Hey, Man Im gonna try 20 years Im 38 I have to I smoke a half once a week I used to snoke over an once. But you guys have inspired me Ive been dossing down so I can do it. I will try jogging at least twice a day. I never wanted to quit one reason I want to say when and all that macho BS, I want to be free!! Wish me luck!!! Ive driven over a 100 miles to get high that sucks!
B from CHITOWN
B from CHITOWN
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Im 32 have smoked yarndi since i was 12 and been a quarter a week smoker since I was 18. Ive tried cutting back making a quarter last 2 weeks.This only lasts a couple of months and then I'm back into it. I always thought I'd give up by the time I was 20 , then 25 then 30. I now have two children and still smoke a quarter a week. I also go to uni and struggle with the work load. I smoke before work/uni. I take it with me and have a puff during the middle of the day. The first thing I do when I get home is mull up. It takes away all my motivation to play with the kids. I end up on the pc or watching tele.
I used to be an athlete, in rugby, tae kwon doe, touch footy, surfing and judo with about 11% body fat (pretty fit). Now I play cricket and work up a sweat just standing there.
This year Im taking giving up seriously. Reading these posts has given me more motivation and determination than ever before. Im fed up with chasing it all the time , Im fed up with my rapidly deteriorating health. Im fed up with spending my hard earned cash on it. But most of all Im fed up with my family being fed up with me and my dope addiction.
My wife found this site for me after I was getting anxious and impatient. I Cant thank her enough or you, fellow posters who have been so honest and suggestive.
Thanks for reading , this is the most honest i have ever been about my addiction and by writing this post, it alone has given me a new found strength for quitting.
Cheers
I used to be an athlete, in rugby, tae kwon doe, touch footy, surfing and judo with about 11% body fat (pretty fit). Now I play cricket and work up a sweat just standing there.
This year Im taking giving up seriously. Reading these posts has given me more motivation and determination than ever before. Im fed up with chasing it all the time , Im fed up with my rapidly deteriorating health. Im fed up with spending my hard earned cash on it. But most of all Im fed up with my family being fed up with me and my dope addiction.
My wife found this site for me after I was getting anxious and impatient. I Cant thank her enough or you, fellow posters who have been so honest and suggestive.
Thanks for reading , this is the most honest i have ever been about my addiction and by writing this post, it alone has given me a new found strength for quitting.
Cheers
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Like many of the people on here I am a chronic pot smoker. I want to stop and have tried a couple times recently but have found the physical and mental withdrawl symptoms to be so uncomfortable that I keep smoking again. I'm wondering if anyone knows of a Marijuana users support group in Vancouver BC? Sort of like an AA meeting, but for pot users? Somehow I don't feel that I will fit into a room full of alcoholics or hard drug users, and would like to be able to work with people who understand this particular addiction. Any advice is appreciated :-)
To those of you who have quit, good for you, I hope to join your ranks very soon.
To those of you who have quit, good for you, I hope to join your ranks very soon.
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There are a lot of thoughtful posts here. I'm a 35-year-old mother of a 2-year-old girl. I married a man whose family are growers, so the supply is virtually endless. I've been smoking weed every evening for about 8 years now (excepting most of my pregnancy), and feel it's no longer beneficial for me. I've developed a good deal of tolerance for it, so I don't get as much out of it. Plus, I've lost a lot of my emotions and motivation. Whatever happened to joy?
Quitting can be psychologically painful for me, amid the mild nausea and insomnia and ensuing temporary pop-my-top insanity from lack of sleep. During the first week of quitting, I always feel as if my brain is exposed to the world and all my nerve endings are splayed above my head, waving, being burned by the air and light of sobriety. That's how I visualize the sensation, anyway. After that, I'm still spacey for several weeks, which is frustrating for me. I want that clear-headedness to return, and I've never made it far enough for it to really happen. I wonder if my mind will ever return to what it was before I began toking regularly, or if I must get accustomed to a "new normal."
