Lost virginity at young age. I feel like poop.

rubioooo13 over a year ago

So I'm 15 years old and I recently lost my virignity to someone 5 years older. It was perfect but it wasn't with the right person and I especially didn't want to lose it this young. Another important part of this story, my friend and him used to talk, that's how we met. Yes he's attractive but I wanted him as my friend. But anyways the story begins when I told my mom I was going to my friends, got dropped off there, then he picked me up and took me to his place. My intention was just to smoke and hangout with everyone but it landed up being just us. We watched a movie and he started to cuddle me. I felt really awkward at this point but I enjoyed it too because he's hot. Then he kissed me, we started to make out. He started to rub me and I said no. Then he did it again and kissed my neck....then I just lost it so easily. I shouldn't have even kissed him and losing it to someone my friend used to like, is not something I'm proud of. I didn't tell her for awhile cause it was illegal and I didn't want to get anyone in trouble but I told her. She told me she was hurt but angry at him and that she forgave me but I'm feeling really low. I complain about not having friends and I do something as screwed up as this. I really have no idea what to do. There's nothing I can do at this point, it happened. I just don't want to be that type of person. I feel horrible and I'm starting to get really depressed again.

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freshman noise over a year ago

Hi, please don't feel bad about what happened as it wasn't your fault.
That guy took advantage of you when you told him on the first time by kissing you again where if knew it would turn you on and you would respond to it.
You have done exactly the same as most people do made a mistake and learnt the hard way, you have done the right thing by telling your friend about it and she hasn't blamed you for what happened so that's good.
All you can do is learn by your mistakes and put it behind you and move on and don't dwell over it as its happened and there's nothing you can do to change it now, at least you have realised you made a mistake and admitted it to your self.
I hope you feel better about it soon and please don't let it get you down, if you want someone to talk to there are a couple of us here that will always help you if you just want to talk and get things out your system :-)

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finest variation over a year ago

Look never regret an experience. Regret is a useless emotion and only drags you down. Experiences always teach us something and you need to feel happy you've had this experience.

There is nothing bad about sex and unfortunately, especially with us girls, because the way our minds are primed by society/ our parents and the law, we tend to develop this sense of guilt, remorse and uselessness with a huge amount of regret. I guess you lost your virginity to him. That's great. Don't let that make you feel low and useless. Why should it make you feel that way if you liked it, enjoyed it and agreed to do it? Girls have awful experiences with their first time. You on the other hand had a good experience with someone you liked and had a crush on. Yes, he was older. So what? you were 15!! NOT prepubescent!! Don't fret or regret this event. You will NEVER know who the right one is and you can keep waiting for the right one to come along and may never find the one you think is the right one.

Look at it this way. You succumbed sexually because you enjoyed what he did to you and you liked the guy because in your words you claim he was very attractive. Things happen in life and others will get upset. You cant avoid that, you cant please everyone. What happened to you wasn't something disastrous. It was more than a pleasant experience, from what I am reading. Rejoice, feel happy and next time do what you've learned from this experience. This experience taught you many things. So be grateful and move on. Stop dwelling on what happened. You cannot undo what happened. Just accept it, learn from it and move on.

I was 13ish when I lost my virginity to someone a lot lot older than me. I don't regret it one bit. It made me grow up fast and I learned a lot, while my friends are still regretting their first time experience with someone the same age as them. I was very lucky I had someone much older who gave me the best first time sexual experience.

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