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Hey When i was 12 i met this guy in 7th grade.We did it. My parents found out ;grounded me i couldn't talk to him for 6months.then i ended up not talking to him for 3 yrs.Well my parents couldn't stop me from having sex.I'd masterbated everyday or when i was by myself alone in my bedroom.I've dated some guys and had no intercourse and i've dated ones with a real relationship that lasted up to 6months and we had great sex,..I've fallen in love 4 different times.I've also dated this guy who used me,raped me and held a gun to muh head when i was 16-i never told anyone-. The last time i remember ever getting really wet and all that white stuff coming out was probably in 2004.I've masterbated so much that- I'm dating this guy now and i'm more able to understand sex,and guys..but theres a BIG PROBLEM.
He doesn't understand why i never get off. wheater he is giving me oral sex,fingering me,or having sex. I get this clearish creamy stuff...and its very {emberessing} :$ %-) like it doesn't come streming out. I think its because i've masterbated so much,and the way i do it. i don't move the [hood of my clit] out of the way.. i keep the hood on there and i move it around with my left pointy finger,then with my right hand i push down on my [bladder] above my pubic bone..it just satisfies me. But then if i'm not careful i get bladder infections.
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I also like Hard penatrating Sex- is that bad for me and my bladder?
I know that sounds sick and you think of the porno stuff. but it just feels so good.
Sometimes i also think of being tied down to a bed..I think because i've been used so much..thinking i was the one that guy told me he wanted to be with..i was so nieve. I think because i've been hurt for 7 yrs by just thinking"oh he is not that bad of a guy" in reality all he wanted was a tight lil thing.
While masterbating i think about getting raped,and just being naughty...is this bad..i wish i knew how i could change that.I'm just too much of a nice girl i guess and this is a big Secret ...i have been holding back from a few..and i am needing big help and someone to talk to..Please someone help me and understand..
Hey When i was 12 i met this guy in 7th grade.We did it. My parents found out ;grounded me i couldn't talk to him for 6months.then i ended up not talking to him for 3 yrs.Well my parents couldn't stop me from having sex.I'd masterbated everyday or when i was by myself alone in my bedroom.I've dated some guys and had no intercourse and i've dated ones with a real relationship that lasted up to 6months and we had great sex,..I've fallen in love 4 different times.I've also dated this guy who used me,raped me and held a gun to muh head when i was 16-i never told anyone-. The last time i remember ever getting really wet and all that white stuff coming out was probably in 2004.I've masterbated so much that- I'm dating this guy now and i'm more able to understand sex,and guys..but theres a BIG PROBLEM.
He doesn't understand why i never get off. wheater he is giving me oral sex,fingering me,or having sex. I get this clearish creamy stuff...and its very {emberessing} :$ %-) like it doesn't come streming out. I think its because i've masterbated so much,and the way i do it. i don't move the [hood of my clit] out of the way.. i keep the hood on there and i move it around with my left pointy finger,then with my right hand i push down on my [bladder] above my pubic bone..it just satisfies me. But then if i'm not careful i get bladder infections.
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I also like Hard penatrating Sex- is that bad for me and my bladder?
I know that sounds sick and you think of the porno stuff. but it just feels so good.
Sometimes i also think of being tied down to a bed..I think because i've been used so much..thinking i was the one that guy told me he wanted to be with..i was so nieve. I think because i've been hurt for 7 yrs by just thinking"oh he is not that bad of a guy" in reality all he wanted was a tight lil thing.
While masterbating i think about getting raped,and just being naughty...is this bad..i wish i knew how i could change that.I'm just too much of a nice girl i guess and this is a big Secret ...i have been holding back from a few..and i am needing big help and someone to talk to..Please someone help me and understand..
Hello, I'm not one for writing long msgs. But really everything you have written in your post sounds pretty normal. I have been with quite a few girls and my last gf was a lot like you. I think a lot of people have similar fantasies that you do. I'm no expert though. I'm a 24yo English Australian boy. The only thing i'd worry about is the gun thing, that doesn't sound good. But as i said my ex had similar fantasies to you and that never happened to her.
Cheers Tom
Cheers Tom
Sounds like you are female ejaculating , have an orgasm while g spotting and pressing on your bladder . mmmmm! ***
You sound a lot like me.... did I type this? lol
I'm a 30 year old female and had sex for the first time at age 11, then the next time I was 22. I mastrabate daily at least and prefer rape fantasies, although I've never been raped. They say a woman's rape fantasies are based on their need to relinquish control to some other force. Whatever, its fun and doesn't hurt anyone. Don't change what works. There is nothing wrong with fantasies or mastrabation.
I don't have any cream colored ejaculate, mine is clear. Your body will naturally lubricate itself during arousal, I'm not sure if the cream color could be a sign of an infection though. Yeast is cream colored and you may simply have too much yeast. That isn't an STD, could be caused by wearing tight fitting clothes and not allowing some airing out of the nether regions. Something to mention to your doctor on your next visit.
I'm a 30 year old female and had sex for the first time at age 11, then the next time I was 22. I mastrabate daily at least and prefer rape fantasies, although I've never been raped. They say a woman's rape fantasies are based on their need to relinquish control to some other force. Whatever, its fun and doesn't hurt anyone. Don't change what works. There is nothing wrong with fantasies or mastrabation.
I don't have any cream colored ejaculate, mine is clear. Your body will naturally lubricate itself during arousal, I'm not sure if the cream color could be a sign of an infection though. Yeast is cream colored and you may simply have too much yeast. That isn't an STD, could be caused by wearing tight fitting clothes and not allowing some airing out of the nether regions. Something to mention to your doctor on your next visit.
Honey,
I'm sorry to hear of your rape experience.
As for how you are coping with it, and if you are normal, I wouldn't hazard a guess.
I do think that you should speak frankly with a counselor of your choice, and share your feelings, experiences and practices.
You may find that you are coping just fine, or, that you are acting out a scene based upon your past experiences.
You do sound like you know your body, and how it responds. Fantasy during sex or masturbation is not harmful nor bad, but the aftermath of the rape concerns me. Do speak with someone, even if this is in your past now.
Good luck.
anything you could pm me , we can chat beside this :D like a regular friends :)