I've been watching a local community college class on "Understanding Addictions." The instructor is really great, informative, well-rounded, and uses science-based addiction information, and applies this information with respect to people's ethnic and cultural backgrounds. He finds 12-Steps to be limited in its usefulness, besides its low rate of recovery, but it has its gems. He does draw out what has been shown to help in all information he comes across.
So at this point, I think the first thing we can do, once we decide we have a problem, is to begin educating ourselves about the mechanisms of addiction. Even if we're addicted to weed, we are probably addicted to other things, what the instructor calls "process addictions," like watching too much TV, or... I can't remember any others off the bat.
I've also read that addiction may be a form of learning. Maybe you could google that for more info, but it's an interesting concept at face value. I'm not together enough at 4am to explain it more.
Anyway, when we have knowledge, we have more power to overcome addictions and other maladaptive behaviors.
Also, I've noticed that I'm getting a lot of that "weed isn't addictive" sort of response from in-laws and friends, and I find it a bit dismissive and unhelpful. It comes across to me the same way my straight-laced conservative parents think about depression: "just pull up your bootstraps" sort of mentality. It doesn't work that way with everyone.
Another thing I think would be very helpful, once we're better educated about our addiction(s) is to be able to strongly visualize what our lives would look like without weed. While of course we can't tell the future, we can at least lay down the basis for new behaviors in our minds. My theory is that visualization could help us start new neural pathways in our brains, so we'd have a template to step into when we actually decide to quit weed forever.
Personally, I need help with this visualization part. I've been thinking about going to a hypnotist to help with that visualization. I wish they had a virtual reality simulation to help us recover, like the military does with PTSD-affected soldiers these days.
Also, the instructor in the class I watch says that Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Modified Behavioral Therapy have been successful approaches for dealing with addiction.
Just in case anyone's wondering about this: I was also afraid to seek help for my addiction, because I thought the state would take away my daughter (I'm a pretty good mother -- but I would be better without weed) if I 'fessed up to toking an illegal substance. It would be terrible for all of us if she were taken from me, and would just make everything so much worse. That was my fear.
But a friend of mine who is familiar with the system said I won't be bothered at all. They'll only report someone who is a real danger to their child, and most pot smokers do not fall into that category.
Now I feel free to seek counseling. Except that I have absolutely no health insurance, quit work when I had my daughter, and my husband has been sick and underemployed for over a year. So I am attempting to go back to work in a field I wish I could get out of -- but the benefits are excellent, and I'm highly competent at the work, and we just plain need me to go back so we're better off and my husband can get appropriate treatment for his illnesses -- and so I can, as well.
I guess I have to deal with pain at some point. That is what weed shields me from.
Well, I guess I just decided to unload. This is a really long post, and I'd like to include more information. But I'm really too long-winded. Anyway, this seems like a safe place to let it out. Thanks for listening, and I hope some of the information I've shared is helpful to any of you.
Quitting can be psychologically painful for me, amid the mild nausea and insomnia and ensuing temporary pop-my-top insanity from lack of sleep. During the first week of quitting, I always feel as if my brain is exposed to the world and all my nerve endings are splayed above my head, waving, being burned by the air and light of sobriety. That's how I visualize the sensation, anyway. After that, I'm still spacey for several weeks, which is frustrating for me. I want that clear-headedness to return, and I've never made it far enough for it to really happen. I wonder if my mind will ever return to what it was before I began toking regularly, or if I must get accustomed to a "new normal."
I've been watching a local community college class on "Understanding Addictions." The instructor is really great, informative, well-rounded, and uses science-based addiction information, and applies this information with respect to people's ethnic and cultural backgrounds. He finds 12-Steps to be limited in its usefulness, besides its low rate of recovery, but it has its gems. He does draw out what has been shown to help in all information he comes across.
So at this point, I think the first thing we can do, once we decide we have a problem, is to begin educating ourselves about the mechanisms of addiction. Even if we're addicted to weed, we are probably addicted to other things, what the instructor calls "process addictions," like watching too much TV, or... I can't remember any others off the bat.
