I've been dating my boyfriend, Will, for 2 years. I know I love him because when I think of us breaking up I feel completely broken hearted. Just recently I have realized that it seems as if I feel no sympathy or passion towards him though. Like when we used to kiss I remember my heart beating harder, or getting butterflies in my stomach, but now I feel nothing. And its not just towards him. My dad was in the Phillipines when Japan had that huge earthquake and I thought it was going to hit the philippines too. I didn't feel sympathy to anyone but I know I was nervous about it hitting him. I've also noticed I can't differ my feelings that I do have. I mean most are obvious, but a lot of the time I can't tell some thing apart, so I am thinking that maybe I do feel passion and sympathy I just can't decipher what is what. I know that its been this way with pain in my body for years, like I can't tell the difference between being hungry or full or if my stomach is just hurting. I can't tell when my muscles are hurting or if its a nerve or my bones. I just want to know why I can't figure out what I'm feeling! And I'm scared that it'll ruin my relationship, because now I never feel like having sex with my boyfriend and it takes so much to get me to even consider having intercourse with him, even though sex with him is always, always good!
One thing I might add is that I had a concussion about a month ago, I hit the back right side of my head. Could this contribute to whats going on with me?
I should also mention that I've recently been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, and an undiagnosed problem with my hips and I've had problems with my stomach for quite some time and I'm not entirely sure what the problem is still. I also struggle with depression, I had a snowboarding accident 5 years ago where I tore all my soft tissue in my upper and my left side of my back, I pushed my spine out of alignment and I also had a concussion then. I also get severe chest pains when I'm active, and I get short of breath randomly. Just trying to let you know what else is wrong with me so maybe you can better figure out what is going on now.
One thing I might add is that I had a concussion about a month ago, I hit the back right side of my head. Could this contribute to whats going on with me?
I should also mention that I've recently been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, and an undiagnosed problem with my hips and I've had problems with my stomach for quite some time and I'm not entirely sure what the problem is still. I also struggle with depression, I had a snowboarding accident 5 years ago where I tore all my soft tissue in my upper and my left side of my back, I pushed my spine out of alignment and I also had a concussion then. I also get severe chest pains when I'm active, and I get short of breath randomly. Just trying to let you know what else is wrong with me so maybe you can better figure out what is going on now.
Thank you for sharing what is going on with you, I would ask first if your are taking any medications for your depression? What is your age group? There are many determining factors that could contribute to what you are going through especially the concussion. Did you go to the hospital during that incident? How long ago did this happen? Feeling confused about what your feeling can be normal or you may need to look a little closer. I would recommend first and foremost to speak to your doctor about what is going on with you and before your appointment write down any questions and information that you feel are pertinent to what is going on. The best thing we can do for ourselves is to do a evaluation of what is going on in our lives. What are we eating, drinking, are we exercising? Sometimes after a concussion we may have some memory loss don't be frustrated with yourself I would suggest small skill building exercises to relearn what you already know. I have suffered with depression myself for many years and I know sometimes I don't feel the the way should or know how to describe how I feel, perhaps it's because so much has happened that it begins to feel jumbled. So hope that gives you a place to begin. Good luck let me know how it goes.
I know how you feel the same things happens to me. I've been on medication for depression for about 5 years now. Sometimes I just (pardon my french) don't give a damn about anyone, even myself. It's like I'm lacking a certain thing I know I should have. I say I love you and I just feel hollow inside. The only emotions I truly feel are anxiety and anger. I haven't talked to my psychiatrists about this yet because I'm afraid she'll just look at me like I'm crazy. My therapists said it's my mind's natural escape from a difficult situation. That I just numb myself out so I won't get hurt. Maybe that's what your doing and just don't realize it. I was numb for so long that it's difficult to be come unnumb. To allow yourself to feel those emotions even if it does mean getting hurt. Anyway, that's my input.