You are in puberty. If you have pubic hair then it has started. Not everyone develops at the same rate or at the same time. Seeing the endocrinologist is the best thing you can do at this point.
If they don't find anything wrong then you are likely going to have to just accept who you are. Have you considered counseling? You may have what is called "body dysmorphic disorder." Basically, as you said you hate your body.
As for having sex, you're 15. It can wait. There is much more to a relationship than sex.
What part about boarding school don't you want them to find out about? That you're still in puberty? That your penis is only about 4" long? You'll likely find others in the same situation. If you hear any comments, ignore them. Be the better man and rise above this. It's what you make of it, not anyone else.
You'll likely outgrow all this soon enough anyways.
Good luck.
hey nomame,
let me startt by saying i compleatly feel where you are coming from. i also started puberty later. my voice didnt chance till i was almost a sophomore and i never got any incling of armpit hair until i was a junior. i felt my penis was extreamly small and that i was way behind all of my classmates. the locker rooms were always a source of insecurity and after PE class i never showered because i was afraid people would make fun of me and i felt i had the smallest penis on earth (which looking back and after doing some research i dont....lol) but needless to say at the time it felt like it. also like you i had a "partially" undecended testicle. now i never had to have surgery since as they developed they did decend. regardless of that i know the feeling when going through a situation like that and its not fun at all. now i am 23 and everything is developing just fine (i still have a bit of a baby face but people just say I'll appreciate that when im older. the fact is (as medic dan said) everyone developes at different speeds and times. while i know this doesnt make it any easier on you its a fact of life.
there have been people i have known who in 6th grade were shaving their face and had full beards as freshman in highschool. while still others have shown no outward signs of puberty as juniors. it is ackward at either end of the spectrum....
now your doctor said that your testees were developing normally. do you know how big they are (length width depth measurements in cm??) that can also tell doctors a lot on what is normal and abnormal durring development.
now as for you penis. the normal erect length for the average adult male is 5-6in. so in all honnesty your penis is getting there and you have plenty of time to grow since you are still in the very early stages of puberty.
let me finish by saying i do beleive you when you say you are concerned with your body and i am not making light of it. Also i would try to just be as paitient as possible untile you see the endochrinologist. the doctor will probably test your blood and look for any abnormal hormone levels. if he or she finds them then they may start you on some medication but untile they can get some more results to find out whats going on in your body they are going to waite. too much of a goodthing (hormones) can be VERY bad if they are not carefully regulated.
I hope this helps some and know that i am hear if you ever need to talk through feelings or issues with someone.
thanks......
Hi :) Even though I undergo an orchiopexy at the age of 12 can I still have a baby? or be fertile? Thanks
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I also had Orchiopexy at age 12, 3 times as the 1st one failed!
I am in my 40s now and have 2 children, but my puberty was very late and I was eventually given Sustanon 100 injections to kick start things. I was the smallest boy in school, smaller than all except a couple of the girls too, but eventually reached 5'8" and am fertile, so you will get there buddy