IDK what i'm doing here. i saw people writing, so i thought i might as well.
Ok. The thing is, i've been retreating for a few months now and something has gone terribly wrong. i don't know what it is or how it happened, but i know that something is wrong with me. everyday i lock myself in my room and start talking to the sky and the stars through the window. it felt pretty good at the beginning since it was like having "someone" that listened to me. but somehow it has had a negative affect on me. I didn't realize it until I actually returned to school after the summer. my friends told me I didn't talk much and i used to talk lots. i felt out of touch with other people and started getting careless, nothing seemed to bother me. the feeling is weird and so hard to describe, but I felt as if the sky and the stars are the only ones that understand me and knows how it is, since they've always been around throughout my childhood and all. lately i've realized that this is completely abnormal and i think i'm going mental. i just don't know what to do any longer. i started this when i was 11 and it was OK at that time, now people just think i'm sorta a quiet, non-emotional freak. but what do i do when i actually don't care any longer and just wanna quit everything? i know life isn't always gonna be fair, but if i walk around feeling like i don't know what to do when i'm supposed to be at school or hanging out with friends, than i know for sure i screwed up. i've just lost my way even though i can see the path in front of me. help me please, why am i feeling this way??
Hey there, it sounds like you may have something deep down inside going on i would suggest talking to your family doctor about it and let him/her know how you are feeling you could be going through some sort of depression it sounds like. Please don't leave this depression can play a big part in your life and can send your emotions all over the place and can be very confusing, it's actually a good thing that you found this website because what i have learned since finding this website is i am not alone in what i am going through and there are many people on here to offer some excellent advice and they know exactly what your going through as they are going through the same thing. Take a read on some subjects on here you will see how much reading other peoples success stories can help.
I hope this helps and please talk to your doctor.
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