motivation quitting marijuana

weed used to be fun until now where i only get less then a quarter enjyment i used to get and i am thinking that the whole myth that weed is good for you is a big lie and all those that say weed is a waste of time are being proven right.i used to think weed would further my mind and open me to new things
na it never did and know i can't even hope to find enlightenment cause weed doesn't even work right anymore
weed is a drug and it has me so screwed up i wanna SCREAM AT61 whoever says it isn't a drug
f**k marijuana it is a lie the whole entire culture
(little do all these smokers that smoke whenever they can don't know is they should enjoy it while they can cause eventually they won't be able to without quiiting for a while the more they get into it)
so why not quit you say
cause i can't stop myself and i can't explain it in sensible terms cause it makes no sense why i am so addicted to something i have so much hate for
DON'T TELL ME I'M WRONG CAUSE THESE ARE FROM REAL LIFE EXPERIENCES

It's nice to find this anonymous place to post about this. I am 30 and have been smoking since I turned 18. In that time I have never quit for more than 6 months or so at a time. I couldn't even quit when I was pregnant and breastfeeding my two girls, although I cut back a lot while pregnant and tried to get high only between nursings; I just found some studies online that said there was no proof of damage to justify my actions. I never liked driving stoned, but did it anyways sometimes.

I have struggled with a lot of self-hatred and anger issues and pot helps numb the pain. I don't feel like my life has gone nowhere because of weed. I'm married, college degree, nice house, had a well-paid job before kids and now am a stay at home mom, nice nest egg, etc. But I have a lot of guilt about it. Especially now connecting with other moms and going to church, I feel like it is my secret and no one would accept me if they knew. I do have a basis for this feeling -- my parents threatened to disown me for smoking pot and my best friend from high school severed contact with me a couple of years ago after an argument about smoking.

I have had some negative physical effects from getting high, vertigo and headaches being the most common. At some level, I don't even enjoy the physical sensation of being high anymore. There is an inner voice telling me that I will never be truly happy until I quit. I quit for a month or so at the beginning of the year and again over the summer and felt happier and more productive than usual.

My husband is also a stoner, he's the one who introduced me to the drug in the first place, and I feel like the weed is a bond between us. He likes me to smoke because I don't get as angry. He is always the one who scores the weed, so it is no effort on my part. My cousin who is one of my best friends is also a big stoner and is always egging me on to smoke.

Weed is like an old friend and I have some memories of great experiences of getting high, especially on vacations or at parties. I sometimes feel that weed helps me get through illness and PMS. I wish I could be at a place to use weed only occasionally, but from my experiments so far this year of quitting and then trying to go back to limited use I am not sure if this will be possible for me. I have decided to make October a clean month, and have made it 8 days without smoking. The cravings are always so intense, and I almost caved last night because I had a headache, but I know I can make it one lousy month. At some point maybe I will decide that it's not worth it to smoke again because quitting feels so lousy, but I'm not quite ready to say "never again."

I am so glad I found this site... I am at Day 5 of being clean of pot, it has been a secret that only my boyfriend (& his dealers) know about. That alone has played a huge toll on me; When I was younger and living at home my parents overheard a phone conversation where I mentioned the word "pot" & I was kicked out of the house, temporarily. (I was a D.A.R.E. Role Model!) I tried it a few times at "parties" which was always safe & fun. Now that I have been smoking almost everyday after work & on weekends (For more than 4 years). I wonder is the high really worth it? It's not, I have lost my friend, energy, & excitement for life. My boyfriend supports me in my wanting to quit (he too mentions that maybe he will too) I am at a dead end job & if I want to make something of myself this is the only way out - to quit. A year ago, I applied for the company that I wanted to work for, when it came to the drug test, we totally thought I had it (with kits to help me pass).. I was so ashamed & embarressed when I failed it. The drug was good to me when I needed it. I completely identify with the last post where she talks about the "inner voice".. I never felt like I "fit in" at church or with my sober friends.. I will be leaning on God to help me through this with prayer for strength, courage, & love - to know that I am better than this. Everytime, I see the pipe & get the urge I tell myself "It's day 5 - You can do this!" over and over, until I think of something else to keep busy with.. I wish you all the very best in this struggle for a better life! God Bless!

I love people that say weed keeps you holed up in your house and you won't go anywhere in life. I have a house a degree and a family. I smoke precisecly so I won't be bored in my house when there's no more work to be done. I would have been "holed" up in my house either way because I hate people in general.

