looking for support to Beat drug addiction

Hello ever one i would like to share my story...it was a dream to a pro wrestler wakeing up on Saturday morning with ICCW...So at the age of 23 i started my training..in 6 mon i had my first mach it went ok..but as 4 and 1/2 years went by i was getting call's to come and do show in many state..by the time i was 34 i was hurt verry bad..but i keep going for 2 more years... i was 36 went to the Dr for neck pain so she sent me to have a MRI it come back 3 disk gone 4 disk separated... degenerative disc disease..i was hurting so bad.. then she sent me to pain management they started me out on 7.5... 4 times a day.. then 1 and 1/2 year's later they stop working so they moved me to 10mg hydr's 4 times a day.. then the same thang.. they stop working so i started takeing more..so it was allmost time to go see the pain management Dr he would have moved me up i just did not want to do it so i called a friend who is a Substance Abuse Counselor asking for help.. so they put me in a rehab and all my insurance would pay for was 5 days..so when the  withdrawal symptoms come they gave me 4 mg of sub in about 20 min they where gone..so i have been on them for 4 month so i have been slow tapering ever  5 to 6 days so far it is working iam down to 2 and 1/2 mg a day take it only in the moring..i have seen post that people have be on sub for 3 and some 5 years i think it's to long or for me it is..i have to pay for my Dr vist and for my sub..so iam here looking for Support if you can't  give me a kind word plz don't post ...ps i still filling like iam wrestling in the Ring it's the  biggest match of my life i just have a filling i will win...God Bless