i'm scared that my depersonalization wont go away

I'm 12 and I've had depersonalization for as long as I can remember. Life has been tough with it. It normally happens when I'm playing hockey or netball. But when that happens, it goes away quickly. Today was a terrible day for me. I was tired and I fell asleep at about noon. I hate falling asleep during the day. I feel very lost. When I woke up it was around three. I had a head ache. I then went into a dream like stae where everything seemed unreal. I watched this movie and it got me even nomes confused. Not like your bonemeal puzzled but more like paranoid. When the movie finished I started going up stairs to my bedroom. I crawled up the stairs. I lied down on the floor of my bedroom for half an hour. I felt so relaxed. For the rest of the day I was completely confused and paranoid. Lately this has happened a lot. Not to such an extreme though. Since I've lived with depersonalization for a long time, I know how to handle it, but what I Thad today was pretty scary. I really dread tomorrow. i really can't wait till I have school. I heed something to distract me from it. But I still have 3 more days of the easter holidays.

Guys n gals I've seen posts on here saying you need to see a shrink, you don't NEED to, only do it if you feel it will help you.I've had dp on and off for over 20 years (I'm 41) and its only been this year that I've realised exactly what it is.

I promise you it will go away just give it the space it needs to do its own thing.Love it and embrace it because its protecting you, it's your minds self protect / safe mode, it's simply your mind saying "ok I've had enough of this and it's time to shut the pain out "The fact that you feel different is a signal that you are aware there is a problem and you need to kick back and give yourself time to recover, whether that be from physical, emotional or drug induced stress.

I've had dp from all three and each time it's gone on its own without any professional help.I know life feels hollow and empty when you have it but you need to live your life exactly as you would do normally.You'll find yourself being a actor for a while laughing when you know you should but not actually feeling like you want to, you should do this for all emotions including those that upset you.Eventually you'll start to notice that your no longer acting and you really are laughing and crying and most importantly your feeling it.

I understand how hard it can be but you need to carry on as normal, locking yourself away is not the answer because you are feeding the dp and keeping your true self locked away at the same time.

What you resist persists.... don't fight it, let the dp do its thing, don't judge it, just acknowledge its presence and carry on and live your life.Be kind to yourself, get plenty of rest, eat plenty of good food, if needed grab a good multivitamin and b vitamin complex to help your body recover because the more you stress about the dp the more you'll be depleting your body's vitamin stores.

Get out in the open and breath the fresh air and remember you was normal before the dp and you WILL be normal afterwards, just give it time, it's taken me a year to get to roughly 80% normal thinking and emotions but I hit absolute rock bottom and I'm much older than most on this thread so you'll recover quicker.

how can i contect you?

please me, all these stories are mine to the T

don't worry I am going through the exact same thing it runins your life. and I really need help with it and don't know where to go

ive had it for 6-7 months now, but it goes away, and you also get used to it, its a phase of anxiety that is not helping with me, but for you it should be gone!

I am 13 years old and i smoked pot maybe 5 times in my life maybe not even that one time just me and a friend had some weed it was called trainwreck a very high strain of cannabis and we smoked about 7 bong hits each i held all my hits in so i could really feel it when the high hits me and as normal we eventually were high and having. a good time laughing our heads off then he played some music and next thing i know i went to the couch to lay down then passed out i didn't fall asleep i just passed out i blacked out way to quickly to just have fallen asleep the i woke up and it felt like my insides were churning into butter or something i couldn't really walk or stand up and it felt as if i was being pushed down to the ground by some type of force and i felt like death was trying to come and claim my soul back and i was really shake as if i was freezing cold and my heart was pumping a million miles a minute so my friend told me to sleep it off and i did and the attack was gone by tomarrow but the next day i thought i was still high. for the next couple of days then i stumbled across the term depersonalization and i did some research on it and it described all the feelings which i had.......so now I'm trying to find ways to cope with it I've felt like this for about 3 weeks now then again i smoked again but this time i only had one hit out of a chillum. and i held it in to at least get high and about 5 mins later i was high but i hated this high this time though and i felt even more depersonalized than i was before after i was done high but i had to make myself throw up to get the high to leave because i started to panick during the high so eventually i came down and now 24/7 i just feel like I'm in dreamland nothing feels real anymore and i just don't know what to do about it