I've also read that addiction may be a form of learning. Maybe you could google that for more info, but it's an interesting concept at face value. I'm not together enough at 4am to explain it more.
Anyway, when we have knowledge, we have more power to overcome addictions and other maladaptive behaviors.
Also, I've noticed that I'm getting a lot of that "weed isn't addictive" sort of response from in-laws and friends, and I find it a bit dismissive and unhelpful. It comes across to me the same way my straight-laced conservative parents think about depression: "just pull up your bootstraps" sort of mentality. It doesn't work that way with everyone.
Another thing I think would be very helpful, once we're better educated about our addiction(s) is to be able to strongly visualize what our lives would look like without weed. While of course we can't tell the future, we can at least lay down the basis for new behaviors in our minds. My theory is that visualization could help us start new neural pathways in our brains, so we'd have a template to step into when we actually decide to quit weed forever.
Personally, I need help with this visualization part. I've been thinking about going to a hypnotist to help with that visualization. I wish they had a virtual reality simulation to help us recover, like the military does with PTSD-affected soldiers these days.
Also, the instructor in the class I watch says that Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Modified Behavioral Therapy have been successful approaches for dealing with addiction.
Just in case anyone's wondering about this: I was also afraid to seek help for my addiction, because I thought the state would take away my daughter (I'm a pretty good mother -- but I would be better without weed) if I 'fessed up to toking an illegal substance. It would be terrible for all of us if she were taken from me, and would just make everything so much worse. That was my fear.
But a friend of mine who is familiar with the system said I won't be bothered at all. They'll only report someone who is a real danger to their child, and most pot smokers do not fall into that category.
Now I feel free to seek counseling. Except that I have absolutely no health insurance, quit work when I had my daughter, and my husband has been sick and underemployed for over a year. So I am attempting to go back to work in a field I wish I could get out of -- but the benefits are excellent, and I'm highly competent at the work, and we just plain need me to go back so we're better off and my husband can get appropriate treatment for his illnesses -- and so I can, as well.
I guess I have to deal with pain at some point. That is what weed shields me from.
Well, I guess I just decided to unload. This is a really long post, and I'd like to include more information. But I'm really too long-winded. Anyway, this seems like a safe place to let it out. Thanks for listening, and I hope some of the information I've shared is helpful to any of you.
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Hello everyone. I'm writing in because I'm on day one of quitting smoking pot. I'm 31 years old, and have smoked pot, pretty much all day every day, for 14 years. I quit once back in '05, with not so much as a puff in the four months I had set down as my "dry spell". I got very sick during the first week, with horrible flu-like symptoms and a temp nearing 102 degrees, but the following week felt better. I made it all the way through, then allowed myself to start again after the four months was up. Now, four years later, my first child is on the way, so I'm quitting again. I can't think of a better reason (as far as $ and riskiness), nor a better time to be clear and fully experiencing life as a new parent. Some people can just smoke now and then, or quit for a semester or period of time with no problem. I can't. When I quit before, I kept my will strong, but always knew that I could smoke again in the future.I've tried being moderate with my use, but always slip back into the "wake and bake through bedtime" model of pothead-ism. I've lied about how much I've spent, smoked in many situatuations (work, visiting with family, etc) that were inappropriate, and continued patterns of smoking even though about 10% of the time it causes moderate to severe anxiety, wich I counter with the occassional Xanax (one drug to enable another). I live my life, working full time as well as gigging frequently with three bands, and many non-smokers have referred to me as "the most high-functioning pothead" they've ever met. The real problem is that the hole I'm filling, the boredom I'm covering, they are mysteries to me. I like to slightly alter my perception, to puff down before a movie or concert, and let the experience take over. I just don't know why my "baseline", or un-stoned normal mental state, seems so unfulfilling to me. Maybe it just looks that way in comparison to being high. I understand that life is not all fun, but more a series of very routine activities punctuated by the occassional high or low. Anyone who has smoked pot regularly knows that it can certainly make a boring activity more interesting. But for someone like me, who has been smoking pot for their entire adult life, how do you go back? What is this real sense of happiness and contentedness, and how does one find it? I was recently laid off from my job, so I can't afford therapy right now, which has been very helpful in the past. I already exercise, and enjoy it, but I'm no fitness freak. Any tips on how to fill the void?
