Yes I know theres one hundred and one others out there but I needed to post my own topic, my story from begining to present (PLEASE READ) I need it Im 19 years old first and fore most here it goes I was curious to know what marijuana was when I was about say 13 or 14 (8th grade) and decided to experiment tried it, immedietly after I tried this I felt amazing, smoked weed for the whole summer until highschool. In highschool though you would think I would have kept smoking I hung out with another crowd, and picked up a blunt, piece, etc 5 times at the least at the very most 10 times (during highschool) after I graduated I picked it back up again heavily (possibly due to get away from break up issues) but yeah heavily smoking everyday getting high blazing my mind away, even my friends from highschool (the good crowd got into it) either way so yeah I did it for days on end until I got caught with the rents soooo I stoped for about 7 months, no negative side effects (thank god) BUT I picked it up for about the last 6 months on and off you can say but since my birthday july 6 o man first panic attack every from weed, tripping balls I took at least 5 HUGE bong rips a bunch of peice rips the works, and it hit me, I felt like I was spinning everything felt 2 demensional, I felt paniced, scared, alone, everyone was laughing because I was "tripping out" besides the point from then on I still continued to smoke pot but its never been the same everytime I smoke I get that, ive decided to smoke completly (if my will power can do it) its been about 2 weeks but I suffer from anxiety, panic attacks every once in a while, depersonalization, dereliazation, I want my life to go back to its normal self. If your still reading this which I pray to the lord you are because I do need help/hope I tried salvia (halucagin) once before the first panic attack, but ive been feeling different ever since because I seriously went into another deminsion my body was being cut into peices but when I snaped out of the trip my friends said I looked like I was dieing (seriously it felt like it) from then on after the trip (still smoking) is when my perspective of life changed to a certain degree questioning alot. like a dumbass I took philosophy twice bad bad idea it just gave me more questions to deal with. Either way im here now im christian but not too hardcore all my friends are pot heads (no joke all of them) even my sisters my parents are totally against it but they know of my problem (panic attack) and I let them know because I seriously want to come down from this dream like sensation (depersonalization/derelization/panic attack/anxiety) I think god was testing me the first time I quit because I never really had it this bad, and I kept testing him back pushing the button well now he has put his foot down and mentally blocked me from marijuana and from what it seems the rest of my life. I want to go back to a normal mind state, ive been clean for 2 weeks the doctor perscriped some pills that I looked up online after he gave to me and realized they can cause even more so f**k that I dont need to be some medication because im not crazy as I can tell everyone else on this form has this as well, so it is not uncommon. Im trying my hardest fighting my own mind everyday (everymorning I feel as if a demond is haunting me throughout the day) But yeah one thing the doctor did say (before I started heavily lookin up more symptoms of anxiety like depersonalization) was exercize for the past week Ive been in 24 hour fitness everyday 4 hours playing basketball (helps get my mind off things VERY SHORTLY THO) swiming, and working out. Hopefully and I pray to the lord it is only the marijuana withdrawal and in a month ill be fine. More tid bits to help people that want to help me I work 630 am so I wake up at 6 am Im 19 so obviously my sleep rotation isnt great so im working on that as well I plan on going to bed at 10 on work days from now on instead of the usual 12 or 1 (for the past 7 months) If anyone can help, positive feed back, staright forward feedback anything please I came down to the last straw marijuana is my enemy as bad as I never wanted to believe it.. it is I feel as if I concor this I seriously can concor the world. Please respond Sincerily Someone in dear need of help
its been day 19-21 (im not sure if I quit on the 3rd or the 5th) But I see some light at the end of the tunnel from other posts
I even have a good conversation about what I feel with my friends they say they feel the anxiety but not the whole "dreamy" state of mind but I think they want to quit but at the same time dont want to (like I was not too long ago) if they dont I still love them, if they do Ill still love em
but Im feeling a little better not anxiety every second more like every other second (for those who suffer from depersonlization that is a good feeling regardless of what you think) but yeah, I think its just a matter of time before im okay lol look at me here talking to myself because I have no other hope, but maybe someones out there reading this to care enough
one person put a good point in a bulletin I read
your body is just getting back to a sober happiness and fighting how many years/months/ etc youve been doing weed
like I said from 14 to now, ive done it
not consistantly but all in all at least 3 years all together straight
although im hopeful
I know this is an old post hopefully you still go on this website , Please see this because I want to know if you have been cured from this derealization, depersonalization , I'm 17 years old almost 18, I'm a Christian as well and believe in God, You aren't alone my friend I'm in the same condition you are in or were in,
I started to experiment with weed when I was a freshman in high-school one of my buddies smoked it a lot and I was strictly against it, well one day of course it came time that I tried it, And I really like it a lot, but a few months later I found a girlfriend and I smoked it on occasion , after we broke up though, I smoked it very heavily , for about I would say 3 years, up until 2 months ago, Well what caused my derealization really is some fake weed, called Climax, worst mistake of my life, I can remember the awful feeling of like everything was going to end , as if this was it my life is over im dead, I had the feeling as if I couldn't breathe just as you are describing , but when I was high on this fake weed , it was very intense , after I came down from it , I took it as a sign from God to stop because I had previously tried to quit for many months now. The one thing that really bothers me the most is not feeling like myself, feeling as if everything is an illusion and this is all a dream this really scares me, I pray every night and I won't lie it has gotten better but very slowly, I still feel detach from my surrounds and everything looks different to me , I hate this sh*t man I want it to go away I just don't know what to do, I hope you see this and read my story because I'm at my end of the rope so to speak
Also I know you don;t know me , but I care for you man I know exactly how you feel and I need some help please man Im begging I don't know what to do , It's driving my crazy ( even thought I know I'm not going crazy) but still it bothers me a lot. Please if you could help and care I would really appericate it !
GOD BLESS YOU I HOPE ALL IS WELL WITH YOU AND YOU ARE 100 PERCENT BACK TO REALITY!
Guys this may be a tad bit late but, I have been in the same boat and I still am dealing with the same issues you guys are having (been about 1 month and a half now). My story is very similar to yours, smoked weed in highschool sophmore year and been on and off to about my second semester in college (freshman). but be of good courage dear friends cause luckily you have what many people don't and thats God. Sure you can reduce anxiety and panic with excercise and some omega 3 supplements but what makes them really work into full gear is having a close and personal spiritual relationship with God. Jesus is the answer to all your problems and trust me I know what it feels like, I too feel like I'm going insane (although I know Im not crazy deep down). But it can be really maddening especially with the few nightmares that come from time to time. But when dealing with this personally, I didn't really know what to do but just trust in God to make things better and that alone helped but then I also applied excercise and a healthier diet to the mix and I'm telling you I am almost cured, but I do get flashbacks which trigger my anxiety from time to time but when that happens I