hello there I have suffered with depersonalisation for 11 years im now 30. when I first got it (too much weed) i didn't know what was happening to me and just wanted it to go away. the more I thought about it the stronger it became. so I learned to except it as the new part of me and the way reality was meant to feel. EXCERCISE is the key I think, give yourself something to focus on, keep busy, socialise even if you don't feel you can and most important except how you feel as reality. trust me the more comfortable you are with yourself it will disappear. its anxiety related and insecurity. don't dwell on it and try new experiences. it was only three years ago I realised I wasn't the only one and it has a name. watch the film NUMB it will help relate to what you are experiencing.

Thats definitely not dp. Sounds like psychotic behavior. DP doesn't do that to people.

Hi.. uhm so I'm 19 years old now and I have had this symptom 24/7 since I was about 17 i think? I can't deal with this anymore.....I know what caused it...and ever since that night I haven't felt right....I hate this so much....these panic attacks aren't helping either.  Like my best friend is home from Texas right now and I wanna enjoy my time with him but I just don't feel real.  I wanna be me again..I'm on bupropian but it really doesn't seem to do much....my family doctor is at a loss at what to do with me...I need therepy i guess but I just feel like it's not going to help because I had therepy before... this is affecting my life horribly and I just want my life back...please help me ....It's so bad I literally can't tell whats real and whats a dream...I don't know what the hell to do anymore..

my youngest son has it please help.

I'm 14 and have the same problem. I've been abused sexually, physically, I use to have a drug problem, I got bullied, and I got my heart broke really bad and after that I gave up. I stopped caring if I lived or died. I have depersonalization and I think it's putting my life at risk because I constantly wonder if life is worth it. I need help. Someone. Please... I wanna feel happy and alive without having to hurt myself. Advice please? I'm not looking for attention or rude comments... help. :'(

Hello my names michelle and ive been on zoloft for two years, quit it for two months to try celexa and effexor both that were no good so im back on zoloft 75 mg. I have.horrible depersonlized feelings that i dont remember feeling when i was on zoloft before. When will this go away

I'm also 15 and have been dealing with this for about two months. I have tried to stay away from the drugs and chemicals, because I know just how horrible they can be. I have done a great deal of research and this is really the only thing I have read that has given me any positive out look about this. I also struggle with some health anxiety I think any minor thing is a huge problem. So as you can imagine this almost out of body unreal feeling has been eating away at me. I have days that are better than others but lately I have just been feeling dull. Some what emotionless and hugging my parents or friends really makes me feel no emotion. It's very unsettling and discomforting I feel like I'm all on my own. But, I will try the exercise and better diet. I just can't really take my mind off of it. Any tips? Thanks.(((:

Hey there your post really appealed to me. Looks like we are both in the same boat. I have experienced this on and off for years now. It first started when I was 16 i take sertraline for panic attacks and the dr stopped my medication abruptly and because of that I ended up with all different weird symptoms and sensations. To the point I couldn't be around anyone couldn't leave my room or barely move out of bed it was that bad my mum was having to leave trays of food by the door and emptying a bucket ! I finally got put back on my medication and it sorted its self out in time and It took ages ! I still had bouts of depersonalisation and derealisation I used to get it when I had a panic attack or when I was over tired. In may of last year I fell pregnant and my anxiety was sky high and I was so stressed ! I lost my baby and had to give birth to her in September and since then I haven't left the house I've barely left my bedroom I haven't seen anyone and the only person I have seen is my mum and that's been for very short amounts of time. It's the worst feeling ever I dint reding use myself or others and the thought of the outside world petrifies me,I look at pictures of places I've been and I can't seem to remember them and to me they don't look how I remembered them too. To look out the window scares me and to think I will have to try and come to terms with this is even scarier. I'm here if you want to talk trust me I know exactly how you feel x