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I decided that I am going to stop smoking weed today. I am ruining my life slowly but surely. I recently got promoted at work and I have called in sick for 2 days, I have faked a car accident and called in for another 2 days, all to sit around at home and smoke weed. I think I am basically setting myself up for failure. I have feelings of inadequacy and use weed to try to solve them. Yet weed makes the feelings worse, it is the solution, and the PROBLEM. I have no sex drive, and my girlfriend is always upset. I'd rather sit and smoke weed and jerk off to internet porn than have a meaningful and healthy relationship. It is time to change.
I have been smoking weed for about 12 years now, I'd say the last 8 have been getting high on a daily basis. I went from being a bright confident person to someone who feels nervous and ashamed. I am baked right now, and I feel guilty. I did sell the rest of what I had to a friend, roaches and all. Now I'm going to sell my grinder and bong to another. I'm throwing away anything that I use for pot.
I quit smoking cigarettes 6 days ago, so I may as well go through any withdrawl symptoms now, while the others are present. There is no time like now to change my life. I could stop living paycheck to paycheck, maybe go to a gym and regain some self confidence. Maybe salvage my job before I throw away a good salary.
I want to thank everyone for posting, I will be coming back daily to check this board out. Any comments are welcome.
I have been smoking weed for about 12 years now, I'd say the last 8 have been getting high on a daily basis. I went from being a bright confident person to someone who feels nervous and ashamed. I am baked right now, and I feel guilty. I did sell the rest of what I had to a friend, roaches and all. Now I'm going to sell my grinder and bong to another. I'm throwing away anything that I use for pot.
I quit smoking cigarettes 6 days ago, so I may as well go through any withdrawl symptoms now, while the others are present. There is no time like now to change my life. I could stop living paycheck to paycheck, maybe go to a gym and regain some self confidence. Maybe salvage my job before I throw away a good salary.
I want to thank everyone for posting, I will be coming back daily to check this board out. Any comments are welcome.
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Hi again. I'm now on day three of quitting reefer. So far, it's not as bad as last time. I'm feeling depressed, have some aches and pains (lower back and legs), and have very little appetite. The hardest part is missing the change in mental state. I always loved that first bowl of the day, or the one on the drive home from work with the tunes cranked. It was like a series of small rewards throughout the day, knowing that no matter what I had to do during the day, at some point I could have my fun and have that nice tasty rip of weed. It's like a way to be a kid again! Must say that life feels a little "flat" right now. Hoping this will change!!
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Wow I'm glad I came upon this site. Drum...i'm on Day 3 too...we can do this and it's simply willpower and mind over matter.
I am 41 and have been smoking since high school. So many of my stories are so similar to others it's crazy. I'm a heavy user, I only smoke bongs...go through usually an oz./week of chronic for about 12 years. Was light at first in high school, then around 97-98 I started smoking a shitload. Money is and never has been an issue and it's always been readily available.
I am a functioning pothead with a degree, toys, success, a good job....but I am missing a lot in life that I feel has been caused by weed.
This past Sunday I decided for no real reason to quit cold turkey. I haven't decided if it's forever or only to clean out but after spending about 5 hours last nite and 2 hours tonite only reading this site and these threads, I may give it up for good.
I quit one time in 2005 for 6 weeks to pass a drug test but the day I got the results from my new employer(clean) I toked up hardcore and jumped right back in.
Now to the why: I am single, never married and just like others I live alone in my own little solitary, warm, comfy, weed-induced world. I don't go out and don't like to go out b/c that interferes with weed smoking. I don't like to go on vacations b/c I got to either sneak it on the plane (real smart) or jones on the trip. When I visit my parents during the holidays, I'd sneak outside behind their house and smoke throughout the day. I horde my quarter pounds of weed all to myself, lie to my friends when I score, smoke by myself, don't invite friends over to smoke with me nor do I care to because that means sharing my precious stash. Sick huh?
