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Hi my name is Andrea I am addicted to codeine and have been buying them over the counter for about 12 years now I take 8 a day every 4 hours without fail.In all the years I tried to kid myself and others that I wasn't addicted I have finally come to my senses and have admitted it a big step for me something has just clicked and now instead of 2013 being unlucky it is going to be lucky for me as I am going to stop these tablets.I have been looking through all the posts from the start and am thinking oh boy what have I done to myself,I am not looking forward to the withdrawal surely it cannot be any worse than giving up smoking which I thought I would never be able to do I have been smoke free for over 6 years now and for me a big achievement.I suffer with anxiety which the tablets helped at the start but I don't know who I am anymore,I see my doctor on Wednesday but not sure if I should tell him or not?My hubby is coming with me for moral support but I feel that this is a journey I have to do on my own as I think his patience is wearing a bit thin.

I have written a to do list,plenty of water vitamins to take and lots of research as I am sure with lack of sleep coming my way I will have plenty of time on my hands I am also doing another list so I can keep my mind busy  so I am not thinking of the tablets I have managed in the past to be free of these for 1 week but gave in as the headaches were bad and before I knew it am back to square one.I will be detoxing from these on Wednesday as I have booked some time of from work.I am so pleased that I have found this site as I don't no anyone who has the same problem as me and look forward to talking with you all sorry if I have rambled on any advice would be really appreciated.

Thanks Andrea.