Hello,
I'm an 13 yr old girl. At elementary school, I was kind of a misfit though I didn't realize it. When we went on camp, everyone was crying because they were going to miss each other so much, when I was crying about feeling so lonely for 3 days. I didn't realize I wasn't welcome in every group in our school, so I was kinda childish and nowhere accepted. I needed 2.5 years to realize.
When I went to secondary school, at the second half of the year I made a huge jump from the child I was to mentally being too far. I am now in the next year, no problems with marks and stuff, having 2 good friends, and having a good situation at home. After my first menstruation, I started feeling different.
I have one friend who's a real girly girl, while I am slightly a tomboy. I am so annoyed by her behaviour, as she isn't allowed to be brutal at home, she is at school. She also tends too always go a bit too far. My other friend is better though, she has some kind of soothing, absorbing thing about her.
When I am with them, I feel good, but when I'm alone, I just jump into another me. Everything feels pointless and dumb to do, I just don't care about stuff then so I sometimes have trouble making homework. I also feel different, not lonely, but something related What is this, does anyone else have this?
I'm an 13 yr old girl. At elementary school, I was kind of a misfit though I didn't realize it. When we went on camp, everyone was crying because they were going to miss each other so much, when I was crying about feeling so lonely for 3 days. I didn't realize I wasn't welcome in every group in our school, so I was kinda childish and nowhere accepted. I needed 2.5 years to realize.
When I went to secondary school, at the second half of the year I made a huge jump from the child I was to mentally being too far. I am now in the next year, no problems with marks and stuff, having 2 good friends, and having a good situation at home. After my first menstruation, I started feeling different.
I have one friend who's a real girly girl, while I am slightly a tomboy. I am so annoyed by her behaviour, as she isn't allowed to be brutal at home, she is at school. She also tends too always go a bit too far. My other friend is better though, she has some kind of soothing, absorbing thing about her.
When I am with them, I feel good, but when I'm alone, I just jump into another me. Everything feels pointless and dumb to do, I just don't care about stuff then so I sometimes have trouble making homework. I also feel different, not lonely, but something related What is this, does anyone else have this?
Sorry, some verifications: it doesn't always happen. i.e. when I have an incredibly happy day, it doesn't happen, but when it isn't one of those days, I feel almost everytime like it. And sorry if my grammar is wrong, make the best out of it