-Max
Hello. I have never done one of these post things but i have been reading all of these and it is helpful so i figured i would write one as well. I am getting off oxy right now, i have been on it for about 6 and a half months. My ex boyfriend got me hooked on them and i really did not realize what they were doing to my body. This is the first drug i have ever gotten physically addicted to and its scary. I started to notice about 3 weeks ago when i didnt have a pill not only did i get anxious but i got back akes cold sweats loose stool, so on you all know the feeling. I noticed i started careing more and more about the pill, so much that i would argue with my boyfriend about whoes line was bigger or who got to break up the pill (we snorted the pills). When we couldnt find oxy we snorted heroin or morphine, but thoes began to not satisfy me. I have spent about $2,000 on these f*****g pills. About half of that was money i had gotten from my high school graduation and the other half i had earned from my job. The people i began to associate with were not like people i had ever talked to before. Eventually when the money ran out and we could not get any more pills my boyfriend resulted in violently robbing an old women for 120 30's. These are acts that i have never seen my self being a part of. This is not the person i am. I realized that these pills were changing me. That still is not the reason i am getting off though. Because i am in my freshmen year of college my parents are financially supporting me right now and they found out about the robbery and that i had been doing the pills. They already did not like my boyfriend and knew he had had oxy addiction in the past. My parents thretned everything i have, my car, my house, paying for my education, car insurance, phone everything. THey said if i did not get off theses pills now and leave my boyfriend and never talk to him again i was getting cut off. I would be living on the streets if it were not for my parents. So anyway now i have to move back into my parents, temporarily not have my car, or phone and take a drug test every 3 days. I have to do an out patinet rehab to, im not really sure that is neccessary but i really dont have a choice unless i want to be homeless. IT sucks pretty bad but i know if this would have not happened i would have gotten worse and worse on the pills, so im hopeing in the near future i will begin to train my brain to view this as a blesssing. I know i sound like a bad person leaving my boyfriend but he really was a manipulatve ass hole. anyway my worst symptons are loose stool restless legs back akes and most of all my brain. I have always had a bit of a addictive personality with alcohol and marijuana but this is far worse than either of these. Anyway i just did my last little bit, i have had 1 30 for the past couple of days and just been doing 1 or 2 little lines a day but im still experiencing the withdrawl. I am going to go to the store and get some of the cold med's. I hope it works. Good luck to everyone else who is going through this, i am so glad i have not been on oxy for years i cant imagine what that would be like.
oc is terrible
thank God for the internet to be able to read and learn what other people are going through with this Evil Drug..I started to take them for kicks with an old girlfriend back in 99' who had a perscription for percs and man these things were fantastic..I managed to take 3/day for about 4 years and was a superstar at work,,,noone could ever outwork this guy, doing tree work..then in 07' I broke my neck, and of course the good ol doctor was more than happy to give me as many percs and oxys as i felt i needed..then before long I was getting scripts for 180 percs/month and 2x40mg oxys/day until in 2010 the wall came crashing down when the doctor cut All his patients off this stuff. that was it, no more, until he put me on Tridural at $100/month, but ah hah, I knew someone not far from me who had severe back problems and will never work again, with lots to go around, and for the past 2+ years I've been spending $500-$700/month on mostly 40Mg oxys and 100 percs/month....wellthe percs are like candy...that 100 will last me about a week, and then the past few weeks, I'm been so anxious because my dealer told me that their doctor told them this epidemic is so bad that the medical association knows they are being sold illegally and they are going to end this persons supply shortly...and ya know what that means...my well will be drying up too...just with that on my mind has had me so anxious, I can't sleep, cant focus on nothing but this lousy drug...I've been to the point a few times thispast while of ending my life, thats how Evil this sh*t is and how it effects our minds....I made my mind up Finally yesterday that I needed to go see my family doctor and be honest with him and tell him exactly whats going on, which i did today...I asked him for some form of antidepressant which he gave me Cipralex, and tomorrow morning I'm goingto start taking them, because aslong as I've been on this opiate, it's gonna be hell...I've been taking usually about 2-3 40's/day for the past 2 years and my body will wake me up throughout the night with muscle spasisms telling me i need to go take half an oxy to get me back to sleep...its so much in our head, and without it suicide is very real....Just reading everyones testimonials on here is good, and I know it's not going to be easy, but when i think that the drug that used to give me motivation and made me the life of the party, has me so down and depressed that I've simply shut myself out to most of the world, and what a horrible way to live...there's so much life has to offer and here I am depedant on this garbage, its time to put and end to it once and for all... to think I've lost my drive for everything I love to do, is aweful and I pray to the Good Lord above that I get through this with the anit-d and the other remedies shared here, and sheer will power, I know my life and bank account will be much better for it..
I don't know how far you have gotten in the past 3 months. I hope you have gotten to the point you want to be at, but if you haven't ask your doctor to prescribe you clonodine. It is a blood pressure medication that works on your adrenal glands. It helps take away the sweats and the muscle spasms.. It obviously doesn't take away the withdrawal symptoms completely but it at least makes them bearable.. It was the only thing that got me through my withdrawals.. Hope this helps you.. It's a tough road, but no matter how much you want to end the pain and just take some to stop the withdrawals DON'T... The last day for me was the worst.. I thought I was going to go crazy, I was starting to think it would never end.. I got up in the middle of the night one night and passed out in my hallway and split my head open. I was so sick I didn't even care, I went to sleep with my head bleeding and I had dried blood in my hair for 2 days before I had enough energy to even get in the shower to wash my hair.. Then one day I woke up and felt amazing, it was like the clouds had lifted and I was waking up for the first time.. I cried almost all day because I felt completely free.. I was driving down the street with my car radio blasting, windows down and singing the whole time.. It's a great feeling when you finally beat it.. Just keep thinking about the grand finally and you can do it..
Was using for about 6-7 months. The last 3 months I was at max taking 90 mg oxy. It all started with vik for a foot problem then went to norco and percocet then I found a supply of the blue roxy.
One day I thought I'm going to stop and didn't know what I was in for. it was about a month before all was well. I went to an addiction dr who gave me comfort meds. Clonidine/ Valium/ robaxin/ zofran. I turned down the sub method. So after being 6 months clean I decided to start taking them again. Only every 3 rd day though. Funny thing is my tolerance didn't go down. I may experience some very mild withdrawl symptoms from time to time but when I think that I am I extend the period before using a week.
It is a dangerous road.