I love how therapists always say if you want to be happy go out there and connect with people...let me tell you something...there are very few people out there who genuinely wish you well. Everyone i know who is "connected" leads a life of drama. They substitue drug use for drama and co-dependency. If you really want to be happy...Pray, Work, take care of your children...but involving alot of strangers into your life? I would advise spending that time with your family and parents. ...Just look at how judgemental everyone is on this website...they chastise everyone with their knowledge of the effects of marijuana (that they cut and pasted from a website) and will probably be smoking again tommorow.

my name is wendy and i am a weed addict....i have been smoking marijuana for the past 14 years and my life is basically sh*t because of it.i am 27 years old and i have nothing going for myself.no education no job no friends.the only thing i do have is two beautiful children and i want to be the best mom i can be but i feel weed is not making that possible.i say i want to quit but the temptation and urge to smoke is so strong.i feel like i have no support to even stay clean a week.i read all the other stories and i find commen ground with almost all of the posters.today i am going to take charge of my life and really make an outstanding effort to quit.the only thing i think that can help me is to pray,pray,pray and keep a journel to express how im feeling day to day.everyone out there pray for me as i will do the same for you.

I smoked marijuana habitually for 5 1/2 years and a week ago decided to give it up. I am experiencing almost all of the physical and psychological effects of quitting. Since I've quit I have gotten hives twice just in little patches on my body. I'm wondering if that has anything to do with the marijuana cessation or if it's completely unrelated. Has anyone else experienced hives after quitting?

I am 20 years old and have been smoking weed for about 3 years daily. It has effected numerous parts of my life and it has effected my brain most. I smoke about a gram or less a day. I am very happy to read about people quitting succesfully. I hope to enroll in college this spring and hope to be smoke free. I have a love/hate relationship with pot, may the best man WIN! Good luck to you all!




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I HAVE BEEN SMOKING FOR 15 YEARS EVERYDAY AND WHEN I DON'T SMOKE U BETTER GET OUT MY WAY..WELL I'M TRING TO GET CLEAN AND IT'S THE HARDEST THING TO DO . I AM SICK I'M CRYIN JUST ABOUT ALL DAY. I WAS A TRUE WEED HEAD I WOULD SMOKE FROM SUN UP TILL I FELL OUT.THIS DRUG IS JUST LIKE ANYOTHER AND WHO EVER DONT THINK SO HAVE NOT SMOKED WELL AT LEAST NOT LIKE I DID I WENT THOUGH POUNDS A MONTH.I'VE BEEN CLEAN FOR 3 DAYS NOW AND IT'S ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS I HAD TO DO.CAN'T EAT CAN'T SLEEP I CAN'T EVEN CLEAN UP MY HOUSE.I FEEL WEAK I THINK WEED GAVE ME ENERGY..

I can identify with everyone on this site. I've tried to quit 3 times this year—and it's proven to be the hardest thing I've ever attempted. I know I can't do this alone—it's clear that I can't. I thought I had a handle on my addiction a few weeks ago. I'd been clean for 9 days (my 3rd successful quit attempt this year), and I thought a little "taste" would be OK. When I took the "taste" I didn't even like the stuff anymore, so I thought I beat it. Then I tried a little more again the following week, and it began growing on me again. Now I'm back to work after calling out sick for 3 days. I really spent the entire time holed up in my house getting high—it was the equivalent to a second honeymoon, I think. I was rekindling the intimacy I had with this drug (a 6-year relationship). Sick, right?!!!

I have a really bad smoking habit for the past 1 1/2 yrs. between myself and my housemate we go through a Q every 2 days or even a q in a day if we are really going off.
i have recently made the decision to quit.
i have been getting headaches, cant sleep, sweats, hot and cold flushes and you dont want to be near me at the moment.
BUT i have my mind set and i am positive that i will get through these nasty withdrawls.
I hope that i will be able to post a message soon to let yall know that i have gone great guns and i am clear of the dope.

I have found that swimming and going to the gym actually eliviates the symptoms of withdrawl. i am hoping that if i force the drugs out by sweating it out in the gym then my withdrawl will pass faster.

speak to yall soon and good luck to everybody else out there going through the same thing.

College student and 1 year pot smoker here. I have found all the posts in this thread to be very helpful. I know I'm not alone!

I just started taking the drug Chantix to help me quit smoking cigarettes. I have found a few sources that say Chantix could block the same sensors in the brain the dopamine goes to when you smoke marijuana. I'm crossing my fingers and I will let everyone know how it goes.

Hey I am a Soph in college at the University of Oregon. I am 19 and first smoked when I was 13. I have been smoking every day since my Senior year of high school. I graduated highschool with a 3.8 GPA. During that time I would maybe smoke around 1.5 grams in 3-4 days out of a small pipe. In the past two years my habit has spiraled out of control. I can put away 4-5 grams a day just my self but the funny thing is that even though I smoke all day, I rarely feel tired from it anymore. Does anyone else expierence that. I have managed to spend a whole lot of money on smoking supplies, I have a couple 3 foot bongs, 3 two footers, and a 5 footer that I have to stand on the stairs to hit. Smoking weed has become such a social part of my college life style that it is impossible to not be completly surrounded by maryjane. With all that said though I have maintained very good grades. I have been on the deans list at UofO every semester I have taken. I have been seriously contemplaiting quiting for two months now but I am concerned that without marijuana in my life what the hell am i going to do!

