a while ago i met the most amazing girl in the world. We got talking and we went out for a while we had our problems and we split up for a bit. My nan always told me that you only have half a heart and out there somewhere someone else has the other half you just have to find it. We both felt that way about each other and loved each other so much. Before I met her my life was boring she made it so much better gave me so much confidence to do things i would have never done if it wasnt for her. She really did change my life
About 3 months ago she comminted suicide because of problems she was having. Since then nothing ever seems to have a point it feels like im drowning and there is no one there to save me. I took so much time off college however i passed the course i was on. Everything I do/Think of reminds me of her in some way. My mom knew about her dying however she seems to just forget it like it never happened she didnt really like us going out in the first place. I cant tell her how i feel because she wont understand she will just tell me im crazy and send me to a doctor and i dont want that.
Everyday i feel i just want to be with her and right now dying has more attraction to it than living. Ive tried carrying on with my life and i know she would want me to be happy however i cant be happy without her.
Please help me