All you can do is be yourself.
If you are gay, life will difficult enough without trying to pretend to be someone you are not. Many people are not very tolerant about that, I hope your parents will not be on that side. There's certainly nothing wrong with liking a girl too, that's not against the rules. At 13 you may just be testing the waters so to speak and you may change. When I was 13 a bunch of us guys used to get together to masturbate because that was one thing we had in common and it was fun. It felt good to have someone else do it to me and I liked doing someone else. I don't know if any of them turned out to be gay, I do know I didn't.
I agree at your age "experimenting" is totally normal a LOT of guys do it. and for your parents to not want you to hang out with guys is ABSURD. I would say at this time just DON'T give your self a label. once you lable yourself as Gay and then decide your not it willbe very hard to get others to believe you. Just try to relax. hang with guys your age and enjoy being a teen.... its not an easy age but untile you get older and find out more how you feel just "take your time and ride the wave" .
I dont know if this will help much but I hope it helps some....
yo are doing these things to yourself????
why?....well i know the answer to that.... please dont think like that. Bullying and name calling can be VERY hurtful Iknow. but that doesnt mean you have to listen to them. Highschool is a rough time for a lot of kids. almost every kid has had some form of an issue in high school. but things get better afterwards. just please stop doing these things and DONT give yourself a label. kids are just being kids and doing what they do best.... being jerks and immature.
We are here to listen to you and help you so instead of cutting yourself or doin drugs or smoking which can seriously harm or kill you. you can come on here where there is no one to judge you just listen and care ok? obviously this is completely anonymous so its ok to be expressive no one will bully you.