My regular day would be wake up roll a blunt. Make breakfast. Smoke my blunt. Eat my breakfast and watched ESPN News. I go to class for 4 hours everyday high as a kite and just sit in the class like a spounge for words. If there is homework assigned I go back to my apartment and burn through like 4 bowls and do that homework. I am soo sooo concerned that if I am not high I won't be able to focus. Well I pretty much know that I won't be able to. I know as weird as this may sound does anyone have any advice?

I'm a 23 year old female and have been smoking pot for 7 years now with a varying degree of frequency (sometimes 1-2 times a week, other periods constantly..) but for the past 3 years I have smoked pretty much daily (except when I couldn't get any.)

I quit today....

I feel that since I have smoked so much during such an integral phase of my adolescence/ early adulthood, that I have become lost in the "stoner" persona and feel like my personality is buried under layers and layers of numbness, neglect, and the sad weight of lost time. I remember, in my childhood, being bright, positive, and sure of myself. I'm not bragging, but I was considered "gifted", had an incredibly easy time getting through school, was a natural leader, and felt happiness through dancing, singing, acting, and being creative... and most of all, sharing my gifts with others. I was raised in a very Christian home, although I am not religious in the least anymore... that being said, without weed to give me comfort (even if its false, kind of like how I held onto the idea of "jesus" but in an even less healthy way) I feel as though I have nothing to grasp onto, to keep me grounded, to lean on when I am in need.

Soon after I started smoking, I had a new sense of freedom, of a deeper level of thinking I never knew I had, a better time socializing, as if I had finally found myself... life was exciting... but of course, those feelings went away with my frequency of use... Not to blame it completely on weed, but these last 7 years have been the most difficult of my entire life thus far. I have been repeatedly treated for depression and eating disorders. My relationship with my family deteriorated to the point where I felt i had no choice but to move across the country, i lost a full-ride scholarship, and quit dancing. I could have lost everything, but somehow I haven't.

Luckily, I still have good things in my life, and I know without the veil of weed I will be able to enjoy them more fully. I'm in school (although I have dropped many classes... but it can only go up from here). I have a good job, which I know I will be able to devote myself to more fully and relate better to my coworkers. I have a family who still loves me (and who also don't know what i'm going though at all because i've always kept it secret). I have a wonderful boyfriend who is also abstaining with me.. thank God, or else it would be way harder to quit. I've been blessed with all of these wonderful things and I don't want to lose them, because i know if i keep using, the thread which is keeping all intact will break, letting me know how sad my life really is and devastating those i love.

I do not want to speak too negatively about the drug. It can be really fun, and it did help open my eyes to alot of things, but everyone is different, and i do not like the way it is affecting me anymore. I'm so excited to find out who i am and to unleash potential i always knew i had but haven't been able to express due to my marijuana use. I've blamed my depression on so many other things without ever thinking of the weed as negative... but it really hit me how obvious it is that weed is a large factor hindering my personal growth.

Sorry to be so long-winded. It was really nice to read everyone's posts. Its good to know others are going through really similar experiences. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

I have smoked everyday for 10 years and it has been a fun ride. I didn't plan on quitting. So many things are happening in my life and I feel like I am just rolling with the punches and haven't taken a moment to understand all that is important to me. I am almost 30, just had my first child a few months ago and I became somewhat scared of losing a grip on reality as a whole. I drink less than 10 times a year and dabble in other 'goodies' only once or twice a year. I have convinced myself that pot will not stop me from being the person I want to be. I admit that in my late teens and early twenties I went overboard, a fifth of liqour and a few grams of powder became a daily ritual, slowly I stopped drinking and after starting work in 'the real world' I lost most of my cravings for coke or XTC. I took pride in being cleaned up and happy to have survived some brutal nights. I have lost a few friends who allowed the needle to take them, but I consider pot a far cry from a hardcore drug. I am unsure of my next step with pot, I never felt like it stopped me from moving on with my life- but it has. Financially it doesn't crush me, 90 dollar 1/4 is my habit, but I think pot has allowed me to condone lowering my standards to fit in my life around pot. I love being high, absolutely love it, I am just drawn to the fact of seeing the world differently for awhile and to see if I have been screing up and losing time or if pot is a fairly creative way of wasting time. I appreciate you reading this and I will repost as time goes by to see where it takes me. Day 3 has been tough and the little food I have eaten has not stayed with me, mentally I am not hurting- but I think about getting high everytime I do something that is a situation I am used to smoking. Every cigarette is a reminder, I have quit mid-bag and I think that is helping me- If I wanted it then it is here and that makes me realize that I don't need to sweat it. Good luck to those quitting or trying to, I don't think it's what pot does to you that should make you quit, but what you may be missing may make quitting the best thing to happen to some of us.

i have been smoking weed now everyday for a few years. I'm struggling with uni, and can no loger afford for weed to mess up my education. i want to quit badly and i have decided i will. i hvent smoked for 2 days now, but my sleep is being affected with sweating and waking up every few hours...is this normal?

I am worried that if i give up i will have not much left, as all my friends smoke weed all day and what will i do?

Despite these worries im determine to jus give up, and good luck to everyone else who wants to...