My relationships with friends and family have been affected. It seems that during the past 5 years I have been extremely depressed and unhappy. All I want to do is smoke when I wake up, come home for lunch and get high, and then get high all night when I get home from work till i pass out....all by myself in my own little world.
I want to break out of my rut. I want to get back to a normal relationship with my parents while they are still alive. I want to quit the anxiety attacks when I start running low on weed or my guy doesn't come through in a timely manner. I would like to have meaningful relationships with friends and a social life. I want to quit spending $1500/month for the past 12 years.
Yeah, I'm addicted and I need to quit. So today is Day 3 and my palms are sweating as I write this. I can't sleep for sh*t (2 hours at best last nite), stomach is a little shaky and haven't eaten hardly anything the past few days. Losing a few pounds will be awesome though. I've lost 25 pounds over the past year by working out and trying to get more healthy and I need to lose more. Those were muchie/weed/lazyass/computer games/couch potato pounds I put on.
The last time I quit I remember the vivid dreams and am actually looking forward to them. As y'all said, man the dreams are soooo vivid and in color and i remember the whole thing (speaking from when I quit in '05). I am looking forward to the reams..I like the vivid dreams even if some are nightmares.
Unlike others, I quit mid bag and am looking at 3 oz. sitting right here. While I crave and desire to smoke, I have awesome willpower and self control. I will probably sell this off just so it's not sitting around...but it wouldn't tempt me anyway. Once I make my mind up and commit to something, I will own it and I will own this addiction...in time.
Peace and good luck to all my green brothers and sisters.
Just remember: willpower
I am 41 and have been smoking since high school. So many of my stories are so similar to others it's crazy. I'm a heavy user, I only smoke bongs...go through usually an oz./week of chronic for about 12 years. Was light at first in high school, then around 97-98 I started smoking a shitload. Money is and never has been an issue and it's always been readily available.
I am a functioning pothead with a degree, toys, success, a good job....but I am missing a lot in life that I feel has been caused by weed.
This past Sunday I decided for no real reason to quit cold turkey. I haven't decided if it's forever or only to clean out but after spending about 5 hours last nite and 2 hours tonite only reading this site and these threads, I may give it up for good.
I quit one time in 2005 for 6 weeks to pass a drug test but the day I got the results from my new employer(clean) I toked up hardcore and jumped right back in.
Now to the why: I am single, never married and just like others I live alone in my own little solitary, warm, comfy, weed-induced world. I don't go out and don't like to go out b/c that interferes with weed smoking. I don't like to go on vacations b/c I got to either sneak it on the plane (real smart) or jones on the trip. When I visit my parents during the holidays, I'd sneak outside behind their house and smoke throughout the day. I horde my quarter pounds of weed all to myself, lie to my friends when I score, smoke by myself, don't invite friends over to smoke with me nor do I care to because that means sharing my precious stash. Sick huh?
My relationships with friends and family have been affected. It seems that during the past 5 years I have been extremely depressed and unhappy. All I want to do is smoke when I wake up, come home for lunch and get high, and then get high all night when I get home from work till i pass out....all by myself in my own little world.
I want to break out of my rut. I want to get back to a normal relationship with my parents while they are still alive. I want to quit the anxiety attacks when I start running low on weed or my guy doesn't come through in a timely manner. I would like to have meaningful relationships with friends and a social life. I want to quit spending $1500/month for the past 12 years.
Yeah, I'm addicted and I need to quit. So today is Day 3 and my palms are sweating as I write this. I can't sleep for sh*t (2 hours at best last nite), stomach is a little shaky and haven't eaten hardly anything the past few days. Losing a few pounds will be awesome though. I've lost 25 pounds over the past year by working out and trying to get more healthy and I need to lose more. Those were muchie/weed/lazyass/computer games/couch potato pounds I put on.
