that I have swollen lymph nodes but when I ask my friend she doesn't see it. I had night sweats two times in august/September but it only happened when I slept in my bedroom. I Have had mouth ulcers recently in October which really freaked me out and that convinced me that I have the virus. My tongue also feels weird I don't know how to explain it but it just feels weird. I'm really scared and this has affected my whole being