Hi! So I'm 14 years old and have been masturbating for about a month or so. I usually rub my clit and whe I get really wet I finger myself. When I'm really in the mood I use a couple sharpies. I don't really feel any pleasure tho. I'll watch porn to get myself turned on but it doesn't really work.... When I finger myself or use a sharpie or something, my "juices flow" but I don't feel anything. I've tried the faucet thing but I don't understand it! Please help! I just want to feel pleasure!
I think the reason you aren't really fealing pleasure from the sharpies is because they are too smooth. I used markers as well and the only good feeling I got at your age was the feeling of having something there, like fullness. It takes time for your body to mature to the point of feeling good sensations in the vagina. I was 16, nearly 17 when I started having sex with my long term first boyfriend. But I didn't go about it the right way, I didn't use protection at all. Please, when you start having sex use a condom every time.
I don't remember when I got my first dildo I'm guessing I was 18 since generally you have to be 18 to buy one in a sex shop. I went to Waterbeds & Stuff and got one but I'm wondering if I was 16 or 17. But anyway, those are really better than sharpies/markers. Personally I can't orgasm with a dildo alone. I have to have clitoral stimulation as well as a dildo or just clitoral stimulation. If you have a prepaid visa card you could probably order one online but then you have to worry about your parents opening the box before you get home and finding it. LOL But if you do get the box and your parents know that you got a delivery then they will ask you what you got and you may have to figure out a lie that is plausible. I know that Eden Fantasys website ships with a discreet box or package label so nobody knows what's in it. I just ordered something not long ago and the label said it was from "Web Merchants." Really I don't know what to tell you other than maybe go to the grocery store every so often and buy a small cucumber or zucchini, but please put a condom on it because of pesticides and all that c**p on our produce. Banana's don't work well since your body heat warms them up and then they get all mushy and gross.
If your parents are not super conservative about sexual things then you may ask your mom if she might be able to buy you a dildo or vibrator. I never asked my mom since she is very conservative about such things and I know she would have a cow about it and obviously say NO. I'm 29 years old now and masturbate regularly.
I know many women say that the faucet in the tub is a great way to get off but I've never tried it and when I've used my handheld shower head it just isn't strong enough for my liking. It feels good sure but it's not enough stimulation for me to orgasm.
You could google something like "ways to masturbate without a dildo" or something and see what you can find. I'm sure there are tons of ways that I haven't thought about. Really any penis-shaped kind of object could work though if it's got rough edges it would NOT be good to use it. You don't want to hurt yourself and then get an infection, etc.
I know it's difficult for girls to admit to masturbating and I applaud you for being open about it. I hate it that many women feel it's something to be ashamed of so they don't admit to doing it and don't find ways to help learn their bodies. I feel masturbation is totally healthy and normal and should be done but only if you are not becoming addicted to it. I know in my teen years I was kind of addicted to it. But I had tons of hormones thanks to puberty and eventually it evened out as I grew older and hit my 20's. I'm turning 30 next year and I hate the fact that I am getting older. But anyway, yeah, I'd google it and see what you can find. Hopefully your parents don't have spyware on your computer to know all that you type or do online, or check your browser history. My parents always checked the browser history daily back when we got the internet (yes we didn't always have the internet LOL we got it in 1997 I think - dialup. eww)
I hope I've helped you somewhat. Oh and try to find objects around the house that are smooth on the end like screwdrivers but the ones that are ribbed (most are) kind of hurt. But personally I just enjoy the feeling of fullness when I am pleasuring my clit so I don't move it in and out of my vagina. It just sits there while I enjoy it.
Good luck!