The last time I quit I remember the vivid dreams and am actually looking forward to them. As y'all said, man the dreams are soooo vivid and in color and i remember the whole thing (speaking from when I quit in '05). I am looking forward to the reams..I like the vivid dreams even if some are nightmares.
Unlike others, I quit mid bag and am looking at 3 oz. sitting right here. While I crave and desire to smoke, I have awesome willpower and self control. I will probably sell this off just so it's not sitting around...but it wouldn't tempt me anyway. Once I make my mind up and commit to something, I will own it and I will own this addiction...in time.
Peace and good luck to all my green brothers and sisters.
Just remember: willpower
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I'm now on day 3 and I'm feeling pretty good. I'm not sure whether people have sweats and loss of appetite due to a physical addiction, or if it is the stress and uncertainty that comes with a major change that is the culprit. I'm happy to say things at work are going well, but I'm ashamed that I lied to them, making up car accidents and the like. I also went and visited my mom today and just talked for a couple hours. It has been a long ass time since we sat down and chilled. I sold my bong today and dont have anything left. I'm not sure whether my goal is to stop smoking green all together, but I want to go a year for sure. Once the year is up, I'll revisit the idea of smoking socially. We will have to wait and see. I know that I never want to be back where I was, smoking about a gram a day, every day for the past 8 years. I'm feeling good again.
If anyone reads this and is considering stopping, please do. If for only a few days. I'm feeling better today than I have in a long time, and for once I am looking forward to tomorrow.
If anyone reads this and is considering stopping, please do. If for only a few days. I'm feeling better today than I have in a long time, and for once I am looking forward to tomorrow.
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Dubble,
You, Drum and me are right together in the same boat, all having used heavily for a long time.
The cravings hit me in the am (normal time to wake and bake) and when I come home. I get fidgety & damn my house is cleaner than it's been in awhile.
Drum, did you mention your age? Also, did you come "clean" with your Mom/parents about all this?
I don't know if I should tell my family about the real me.
I'm thinking 6 months to a year would be a great start for me as well, then I can step back and evaluate then.
You, Drum and me are right together in the same boat, all having used heavily for a long time.
The cravings hit me in the am (normal time to wake and bake) and when I come home. I get fidgety & damn my house is cleaner than it's been in awhile.
Drum, did you mention your age? Also, did you come "clean" with your Mom/parents about all this?
I don't know if I should tell my family about the real me.
I'm thinking 6 months to a year would be a great start for me as well, then I can step back and evaluate then.
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Day 4 and I had my best nights sleep last night...still not enough but getting better. Still pretty much no appetite. My energy already seems to be getting better throughout the entire day....no more lunchtime bake sessions.
I felt better today and my chest and lungs seem to be clearer already. My nasal allergies are almost nil and it's allergy season. I think, well i know the weed contributed greatly to that. My lungs were pathetic and my chest already feels better.
I seem to be ok in the a.m. and during the day, but I still jones hard when I come home from work....that's my usual time to seriously enter the baked zone.
Damn my house is CLEAN! lol
Overall, today was much better and I'm hoping it will be every day here on out. Still not dreaming at all so the THC is still there and not flushed out enough. Actually looking forward to the vivid dreams.
I usually never respond to forums and would usually jsut read and absorb. I'm going to keep posting my experience as it makes me feel better.
Peace!
I felt better today and my chest and lungs seem to be clearer already. My nasal allergies are almost nil and it's allergy season. I think, well i know the weed contributed greatly to that. My lungs were pathetic and my chest already feels better.
I seem to be ok in the a.m. and during the day, but I still jones hard when I come home from work....that's my usual time to seriously enter the baked zone.
Damn my house is CLEAN! lol
Overall, today was much better and I'm hoping it will be every day here on out. Still not dreaming at all so the THC is still there and not flushed out enough. Actually looking forward to the vivid dreams.
I usually never respond to forums and would usually jsut read and absorb. I'm going to keep posting my experience as it makes me feel better.
Peace!
