Im in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend and the first week away i almost cheated on him (im prone to blacking out more often than i would like to admit- it doesnt have to do with how much im drinking compared to other days just sometimes that happens to me. I didnt know about that though until two days later when my friend told me. I had forgotten from a certain point in the night and the next thing i remember i was in my bed in the morning. However a month later i didnt really drink because the thought of that ever happening again freaked me out so much. But last week i went out and did get quite drunk but i remember everything from getting to the club to getting home and can even recall details etc. A guy friend of mine was there and for some reason, now a week later, because of the mention of his name i have this unsetting sense of paranoia that i was maybe flirting with him or even kissed him and just dont remember because thats happened to me before. Am i being paranoid? Please help