Hey have a very odd story that i have to admit. Ok how do i start lets start from the beginning. ok so im 22 i have a very bad skin condition on my penis, i mean this looks like road rash that has healed now the skin is messed up what should i do. This started when I was 14 years old i was in the bathroom and i believe i scratched the skin raw. Then the skin got hyperpigmented. ok so i guess i kinda never went to the doctor i guess that makes me an id**t right. ok i mean iy was embrassing you know i just didnt wanted tell anybody. ok then i started masturbating dry with no lube and now the under side looks very very messed up yo. Ok so when i got older i think i wanted to treat it so you know i started applying hydroquinone and other skin treatments which resulted in my penis being overly sensitive it hurts me all the freaking time. i cant live like this it hurts. its ruining my entire life im serious. i feel like i cant work anywhere it hurts. Ive been to multiple docotors and non can help. I know im changing subjects here, but i was also discharged from the military and im struggling trying to find and keep jobs, my parents are tired of me and ready to kick me out. i cant take the stress its very overwhelming. My mother said i have one month to find a job and i cant take this im stressed. Hey everyone is jumping on me critizing me telling me im lazy calling me stupid and all of that may be true idk and i dont care anymore i just want the pain to stop im tired of suffering from one horrible decision. No knows my personal feelings im afraid to explain myself and my actions. but i have to do something or i might go homeless or even die. im tired yo, my life has been very odd anyways all this weird crazy stuff happening, plus me hurting myself in ways like this. Im a good looking dude and i believe i had a good heart but now i feel horrible like i just want to end it all, im living off my parents. they dont respect me anymore. i hate it. Everyone is jumping on me and telling me what they do for me and how much they do for me. All can think about is how much my freaking penis hurts. I dont drive, i dont have a license im just wasting time. im tired of life, its horrible dont want to continue but im scared of death so it like have no choice. I feel like freaking robb kardashian lol if you ever seen that show, where rob kardashian is depressed and his family is just critzing him, because they see that hes struggling and he attacks them with his words and just makes excuses and stuff, but they keep attacking him by calling him lazy and a loser lol. that makes me mad anyways, because his sister kim always calls him names and acts like shes the president of united states when shes just a reality star. Anyways not to get of topic but i had kinda say how i felt. Nobody cares about my feelings. I could type more but im tired of typing.