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Alright. Day 5! Well, technically it's day 5, but only because I'm still awake at 4:30 AM! Still doing okay. Tex and Dubble, keep it up. Weed is not evil, but just like a gun or an automobile, there's responsible and irresponsible use. I'm reminding myself of that, as well as anyone else who's reading. For those of you who've never quit before, remember this: if you take some time away from puffing, it's okay. I mean, it's hard, but it's not time lost. I quit for 4 months in '05, and when I came back, I didn't feel like I missed something big in those four months. And another word of advice for the recent or soon-to-be quitters: prepare your immune system! I'm not a doctor, but both times I've quit, I've gotten sick, which just makes the whole process more miserable. I think that the strain of withdrawal lowers the immune system, so get some O.J. and vitamins, and get some exercise, even just a short walk.
Tex, I'm a 31 year-old male, and, to answer your question, I have talked to my Mother about my quitting, if that's what you mean. She never encouraged me smoking pot, but understood that it's only part of who I am. I think she judges me on the whole picture, thankfully. I'm lucky that I've always been able to be open with her, and even though she's a devout Christian, she doesn't sit and point the finger at me, but loves me along with my faults. I'm sure this would be different if it was crack or something:)
My father and I have hardly spoken for the past 6 or 8 years, even though we live only about 15 miles apart. Is this a common situation for anyone else? I wonder if poor relationships with fathers contributes to addictive tendancies....
Anyhow, everyone stay on course. We are all supposed to be our own masters. At the end of the day, it's our own judgement we have to face,isn't it? I wish strength to us all. I'll check in again very soon.
Tex, I'm a 31 year-old male, and, to answer your question, I have talked to my Mother about my quitting, if that's what you mean. She never encouraged me smoking pot, but understood that it's only part of who I am. I think she judges me on the whole picture, thankfully. I'm lucky that I've always been able to be open with her, and even though she's a devout Christian, she doesn't sit and point the finger at me, but loves me along with my faults. I'm sure this would be different if it was crack or something:)
My father and I have hardly spoken for the past 6 or 8 years, even though we live only about 15 miles apart. Is this a common situation for anyone else? I wonder if poor relationships with fathers contributes to addictive tendancies....
Anyhow, everyone stay on course. We are all supposed to be our own masters. At the end of the day, it's our own judgement we have to face,isn't it? I wish strength to us all. I'll check in again very soon.
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Hey Tex, to address your question about whether to tell your family or not, here are my thoughts, just for consideration. It reallty depends on your particular family. If you realistically think they are just going to slam you for it and not offer any moral support, that's not going to help you. But if they are reasonable, and if you feel you can trust them, go for it. Even if there's only one family member who truly cares for you, and will respect your wishes and not blab, then talk to them about it. Family can be the absolute best of friends. I hope you have that avenue open to you!
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Today makes 1 week.
Yaay me.
This weekend was the hardest by far in terms of the craving and as I call it the jones factor. Friends were outta town, crappy weather outside, so it'd normally been a weekend where I entered the bake zone friday night and stayed heavily medicated till Monday morning.
Sleep is coming better, appetite seems to be improving...still no dreaming yet.
This sucks lol
Decided not going to get into this with the folks; while they would be supportive, I'll just save them the heartache. I think I'll tell my sister.
Peace
Yaay me.
This weekend was the hardest by far in terms of the craving and as I call it the jones factor. Friends were outta town, crappy weather outside, so it'd normally been a weekend where I entered the bake zone friday night and stayed heavily medicated till Monday morning.
Sleep is coming better, appetite seems to be improving...still no dreaming yet.
This sucks lol
Decided not going to get into this with the folks; while they would be supportive, I'll just save them the heartache. I think I'll tell my sister.
Peace
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I'm in the same boat, wanna quit after smoking daily for last two or three years... it was starting to affect me and my friendships - I've lost many friends although I don't know if it was the weed or not... who knows that's over now. Tomorrow will be day one and I know that once I'm not counting the days then I'm through it... good luck to everyone trying to quit, it's wonderfully comforting to read all nine pages of posts and know I'm not alone at all!!
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