im not 18. my parents hate me. my grades are dropping. the only way i will make it in the future is with those grades. i need help to get my motivation back. i cant stay here with my parents. i swear i feel like killing myself. there are so much things i wanna experience, but im literally considering taking pills and just disappear. what am i gonna do?
Hi honey! 1st of all I'm sending you a HUGE cyber hug - I wish computers could allow us to do that! What you are feeling I can say with all honesty that virtually every teenager out there has felt or is feeling the same way. IF you talk to most adults, there aren't many of us that want to be a teenager again! When you are 16/17 your brain is still growing, you are wired to fight against your parents, teachers etc. You forget things you once knew etc. it is a HARD time for teens! Also you know that the clock is ticking for you to start on your future! So all of a sudden after 10/11 years of school you NOW take it and need it to be serious! So this is a HUGE amount of stress, not to mention family, friends, work etc. It's a LOT for adults, never mind teenagers and children! You are NOT alone honey! You have made the 1st step - recognizing your having troubles. It sounds like you are overwhelmed and for right now CAN'T concentrate - which adds more stress! Viscious cycle isn't it? BUT that cycle CAN be redirected, it takes different thoughts and actions! What I would suggest is for you to write down your concerns, in a list form! Next to each concern or upset - write next to it how you think you should handle it! Also put on the concerns the level of stress! So say you have 10 problems, mark them from 1 to 10 1 - being the most troubling, and then what could be done to fix each! THEN see if it's doable - There are organizations virtually in every area of the world that can help you! Counsellors at school, clergy, friends, friends parents, family, even the kids help lines that are scattered around! I also would be more than happy to try and help you navigate the trying times of being a teenager! It is a hard time honey - it's NOT all doom and gloom though, so try and also focus on the good parts of this time period! Friends, activities, boyfriends/girlfriends, crushes, trips etc. When we allow ourselves to focus too much on the negatives, we tend to not be able to see the trees for the forest - which means its too overwhelming for our brains to concentrate on the good things! So 1st things first! Don't be so hard on yourself - know your not the only one! 2nd write down - in order the good and bad of this time 3, what you can do about it, and what would be the plan! 4. keep talking to others - as I said honey I'm more than willing to help you to the best of my abilities! I too was once in your shoes, I'm now 48! I didn't think there was an end BUT i was wrong, there was, and I moved on from it! And You CAN too - OK? Hugs honey!