I have syringomyelia. It surfaced after being injured in a fall in the Army. It was discovered I have Arnold Chiari malformation. I have been in pain since 1988. Multiple surguries for these conditions and other surguries on problems these conditions have caused. Been from darvocet to fentenal (mispelled I'm sure)patchs. Codones to Contins. Lying to docs on severity of pain in fear that they would not give me enough to lying because I was (or am) addicted. The medical types call me Dependant not addicted (no difference to me).
The last 4 years I have been on methadone (45mgs daily) with hydrocodone once or twice a year when I do something stupid (lift something to heavy ect.) I do not crave narcotics in fact when I do take hydrocodone and feel high, it scares me. Afraid I am going to OD or racked with guilt about enjoying the buzz. What is wrong about taking methadone for constant, permanent pain? I am rated 100 disabled by the VA and on Social Sec Disability. I still work part time more for the sense of purpose than the money. Is there anything wrong with taking the methadone with occasional hydro. I tell my doc EVERYTHING, going to her for 4 years. Why do I feel bad about it????
The last 4 years I have been on methadone (45mgs daily) with hydrocodone once or twice a year when I do something stupid (lift something to heavy ect.) I do not crave narcotics in fact when I do take hydrocodone and feel high, it scares me. Afraid I am going to OD or racked with guilt about enjoying the buzz. What is wrong about taking methadone for constant, permanent pain? I am rated 100 disabled by the VA and on Social Sec Disability. I still work part time more for the sense of purpose than the money. Is there anything wrong with taking the methadone with occasional hydro. I tell my doc EVERYTHING, going to her for 4 years. Why do I feel bad about it????
dont feel guilty man,enjoy the buzz better than hurting.
You just told my exact story. Except mine started in 83. Everything u said. Everything was me. From army to darvocet to exagerating to get enough to fear of od. Wow. Spooky